Seeing you from a distance

will time answer

I don't know how hard you fight and eventually it'll all be over.

it's very funny and sad, if everything has to end why it has to end when we really want.

it's been a thousand seconds and it's been days it's all over, but why is it still my memory is always focused on you.I don't know if you're the same as me.but I don't think so,because there is no reason for you to think about me.I am the one who dreams too much and hopes excessively.

if there is a tool to remove the feeling I want to use the tool.if there is a place that can forget you then believe me I will be there..it's not that I'm a hypocrite but it's really painful and it also really makes my concentration go away.the more I try to forget you the more it hurts.the more logic I refuse everything the more spots that dabble in my illusion.

humans can strive for who we are with and humans can also dream of their lives for whom.but feelings and destiny can not be forced.if someone wants to go in your life then that person will go and the same with you..

I once felt a sense of loss but it doesn't feel as bad as this.buka I'm selfish but if I can beg it feels like I want to beg you to stay here with me.

imagine the future together, talk to our descendants.and laugh silly together.but it feels impossible.color we have each other's choices.we have a way of life each.

I want to leave this pain to the people closest to me, but I am not brave enough to do that, nor am I brave enough not to remember you and I am not brave enough to forget you. if I may plead .please don't let me be this confused and please don't let my life go without direction as it is now.please stand by me and look to the future together.

but I guess it's just an illusion, whether I'm not enough to prove that I really want you, and whether there aren't enough feelings that I give you, I think that's more enough because other people aren't necessarily can do the things I did to you.

if introductions demand perfection then I lose.and if introductions demand material then I lose even more.

because I only have feelings and fantasies with you..

this is so stupid, man,why am I stuck in this time why am I stuck in this.this I have never felt before.I feel I can not pass it feels like I am not able to stand upright and it feels like I am unable to rise from this mess.