Sacrifice In Love And Hate

episode 2

With sadness I lowered my hand, and I tried to smile against my sadness.

"o yes, let's go to the main room. while eating a meal as well yuk, I laper ni hehe." said brother disha spread my gaze which looked at brother arman from earlier.

"my sister, I also want to eat cake" I said

"well let's go to the main room, rather than a long time here can die your slack later."

"there is a man, yaudah come" said brother disha who looks happy to hear the joke of brother arman.

happy if I am near brother Arman, even though he does not accept my presence, even as a stranger in his eyes.the pain in my heart, he said, I don't know since when I started to feel the pain of seeing Arman's brother more happy with my brother than with me. If I always hoped one day Arman's brother would be mine, I'd love to be with him, is that gonna happen?

only God knows my feelings and only God understands my hope and soul.

I'm here, daydreaming about everything I'm going through right now....

"disha!"

I was so shocked when my father called me firmly. I became so afraid to see him, I don't know what my fault was that my father scolded me.

"what the hell is this, you even diem here. basic child goru shy, still mending I want to nerima you, especially with the condition of your ugly face I still nerima you. less good what I am!"father said with a terrible intonation, so afraid that even I did not dare to look at him anymore.

"already there ready drinks for the guests!"

said father.

by rushing I ran into the kitchen, and I did not feel that my tears just fell. I had never felt the affection of my father since I was a baby, my real father would love me if he were alive today.

while I was making drinks for the guests, my mother came to see me.

"son, sorry mom. mom gabisa help what, protect you aja aja.sorry mother son" said my mother while crying hugging me.

"mommy, it's hard to think. Dad is that. At least, he still wants to accept me in this house".

my tears just dripped without being told, and I cried with my mother in the kitchen right then and there.

after that night, after that night's cry with my mother, I realized that I really should know myself here, there was no way my mother would always accompany me and defend me. sometimes my mother can't even do anything for me other than encourage me.

this morning, I woke up like crazy.I fell asleep in the park chair last night.I felt so sore on my body and itchy from last night's mosquito bite.

"uhhh gatel really si, hoammm.still sleepy anyway, where all the pegel bodies" I said while trying to stand up from the garden chair.

"disha!" call brother disha from a distance

"kok you can sleep outside si?, I'm waiting for you from earlier malem. why? you got to be mad at me again?"ask brother disha

"e-engga kok sis" I said nervously

I chased after him until I shouted his name, but Sispa would not stop and continued to look for his father.

"sister disha wait brother!"say

it was too late for me to prevent disha. kak disha was already in front of her father who made her nervous and afraid because after disha brother scolded his father for scolding me, his father will not remain silent and will surely punish me.

"dad! why is it always aja kayak gini. disa it's a father's son too, he's my sister well!. I gaterima yes well, I think father temurin disha and law disha as you like, I'll run away from home!"said brother disha scolding her father.

"what the fuck is this!, dad got mad at him because he was self-indulgent.the punishment and anger of father to him was worth it for him to accept!. Gonna anyone run away from this house, inget it!"

"but yah-" said sister disha who was immediately cut by the father. "nothing but a fireplace! Remember that!"snapped the father who directly left my brother alone.

Sischa cried bitterly because she had never been yelled at like that by her father. "sister disha! Brother disha is not papa right?, do not cry brother."I tried to calm brother disha.

"i'm gapapa sha, I just feel angry, sprains, and hate my own father! He can take care of the feelings of his son's son." said the disha brother who was disappointed with his father's attitude.

"dad really isn't that, brother. He was just angry again with me so I was like that, already our brother went to his room just yes." I said to calm down brother disha.

"......" disha remained silent and I knew there must be a lot of things she was thinking about right now.

"it's kak to drink water first." I said as I thrust drinking water to kak disha. "i'd like to drink sha!, I just want to be alone here!"snapped disha's sister who shocked me.

I immediately left from sister disha's room. I ran around until I collided with brother arman.

Brukkk. "what the hell is lo! That's the real road!"brother Arman said angry at me. "sorry brother, I was intentional" said I who was not heard by him. He even just left.

I feel like the root of all the trouble here is me. For that I had to run away from this house and go as far as possible from this house without being found out who.

at noon today, I felt very uneasy because sister disha kept confining herself in the room. I felt very guilty with sister disha.

I was confused in choosing my own steps, seeing my brother who had not come out of the room somehow I felt so guilty and I wanted to decide my steps this afternoon as well.

I packed my clothes, and of course I packed the most important items in my life.This was the beginning of my steps that I thought carefully.

night came, sister disha did not even want to come out of her room. Everyone chose to sleep and did not care about the state of sister disha.

I was ready to leave with my things, but I did not forget my brother.I gave my brother the letter I wrote through the door. I wish my brother could read the contents of the letter and not be angry with everyone anymore.I also don't forget about my mother, I came to my mother's room and gave her a last kiss before I left her and did not forget the special letter I put on my mother's nightstand.

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