Sea: The Long Journey

III. Storms

Rain and strong winds suddenly fell, now the big waves began to lift this small ship and then throw it violently. The things inside the ship's explosives began to scatter out, while I tried to keep them from falling into the sea.

The thunderbolts sounded quite loud, the lightning he made had now knocked me mentally. It didn't take long before this little ship, started to get lifted back up by the waves.

I can feel it, my body is wet. The rain was really huge, there was no safe place to take shelter.

Even I can see the whirlwind above the sea, it's really terrible. I honestly tried to hold on, while holding things so as not to scatter out. While hoping for this storm to pass quickly, but that hope felt very futile.

"God forgive me, please I don't want to die like this let alone drown. I promise that if I survive, all the conspiracies in government territory will end and I will surrender myself to the case of embezzlement. Please, forgive me--before I was completely unintentional."

At that moment, I could still feel that this huge ocean was still raging. The sound of water rumbling, breaking the increasingly gripping atmosphere.

(I'm going to die like this? Sinking to the bottom of the sea, along with the sins I've made before? How humiliating.)

Now, this ship was thrown quite rough after previously lifted by the waves. Luckily, the ship was neither overturned nor split because of it.

However, I can consciously still see the big waves are heading here. Trying to devour this entire small ship and its contents in one swallow.

Knowing that, I could only be silent and stiffly trembling and frightened. In fact, I never felt this scared.

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Yes, even at times like this I began to remember all the mistakes I had made before.

At that time, I had a lover. She was Reina, a lover who was so perfect for me. Luckily, I can have it with that simple thing called love.

But without me knowing. Bored started haunting me which in the end made me betray this love a little. Funny thing is, I did that with my sister.

On the political side, he won last year's election. I began to enact a plan aimed at clearing out political opponents, so that in the end I did some dirty work. They were all trapped by various things, such as drugs, bribery, and even rape.

I also remembered something about it, when I went to a supermarket in a rural area back then. There was a little boy who bumped into me, apparently he did deliberately do that to take the wallet in the suit I was wearing.

When he was caught, he said he needed the money to take care of his sick sister. At first I did not believe his words and then I brought him to the police station, unfortunately the next few days I got the news if his sister died lying on the street.

"But, though,... No!!"

Instantly my mind went awry for a few moments, honestly I needed some diversion. An impingement, it's hard to deny if I have a half-sister.

Every day, that boy I call "The Haram." Treating him like a dog, telling him to sleep in the barn and eat on the floor.

"Damn it!!"

I really hate him, because Oma died. That bastard, shouldn't have stayed with us.

God, either I should be thankful or curse this fate. Some plots are actually difficult to accept, let alone live.

Am I sorry I thought this way? NAY!! Then shall I begin to worship the demons to demand justice in the hereafter? It doesn't seem either.

In fact, it was I who overestimated everything and I was too weak to accept all of this.

Sorry, I'm really sorry. Please, listen to me. Even if only once.

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Big waves hit the ship again, I thought it was going to sink. But who would have thought, if the water was even wet the deck of the ship and even repeatedly accidentally salt water was swallowed by me.

My eyes really hurt because of it, fatigue has enveloped my body trying to hold on tight while holding things so as not to get carried out.

The sound of breaking from the waves colliding with each other, coupled with the whisper of increasingly heavy rain. Making this gripping atmosphere more difficult for me to accept, especially when the cold really makes me mute.

Honestly this small ship sank many times, but it did not take long before this ship was lifted back up by the waves.

When that happened, I could see the dark blue sky that was so terrifying. My breath was already so wet, my heartbeat was also getting harder to regulate again.

Somewhat funny at a time like this, there were some fish that hit me. I don't know, between laughing or being scared. I was confused to express it, only my eyes began to shed tears.

My life and my death now, I'm not the one who decides it anymore. Only nature - I mean the creator knows.

I hope I still have a chance to confess all my sins before the crowd, hoping that they know my dark side that is never known.