Sea: The Long Journey

VII. Sixth Day

Thinking if everything was okay, now I felt like I was lying to myself. Will the waves take me home? Shit, I'm sick of the smell of the sea.

Is this called destiny? Is it all because of the karma I have done before? Does karma really exist?

Should I kill myself? Give up on what's happening now, but will it hurt? It seems that I have to undo the worst of intentions, even to die even if I am still afraid.

With a pale face and also with fatigue that had already embraced my entire body, I could only look away at the ocean.

The blank look of despair that had filled my mind, now it felt absolutely impossible to return. Even I can only hope and fantasize if this never happens.

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Oh yeah, I have a story.

My grandfather used to have cancer and he was in the hospital. Then there was a time when Delon and I visited her and when she wanted to leave, she asked us to hug her.

But I was too scared, like I didn't know how to deal with it. All I knew at the time was that he was sick and at that time I thought...

"Yo, if I hold her, will I get sick? And will I use such tools as well?"

In the end, I decided not to hug her and then it was the last day I saw her. I really regretted my stupid act and until recently the thought actually haunted me once in a while.

It's a little story about my grandfather, but it's not over yet. I still have a few more stories.

When Delon was introduced to me, I was angry. Imagine, after my late mother died. He brought a new person into my life in 3 months.

At that moment, I immediately ran towards the room. Locking it up and crying all day, how messy it was when Delon started coming into my family.

Every morning, my parents knock on the door. Told me to come out, at least she wants us to get along and share.

Inside I was hoping that when I went out, I would instead meet a new face. You know, 'cause it's been a few days now. I feel awkward like shit in real life.

I don't know what to do around new people and every time I get this girlfriend, it always ends up because of the lack of communication I have.

It started to make me depressed, it was the worst in a life decision. It will not only hurt me, but it will also hurt the people around me.

If I'm not careful, I've hurt some people. Because of the depression I have.

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Other Side

Point of view, Delon.

I decided to get off at a stop that happened to be located quite far from home, instead of getting off at one of the closest stops from home. I don't know why, but my intuition says so.

It was dark, I walked as usual to the house. Then I felt that if someone was watching me from behind, looking back I saw a dark figure in the alley that was walking towards me.

"What should I do?" Mumbles.

My breathing instantly became irregular, but I knew that now was a bad time to not calm down.

It might be a little hard to calm down now, but if I don't act calm now. Maybe the person who followed me would know if now I was feeling scared or nervous, then I just keep going and stay alert to the environment around me.

Luckily, I was wearing a black jacket, trying to think clearly. I played a jacket zipper and then knelt down to just fix a shoelace tie that did not come off.

While looking around, whatever it is that can finally make me calm down including a deep breath.

"And now I need a plan." Thought.

I began to continue, looking around me that might seem strange. Now, I try to listen to my instincts and instincts about what options I will use later like an opponent or a run.

I didn't get to see the guy before, because he came out of a dark alley. Even his features were undetectable at the time.

Then, I pretended to walk to a place that forced me to take a detour route. Making it seem, I want to go for a walk first before finally coming home.

Damn, I was even nervous and a few times wrong turn alley. Now that the route that I had previously planned had suddenly gone awry, I had no idea where to go after coming out of this alley. Even so, I try not to look lost.

When I glanced back a little, the person in the black jacket wearing the blue hat was still behind me. It proves that he's really following me.

"Alright Delon, don't keep glancing back." Mumbles.

If I continue to do this, it might also make her realize that I was watching her and would eventually make her attack me.

I have now felt that if our distance is getting closer, I swiftly put both hands into the pocket of each jacket that has contained the key of the house. My right hand clenched the key leaving the pointed end of the key if at any time it was necessary to hit it.

My phone started coming out, just as I started calling Rena. The sister of my brother's girlfriend and at the time, I told her that I was on Veteran II street. Tell me, if at any time I disappear and keep chatting with him on the phone until finally get home.

Tomorrow, I peek out the window. Looking outwards if there were two black cars parked not far from the shoulder of the road, the car was really very suspicious.

On this day too, my message was not reciprocated by my brother. Makes me think she's in her boyfriend's apartment.

Before leaving, I took the time to give Reina a message if I would visit there.

Luckily, my brother once told me that he was running into an unknown person. I had to look him in the eye, but as he advised first. Don't stare at him for too long, just a few moments while you want to say "I saw you!!"

Actually he often looked me in the eye to see if I was lying or not, although honestly I always did not feel comfortable when looked at like that.

But before he could get out of the house, the sound of the bell of the house sounded quite loud.

As he peeked out, he was a man wearing the same black jacket and blue hat. The man who was following me last night.