SWINE TAGGED VOL.3 Eman'S Story

chapter 12. loss of confidence

"Yes, father, I understand my condition.How should I continue? Because I still want to live like everyone else, want to live smart like humans, want to have all-round skills, but."

"Have...! already! already! do not think too much, you must remain patient to accept with all the facts that have befallen you. Now you stay here, help the Father as much as you can, as you can. do not wander everywhere, do not wander, because you are afraid that if you cheat again, someone tortures you again, because now you have enemies namely Hadi and Warsa."

"I don't feel like I have an enemy father, just that they are evil to me," Eman argued, disagreeing with the talk of his parents.

"Bright....! you're Eman, you don't know, Hadi is so vengeful to you!" answer the Dodo.

"For what?"

"For ever since they deceive our sheep, they continue to be hunted by the authorities, like fugitives in general. Well, from that basis now they do not dare to set foot in our village, because his parents alone do not care.from the events that befall them, because, surely the Hadi and the Warsa they are very angry with you, because you have been deemed to have betrayed to report their crimes to the authorities, even though the report is not you, but the father." said Dodo explained in detail to his son, because now Eman already has people who are after him. surely one day hadi and Warsa will vent his frustration against Eman.

Hearing the explanation of his parents, Eman seemed silent as he thought. But actually he did not understand because according to his own assumption he was hostile to Hadi and Warsa, but actually he did not understand, because the two men had deceived 2 goats and seized the rice belonging to Mr. Ustad.

"Ujang, you don't get to wander far away. Especially if it's night, you have to be more careful!" Timpal Rani who has since noticed.

"Well Mak....!" eman answered briefly.

That's how Eman and his parents talk. At the heart of the conversation, Eman was taught by his mother and father to survive the interference of Hadi and Warsa, while outside the sound of chickens crowing in the voice of goats from the direction of the cage. sometimes there is also the sound of the snorting of buffalo belonging to its neighbors.

A day, two days passed. Eman He was very obedient to what was said by his parents who told Eman to stay at home, but over time Eman was bored, not at home for long. until finally he also likes to play when it is noon to repel saturation when you have to keep quiet at home.to the garden, to the rice field, to the rice field, he likes to bring firewood home and anything he thinks can be useful.

Same father, Mang Dodo. Eman was not too much tempted, never asked to work or be told to do anything else, so Eman was left alone, as he wished, as he wished. He was seen daydreaming frequently, thinking of such a heartbreaking fate, his heart growing increasingly unsettled, filled with fear and worry. Eman feels like the unluckiest man in the world.

"I have to how? if this is the case, parents have not considered with my energy, just told to take water or clean the house, they are like afraid to tell bigger things. Maybe they are afraid that I will make a mistake, causing them a lot of harm.Other parents are like that, let alone others, may not see even with the corner of the eye. What do I do now..?" that's how Eman's heart murmured when one day he was seen sitting while bending his neck, his back was leaned against the jengkol tree, his eyes were staring towards the valley, watching his peers who were working in the pond Pak Haji.

Eman felt ashamed, he felt like a meaningless person in his life. Finally he decided to stand up, not wanting to see the people who were working. Eman continued walking while lowering his gaze, his confidence in himself was getting less and less.His heart kept thinking, feeling confused how to get out of the problems that were happening to him.

Eman continued to walk without a destination, until he did not feel he arrived at one of the hills.he stopped and sat at the root of the petai tree, his back leaned back into the tree, and then he sat down, his eyes looked towards the Valley.Show the rice fields that spread as wide as the eye could see, decorated with saung-saung as a differentiator, divided by the road that leads in all directions, and, The river is long like a snake that is looking for prey, the water flows downstream.Birds can be heard chirping while jumping accompanied by other birds. A small wind whirlwind hit the leaves causing a rusty sound, like babysitting birds that look very happy.

Teng!

Eman's daydreams began to drift towards all directions through his mind, because his desires are the same as others, as well as his ideals that are not inferior to intelligent people. Eman is not a sane person, not a nonsensical person, but he is just a fool, his brain cannot be used like glue that cannot be melted.

But in the realm of Daydreams, in the realm of delusion.his desire is like that, want to make parents happy, want to repay the kindness of his mother and father. the teachings and advice given by ustad, there is little that sticks.that a child should respect his teacher, be devoted to his mother and father, repay all the kindness of parents who have cared for him, and that a child should respect his teacher, plus worship the same Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

"If I could try like everyone else and have a lot of sustenance. The two father sheep will be replaced with 4, the poisoned fish pack will be replaced with husk fish. Mang sarkowi and his friends who felt aggrieved by my carelessness for not being able to deliver food to them, I will replace everyone gets one basket of rice. but when I can have that much sustenance, I will change, how to work in others does not understand and is not trusted.using energy has no power, sales have no capital and there will be no one who might believe in buying my selling products. because I am a fool, a fool..! miserable, you fool...!" muttered Eman while lowering his gaze, not feeling any tears flowing down his cheeks directly falling to the ground. Eman is seen taking a deep breath, while raising his head, hoping the tears that come out stop when he raises his head, but it turns out the tears still flow out past both cheeks.