SUBSTITUTE ARMY
V&V 14
VALENSIA PROV II
Where is my Yal.?
I looked for her, it turned out that my Yal was still in my arms, kept hugging her and did not let the mad doctor touch and release the medical devices.!
i'm crazy.! so crazy.!
until the morning of the sun and the brightness came making fun of my life they were happy while I was hurt.
I didn't realize time passed.! the whole of my defenses crumbled to see my Yal drowned in a grave. What kind of place is that.! so poor.!
since then I kept calling my Yal, in my heart save the love and affection that is amazing for her many say I am lucky for being the first and last love of Yal.
whereas I feel like an unlucky woman, the disaster bearer "Yal is the one who is unlucky to be engaged to me.!
when I stepped up, deciding to return to XXX City was a tough choice for me. I didn't know what to do and how to act.
everyone is bad judgment including my family.! my sadness they interpret with negative thinking results only because I cry too much.
honestly,
I cried for her.
not because there is a forbidden relationship between us.! I am more of a guilty and sorry feeling.!
there was no over-treatment of her when we were dating.
until his engagement kiss on my forehead was a kiss for the first time I got sa'at we were dating for 7 years 8 months long.!
but I was very disappointed with the family's assessment of me without weighing her words first but I preferred to keep quiet not to debate her anymore and decided to start staying away from my family, don't they trust me.?
if only I hadn't inhabited her for two days, maybe I could still have banned her from joining the march in any way,
that includes my great regret.
because I didn't do such a thing really regret coming at the end of a mistake, I'm so stupid, I'm too stupid woman, I'm so stupid.!
I'm jealous of you God.
I don't know what God is doing with my God.
if only I were like you,
maybe I changed the fate that was written on my hand.
really I can't think much just being able to admit the love for her is still too great.
even if I turn the world around like a sky globe into a footrest, the ground so your shelter will not come to praise me for seeing the wonders I do.
smash all the windows and mirrors on my makeup desk,
I slashed a vein on my wrist with broken glass,
blood flowed from my hands,
just because you can't let go of you.
even though I stepped back and crushed all the boxes of music you gave me,
I burn all the nursing services that have been far away you provide for me,
as the last Christmas present before you close your eyes.
sa'at that you gave it to me and told me to wear the white service uniform that you have sewed very neatly and in accordance with the body on the first day of work at RSU after completion graduations.
whatever threat I pose to scare you, you won't be able to come and come back at least for me, even suicide won't make you get up and stop all my craziness.
everything that we've been through is so unbelievable, so deep in wounds and tears that it's been scraping through the depths of my day that you can't even miss me here anymore, now my love story is like clapping one hand.!
I'm crying for you who won't come back, though,
I miss those who don't miss me anymore,
stupid.I'm stupidly crying over you who might be happy there.
somehow I deal with every Valentine's day and how I go through every November 28th,
I want you to warm me well I have to where to keep my love.
the farther away, the more real your shadow is in my eyes even your voice is always heard in my ears..
it's over our love story.!
you severed our rope unilaterally.!
you dumped me.!
you have so easily betrayed me and would rather go back with God.!!
you broke my heart.!
you managed to take away my love.!
I don't know the way home anymore,
the way when we were still friends in Junior High..
I lost, I lost.
I wouldn't be able to win with this match if the opponent you gave me was God.!! obviously I lost..
😔😔
I'll try to understand.
be happy there, keep looking at me below..!!
