SUDDENLY HAMIL~BukanSitiMariam~

Stop or Continue

'O Robb, Assume that this man is the best mate you have given your servant, please bring Him close to your servant and make Him a righteous priest for your servant and son,but if He is not a good man to be my priest, please, keep him out of my life, only you know what is best for this servant of yours,,,,

Yes Robbana, give the servant a hint so that this heart does not worry anymore,,,,,"

Mariam said such a long prayer in her evening prayer, she only wanted calmness and only to the creator was where He complained.

After what happened yesterday, of course Mariam became more and more indecisive, She was more and more convinced not to continue the process of ta'aruf with the crossbreed man, her doubts were more and more answered already, much of which Ken hid from her.

Sunday,05.30am, morning,

Mariam intends to do a morning run around the housing complex, after Satria steady to go to the boarding school Kiai Mus , Mus ,Mariam now has to sincerely live alone in her house and only accompanied by an aunt who used to help clean her house.

"You want Neng's sport?!"Tanya Bi Inah who was preparing breakfast.

"Yes Bi, are you coming?!"Mariam deliberately invites Bi Inah, so that she does not feel bored with her work.

"Aibi's feet hurt Neng, usual, gout again relapsed!"Complain Bi Inah, while kneading her calf mijit, middle-aged woman who had long worked for her late husband, now often sick.

"Yes, take a break, do not be too tired, then Mar buyin medicine equally want to shop in the market!"Mariam said as she rubbed her Aunt's arm, which she thought was like her own family.

Bi Inah nodded happily, though,

"Brave heart to Neng!"

"Yes,Bi!Let's go first yeah, Assalamualaikum!"

"Glamma!"

Mariam also opened the gate of her house, after Bima's death, She did not deliberately hire security services to keep her house, She did not like there were men not mahram at home.

"Astagfireullah!why are you sleeping here!?"

Mariam cried, how he was not surprised when he opened the gate of the iron fence of his house, He saw Ken was asleep right there while sitting leaning against the iron fence,exactly like a bum but with an attractive appearance, next to it there is a luxury big motor that is expensive.

"Hey, Mrs Ken!wakeup!why are you sleeping here!?"Shouted Mariam while shaking Ken's body with her feet, she felt uneasy.

"Mara!you're finally out!"

Ken said as he tried to get up from his seat, He looks happy to meet Mariam.

"Why sleep here!?"

Mariam repeated her question.

Mariam also just remembered, the doorbell of the house was damaged, if the phone problem, she did not deliberately lift it, lazy!

"What other explanation!?We agreed yesterday, let's meet again!"Mariam said ketus, she immediately went to leave Ken there.

"Mar, please cry out to me first, My mommy can go to the hospital if she finds out we're not in this relationship, please love me the chance to clear it all up!That girl from yesterday wasn't who I was!"Exclaimed Ken while pulling Mariam's hand so as not to leave her.

"Don't touch me!and remember!I don't care who he is!I'm glad we're not getting married!about your parents, let me be clear with them!I think they'll understand if you already have your own candidate!"Firmly Mariam while throwing Ken away.

"Sorry!Sorry are!I'm sorry Mar!Please cry out to me first!I promise I won't bother you again, once you know the truth, it's up to you to move on or not!"Ken remained stupefied at his desire to talk to Mariam, as if he would not give up so easily.

Mariam seemed to think for a moment.

"okay!this is the last time we talk about our relationship again, follow me!we'll talk on the way!"

mariam said at last.

They also walked a bit far apart, Mariam did not like being alone like that, quickly he found a crowded place to listen to what Ken would say,He also chose to sit on the bench of the complex park there are also many people who are jogging.

"My time is not much!I need to get to the market, Bi Inah's sick, so I'm gonna have to handle the homework!"Mariam said reasoned, actually he wanted Ken not to telephonize.

"Okay, earlier thank you for beating me up, I'd also like to apologize for yesterday's incident, I didn't mean to hide anything from you.

She is Dara, she was only 17 years old, once I finished meeting you at the boarding school, Dara who just returned from Singapore immediately called I asked to pick you up at the airport.

He was undergoing treatment there, and he was sentenced to no longer be able to walk by doctors in the country.

She is indeed not who I am Mar, but I am the one responsible for Dara's youth loss because she had to sit in a wheelchair during her!"Ken began to tell the story, Mariam was quite surprised by what Ken told me, He was increasingly curious, why Ken should be responsible.

"The incident was two years ago, when it was raining so hard, I just came home from the club',driving while drunk and accidentally hit a car consisting of a husband and wife and a daughter, the husband of the wife died and his daughter was seriously injured to coma,his leg was broken and his brain nerves were compromised, he was Dara, my parents took over his guardianship, I was traumatized until I was sent to Korea to forget the incident,after my psychic condition recovered as a form of my responsibility, I took care of Dara and tried to revive her spirit, she said,until now it seemed like she had forgotten that I was the one who caused her parents to die and she had to sit in a wheelchair, but she was obsessed with me,he would kill himself many times when I ignored him, he didn't like it if I had a lover, another acquisition I still feel very guilty to him ,but on the other hand I was also tormented because I could not escape Dara, I just think of her as my sister, but it seems like she misjudged my attention all along!"

Ken told me so softly, his eyes glazed, only this first time Mariam saw it so sad, his regret was so deep, it seems he really sincerely admitted his mistake.

"That's a reply you have to accept, what happened to Dara is more than that!"Mariam said from nyeplos.

"Yes, I admit, I am a depraved man, Mar!I do not deserve to be with a holy woman like you, but after I met you, I really realized I wanted to improve myself, little by little I left the night world, I no longer drink alcohol, I really do not want to improve,my heart feels really shady when I see you, for that I do not refuse even happy when Mom and Papih I want to match us!even when I first saw you at the restaurant back then, I was attracted to you, when, back then, I hated women with a closed appearance like you!so please Mar!help me, I want to know more about religion!"Ken's words sounded really so striking in Mariam's chest, now he was right on the verge of confusion.

On the other hand, he did not want to hurt Dara's feelings, he understood that Dara who is still called ABG was hoping a lot to Ken, especially with his current condition, Dara more need special attention from Ken.

But he also deserves to give an opportunity to Ken who intends to emigrate, although he really hopes Ken really with his wishes, Mariam should have given that opportunity, he said,May Ken's good intentions be the direction God sent for him.

I don't know, what he has to do now, whether it has to stop or keep going,,,