The Adventures of the Goddess of the Night

CHAPTER 2

"Erin.." call Mom as the door opens. Mother stood in the middle of the door folding her hands, leaning her shoulders against the door.

"yes ma'am".

I immediately got up from my sleeping position, then sat on the edge of the cot while looking down, hiding my pair of puffy eyes.

"You are, all day long in the room...!! go out there looking for work. Try to wonder where you know the job. Don't just lock yourself up all day," Mom's nagging softly, but enough to make my tears want to spill again.

I just fell silent not daring to look at Mom, not knowing what to say. Let alone asking others, to just say hello to the neighbors, sometimes I am embarrassed.

"When are you like this Rin? trouble the old man is usually." Mother's grumpy moved away from before me.

I could only wail without a sound of crying over my bad luck. Why is the world unfair to me? I just want to go to school like my friends.

My tears flooded my two dimmed cheeks.

*****

"Anyways, you should want to work at the depot of Mr. Imam. If you don't want to work where else? find a job not brave. Just go through it first while learning the work. Tomorrow Mr. Imam will come to pick you up." Mother said as she left me who had unconsciously cried without a sound.

This afternoon I just met with Ms. Tini, another neighbor of RT. Ms. Tini said she met a man named Mr. Imam who was looking for women from village to village to work in his depot.

The Imam lives in the next town. And as Tini's mom remembers, I'm the only girl who didn't go to school, so she told my mom to tell me about this.

It's tough, but I don't have a choice. Looking for another job, I did not have the courage, especially if I only had an Junior High diploma and did not have any skills.

All this makes me in a dilemma. Do I have to give up and accept my fate? On the other hand, I really wanted to go back to school, but I realized it was too late. I have no chance because I can't go back to school anymore, while my name has been crossed off the list of students.

I wanted to ask for help, but I didn't know where or who to go. No one's relatives and relatives close to me couldn't have suddenly complained about my fate to them. Moreover, I did not know if they were willing and ready to help me, and imagined a rejection from them if I complained would make me even more disappointed.

*****

"So you're leaving tomorrow?" ask Nadin, my best friend and cousin. Today I went to his house which is still one village with me to say goodbye.

"Yes Nad, maybe it's better than me here but my heart is disappointed. They don't care about how I feel." My tears spread, I immediately held it by wiping the tip of my eye.

Indeed I was very crybaby, just crying all day when I remembered my fate at this time.

"Why did your uncle tell you to drop out of school and work? but you still have to pursue your goals. Even though that uncle can only send you to school. Uncle is a tailor and his subscription is also a lot, there must be income even though not much. If only for your school fees would be able to really" said Nadin while stroking my back gently.

I could only sigh deeply, dampening the emotions that a speck began to appear.

"Let's know Nad.., I don't understand your mind. If you think it is impossible you cannot afford to send me to school. I also don't know the exact reason because you never talk."

Indeed, lately Mr. not actively sewing again, only a few stitches are received so many customers are disappointed. If only you would have been more active in trying, surely I would not have suffered such a fate.

I fell silent and drowned in my own thoughts. I slowly rested my head on Nadin's shoulder, feeling his warmth, absorbing his care.

"You're patient, Rin, I'm sad to see you like this, I'm sorry I couldn't help you. Rista and I will always pray for you wherever you are."

Nadin hugged me tightly, as if he was feeling my sadness right now. I held her back until my heart was a little relieved, at least there was still Nadin who cared about me.

"Please tell Rista that I'm leaving tomorrow. I can't help but say goodbye to her, I don't want her to pity me" I said on my way home.

Tomorrow, I somehow face my destiny. All I want now is to pretend like this never happened.