Thank You Love

Thank You Love - Part 8

Felicia.

I woke up at dawn. I look around. " I am where yah. This feeling is not my room!" Thought. I'm trying to remember what happened last night.

" well. I fell into a very embarrassing state. Then I pura" fainted to sleep because of the trus. Yes aampunn."

I just realized. I'm in Dalem. At Nyai's mom's house. How do I get out of here. For a moment I heard footsteps approaching. Before I could fall asleep, the door was open. And Miss Nyai also greeted me "Have Felis woken up??"

" Yes mom. Sorry if I am a hassle. I went back to the cottage first Nyai." I said while standing up.

" Don't take a break, son. You're dlu's permission."

" No need to miss Nyai. I'm okay. After all, dawn is already. I want to pray first."

" Yes already. May I call you Rani dlu lis??"

" No ma'am. Thank ye. Assalamualaikum Nyai" I said, kissing her hand.

" waalaikumsalam" jawan bu Nyai.

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" Eh lis. You really are not ppa. Semalem I'm really worried to know. But just as Nyai ma'am even told back." said Rani while holding my forehead.

Kutepis Rani's hand. " Apaan sih Ran. I'm not koq. Semalem tuh I pura pura fainted doang. Trus even overslept. Hihi. "answer me while giggling.

" Abis I'm so ashamed to know. Udah. Watered fried rice. The last one was hit by the same slump. "the answer Felis made Rani and icha laugh.

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Ever since that day, I've become closer to the Dalem family. Especially the same Fauzan that I now call Gus Fauzan. He also gave me 2 full gamis suits as khimar. Nyai also often asked me to accompany her to cook if there is a family event. Indeed, every 2 months, sometimes there is a gathering of family members in his house.

Ever was a time. Nyai ma'am asked me about the wedding.

" Felix. If someone is asking for you, would you marry him??? With his deformed condition. Like, for example, paralyzed. Blind ATW. How's lis??? Do you want to marry a guy like that??"

Hearing her question made me shocked. I answered what was in my brain. " Emmr. I don't know ma'am. All I leave to my father and mother. I like it or not, I still accept it. Because I am sure. My parents' choice must be the best." I honestly say it with my heart. Because I'm afraid I'm wrong to say. ' Nyai. There's no way I'm answering ' I thought.

I lyrically ma nyai who turned out to smile with my answer. " So you'll accept whatever father's decision is with your mother lis???" Ask mom nyai. Maybe I'm not sure of my answer.

" Yes Nyai ma'am. I'm not really a child of care. It's just since I've been here. I just realized. I have never been happy with my parents. I think my achievements are not enough either. Because I've never made my parents proud either." Saying slowly. I don't know. That question makes me miss my mom. Unconsciously I was crying. The first cry was in silence. Now it starts to get busy. I took my ego off. Although I'm honestly ashamed of my mom. Because I unconsciously confided in him.

The hug you gave me, made me think of mom. The last time I refused his request. Really, just this time I felt her tightness holding back the longing.

'Dad.... Mothers...

Felisy kangen.' I whispered my father and mother's names in my heart. Hope they come to see me tomorrow. Even if I knew it was impossible. Because now I have gone to Singapore to accompany my father running his new business there.