The 2nd Wedding

Chapter 2

"It is fitting that Refan refuses to be in a match with Kinan because his girlfriend is much prettier than Kinan. Look at the appearance of Kinan who was always covered with his hijab and his face was also too plain. While Refan's girlfriend is very fashionable, smart in style and takes care of her body. His face was also very pretty" said a neighbor who spoke comparing me to his wife Refan at the time. 

Which woman's heart does not hurt when compared physically to others. Maybe if I didn't hear such a talk my heart's wound wouldn't be this deep but how else would I have heard it. 

After that incident, I was getting closed and very rarely went out of the house. I feel very ashamed when I meet my neighbors. Both my parents were very aware of my heartache at that time. 

I look at the faces of my parents in turn.

"Kinan can't answer it now Ma, Pa. Give Kinan time to think" Pinta Kinan. 

"Yes, baby, but not for too long. Poor daughter Refan desperately needs a Mother" replied Mama Kinan. 

"Parents think you're thinking a week. And I hope you forget what happened five years ago and forgive me. It's all happening, son. At first Papa also wanted to reject them but Papa thought, why did God give you twice this opportunity. Maybe he is your soul mate, but used to be delayed" Papa Kinan advised. 

Kinan was silent trying to examine his father's words. Is it true as his father said. 

Kinan recalled his conversation with his best friend Nita one year ago. 

Flashback. 

"Nita I still dream about it" Kinan said when they agreed to meet with his best friend Anita. 

"Refan?" Nita asked in disbelief. 

Kinan nodded his head towards Nita. 

"I feel guilty about Mas Bima" Kinan looked sad. 

"Maybe you still keep thinking about Refan Nan?" Nita Reply. 

"If I remember - remember I had no thought of it before. I'm limiting closing all information about him. Even though sometimes when I go to Mama's house and meet my cousin they can tell me about Refan's household. They said the Refan had been disobeying his Papa for not fulfilling his Papa's final commission. So far, his wife is not pregnant. They have been married for four years. I even had a child first" I told Anita. 

"You haven't forgiven her yet" Anita held my hand. 

"I've forgiven him Nit. I'm happy with Mas Bima. Mas Bima loves me and spoils me. I am very - very happy to be his wife. Enough is enough for me. I don't need anything else" I said. 

I took a long breath. 

"I always pray and ask God to keep me away from anything related to Refan, everything. I am tired and feel guilty for Mas Bima, Nita. Married but still dreaming of another man. It's been four years, but she's always been in my dreams." Sad say. 

"Yes, especially if you call - call his name while asleep. Waaah could harm Nan" Anita covered her mouth with both hands. 

"That's why I'm so scared of Nit. How can he not be present in my dreams. I'm really tired of all this" I told Anita. 

Anita patted my shoulder slowly. 

"Does he remember you often? Is that why he was present in your dream?" Anita. 

"But he remembers me, he's also happy with his wife. That he who rejected me meant he didn't like me, why he remembered me" I replied. 

"Maybe he feels guilty for you" Anita replied. 

"Haha... If he feels guilty he should have apologized to Nit a long time ago.. Nit. Ngaco ah your thoughts" I argue. 

"It is Nan, what is important now is that you do not have to think about the meaning of your dreams. A lot - a lot of singing" Nita said.

"Nyanyi Nit, sing fuck. You don't macem ah the message" I replied.

Flashback Off

"Then Mama and Papa go first yes, we want to go to the invitation, the place is not far from your home this is why we all stopped. This is some very important news for you to hear" said Mama.

"Don't forget the words Papa said earlier. Think well - well. Salman needs the figure of a Papa while Refan's daughter needs the figure of a Nan Mother. That was your purpose for getting married. If the matter of love Papa sure as time goes on it will definitely grow between you. Rest assured Papa" said Papa Kinan reassured.

Mama Kinan patted Kinan's shoulder gently.

"Istikharah prayer, son, ask God for the best answer for your life. God willing, God will surely give way" continued Mama Kinan.

Papa and Mama Kinan immediately stood up from the sofa of Kinan's TV room.

"Salmans... Oma and Opa go home first yes" Mama Kinan said goodbye to her granddaughter.

"Any fast Oma?" ask Salman.

"Oma and Opa would like to go to the invitation first. Next week, Oma will come again. Or you just come to Oma's house with your Mama yes" replied Mama Kinan.

"Let's love salim used to be the same Opa and Oma" Kinan ordered to his son.

Salman immediately stood up and kissed Kinan's parents' hands as well as Kinan's. Papa and Mama Kinan walked out of the house and got into their car.

Kinan opened the gate of his house and stared at the departure of his parents with an uncertain feeling.

Think back to the conversation with Papa and Mama earlier.

Marry again? Should two marry again? Kinan asked his own feelings. He looked at his son's face and invited Salman back inside the house.

Should Mama find a replacement Papa you dear. Do you really need a Papa? Isn't it enough that your Papa is in our memories? Kinan looked sadly at Salman.

"Mom I want to play in the room yes" Salman said.

"Yes dear" replied Kinan.

Salman now leaves Kinan alone sitting in front of the family room TV at his home.

He remembered his best friend Anita. Like he had to talk about this to Anita for a place to exchange ideas. It was easy - hopefully he got enlightenment after talking to Anita.

Kinan immediately looked for his phone, apparently left in his room. Kinan sat on the bed while playing his phone. Kinan searched for Anita's name on his cell phone contacts.

After pressing Anita's name, her phone directly connected with Anita.

"Assalamu'alaikum Naaaan's... We haven't called in a long time. How are you?" ask Anita from across.

"Wa'alaikumsalam Nitro. Thank goodness" replied Kinan.

"Tumben you call me, I usually call you unless there's something you want to talk about. There must be something you want to talk to me about right now?"...

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