The 2nd Wedding

Chapter 6

After his encounter with Refan, Kinan's mind grew more and more disoriented. He needs a place to confide, he needs advice and support.

As usual, the trash can is Anita. Kinan contacted his best friend Anita and told her about his meeting with Refan this morning.

Kinan revealed all the contents of his conversation with Refan there was nothing he had hidden from Anita.

"Oooh so that's why she used to cancel her marriage with you. Actually it is understandable Nan, he already loves other women but was forced to marry you. Only he was also wrong Nan, why not talk about it together with you. Maybe you can understand and together find a way out" said Anita.

Kinan also recounted the reason for Refan to accept their match this time.

"How do you think he's doing right now?" ask Anita.

"Very messed up. I can understand what he feels right now must be desperate because he is new in his wife's residence. Just like I felt when Mas Bima was gone for good. Not yet lost the wound arrived - suddenly his mother forced him to marry me. He who is fragile just accept it with resignation" replied Kinan.

"Continue what do you think?" ask Anita again.

"I am increasingly confused Nit especially with the explanation of Refan who still loves his wife. Why do we get married if we both can't move on with our past" Kinan said.

"I totally agree with you. You want to marry the one who's still being overshadowed by the memories of being with his wife?" ask Anita.

"Yes not it. I can't imagine what kind of household we're going to live in?" answer Kinan.

"If I may give you the advice Nan, mending your matchmaking in pending first until you are the same - can equally heal from your past wounds. You're obviously slow - slow down with your Mama and Papa. I'm sure they'll understand" Anita said.

"I also think like that Nit. I felt even more wrong, after meeting with Refan earlier. He was really desperate so he could not be firm on his life and his son. He put his future in the hands of his family.

"But marriage is not as simple as he thinks. She thought that by accepting her mother's betrothal everything would be finished? Trus did not think how later after you married. Living in the same house with each one still holds memories with your respective partners. He is busy with his sadness over the death of his wife while you still love Mas Bima even though you are not all Refan at this time. But if he is busy with his sadness you are losing more Nan. She has a young child, and you are told to take care of her child? What are you baby sitter? Mending he paid a baby sitter to take care of his son" said Nita.

"I also think it's Nit, taking care of Salman sometimes bothers me because I also have to work. I'm still using baby sitter services to look after Salman while I'm working. What if I take care of two kids at once? Yeah I mean if I get married again and have another child of course use the process. Slowly - the land I started to prepare myself but this is different. Arrived after marrying my son directly two, surely I have to adapt first" said Kinan.

"That bill. You think well - well Nan after that you tell your Papa and Mama what reason you reject it. This is not a toy, there are two children at stake in your marriage if this matchmaking is done" continued Nita.

"Yes Nit, thank you. After the same story with you, I was more and more convinced to reject this matchmaking" Kinan said.

"I'm happy to be able to help you and whatever it is that is most important your decision makes you happy. Your happiness is Nan's main" replied Anita.

"Yes, it was Nan. Tomorrow after work I will go to Papa's house and Mama expressed all my thoughts. Dah ya Nit, it's already night so disrupt your time off. Thanks again, Assalamu'alaikum.. " Kinan hung up.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" Anita replied.

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The next day was according to Kinan's previous plan. After returning from the office he stopped first to his parents' house.

"Tumben, you didn't bring Salman?" ask Mama Kinan.

"I'm from the office straight here Ma" Kinan replied.

"What's up Nan? Is there something important you want to say?" guess Papa Kinan.

"Yes Pa, it's about my match with Refan" Kinan replied.

"You still have a week. Don't rush - hunt. You can think about it first and no one is forcing you son. Papa and Mama are just intermediaries between you and Refan. If it is a grateful soul mate, if not also no problem. For us your happiness and Salman remains the main one" replied Papa Kinan.

"It's exactly related to our happiness Pa, Ma. Kinan rejected this matchmaking" Kinan insisted.

"Reason?" ask Papa Kinan.

"Refan is still deeply saddened by the death of his wife. She's so fragile Pa, I could see her yesterday when she talked to me at home. He cried when he remembered his wife. He could not refuse this match because of the insistence of his mother and family who said that this was the trust of his father. Refan told me about what happened five years ago. He was already dating his wife but was forced to marry me. He threatened to kill himself if he did not marry his wife. And the family gave up on that. But for four years they were not given a baby. His family said it was karma because he did not live his Papa's trust" Kinan told Papa and Mama.

"Astaghfirullah." said Papa and Mama Kinan.

"Eatya at this time he resigned Pa and accepted the wishes of his mother. He has no power to refuse. He did not want to be blamed anymore for fighting against his father's trust. But try Papa and Mama imagine, what kind of marriage will we live later? Papa said yesterday think about Salman. Does Salman need a fragile Papa still in the memory of his dead wife? Papa is sure Salman will get the attention of Refan after we get married? Then what was my position at his house as Pa, Ma? He had already confirmed that he could not forget his wife for a long time so what was the point of Kinan in this marriage? Is Kinan going to be her daughter's baby sitter?" ask Kinan.

Papa and Mama Kinan fell silent at the reason for Kinan's refusal.

"If Papa said that the most important thing is the happiness of me and Salman. Please refuse this match. We've been happy enough to live together. It's better not to get married again than to have to live like that Pa, Ma" pinta Kinan with a clear face. Kinan's tears without feeling had already flowed down his cheeks.

"Okay, son, if this is your decision. Papa will accept it. Tonight too Papa will talk to Mama Refan and refuse your matchmaking" replied Papa Kinan.

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