The 40 Days of the Natiphas

Reasons for Blue

I walked down my gaze to a place that felt foreign, an old building that looked like the interior of a house in Dutch times. The scenery around is very cool because many trees surround it. 

"Let's go in!" invite Blue to break the silence. 

"Whose house is it?" where might I enter without knowing whose house it is, I feel a little afraid even though I already know the Blue mas. 

"You don't have to be afraid and sad, this is my house that is not inhabited. It's a pity that this house is abandoned, you can stay here." Evidently. 

I nodded and followed in his footsteps, having no other choice but to accept his kindness. 

"This is for you." I was surprised when Blue mas easily thrust a cell phone, so easily he helped me. 

"No need to be, this is more than enough." I don't want to add to the burden of accepting all his kindness, I'm afraid I can't return the favor. 

"It's for your son's sake, you can call me in times of urgency." 

"Yes Mas" I grabbed the phone with trembling hands, Blue helped me more than I should. 

"I'll go first!" 

"Yes." Yeah." 

I looked at the back of Blue who was away, I turned my gaze to look around the room. "Oh my God, is what I'm doing right?" my murmurs closed both eyes for a moment. 

The interior of the Dutch house that I now occupy looks very clean and well maintained, I feel the goodness of Blue mas is very excessive. 

Elsewhere, Adam is furious about the behavior of his first wife Luna, who dares to run away with other men. He was extremely annoyed about hitting the mirror in front of him so strongly, droplets of fresh blood were flowing in between his fingers. 

"Why the hell!" snapped the Rose who was fed up with her husband's attitude. 

"It's all your fault, Luna ran away with the other men." Adam looked at the Rose sharply, very angry to know all this. 

"He's the one who ran away why I got his sap." The rose does not want to be blamed.

"Ahh no, talk to you wasting my time." 

"Mas, where are you going?" peeking the Rose looked at Adam's back, annoyed that his call had been ignored. 

After Adam's departure, Rose saw the arrival of her mother-in-law. "Is there a problem are you with Adam?" 

"It's all because of Mom's first daughter-in-law." 

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I felt so strange to be in this place, the home of a foreign man who helped me escape from Adam's mas who incidentally as my husband. Guilt as a wife rests in her heart, restless and anxious thinking about her and Kanaya's fate. 

"I have to get divorced from Adam, why maintain a household that has been damaged in the past." My monologue while bathing Kanaya. 

"Honey, even after my father and mother separated, I promised to give all the love that is in this world for you. I'll be a father and a mother to you, just let him not admit you but I'm still here and protect you and take care of you, son." I kissed his right cheek very anxiously, how not? Her two cheeks filled me couldn't bear to kiss her.

I was so busy with Kanaya that I forgot to bring a resident card and other important files, how would I start if all the important documents were still left in Adam's house. I let out a heavy sigh considering my carelessness that cannot be tolerated, because my anxiety makes me forgetful. 

"Do I have to go back there? Adam would never let me go." My monologue who was pensive for quite a while, Kanaya's crying voice gave me a jolt of surprise. 

I hugged the body of a tiny baby to give a sense of calm and comfort, then did not forget to give him breast milk. I heard a voice from my stomach, a whack of hunger trying to hold it in.

"There's nothing here." I was very sad there was no food, where dare I complain to the Blue mas who has helped me a lot. I put Kanaya down for a while then fastened my stomach, hoping that her hunger would decrease or disappear. 

It doesn't matter if I hold on to hunger all day, what about my baby who still depends on me. The quality of ASI and the amount depends on what I consume, I am very panicked and anxious to think about this problem. All I can do is pray to the Creator to be given a way for me and make it easy.

Not long after, I heard the sound of the door being knocked. I immediately carried Kanaya and approached the origin of the sound, I opened the door and saw a handsome man. 

"Assalamu'alaikum." The figure of a handsome man who showed a beautiful and charming smile.

"Wa'alaikumsalam." I replied with a friendly smile. "Blue Mask?" I frowned not understanding why the man always came, indeed his position was hitchhiking in the man's house, not that it visited at the wrong time. 

"I brought you food." 

I turned my gaze to the white plastic that contained food, the smell of food had been smelled by me making my stomach react. The slightly echoing loud voice made me have to endure the embarrassment, the voice coming from my stomach dropping my true pride intending to refuse his help.

I set my gaze to the side, the shame created by my own stomach that cannot lie. While I saw Blue holding a smile behind his handsome face. 

"I know you're hungry, don't hesitate. It's for your son's sake, for ASI's quality." Unmistakably. 

Again I listened to the same reason, How I was so selfish in refusing to give from him that I meant to help my daughter. I interrupted obediently as I reached for the white plastic the smell of cooking was smelled by me who was almost stunned. 

I prepared two dishes and put them on the table, took out the food bought by the Blue mas. I took a sip of saliva looking at the appetizing food, inwardly feeling bad because the man was always helping me. 

"Come, we'll eat." Take Blue and I nodded slowly. 

We ate food solemnly after reciting the prayer, I filled my empty stomach with food. 

After finishing eating..

"Why is Mas so good to me and Kanaya? I'm asking this not because I don't appreciate all your help, but I'm curious." I ventured to ask him directly, so that I could calm down. 

Long time I saw Blue answering my simple question, somehow thinking about how to string the words so that I do not offend.

"I do to help others."

"really? But what I caught and I saw is overkill." I asked with a full look at the investigator. "Tell me the truth, I want to know."

"I-I .. I love you."

How surprised I was to hear the statement and the reason why the Blue mas wanted to help me and Kanaya.