Rainy Couple's
Matthias' Poems for Nabilah
Tangerang, December 11, 2009
In every breath, there is your name
In each of my sighs, your name is still tucked away
In each of my groans and groans, many times ' I say your name
Slowly but surely,
your name always accompanies my steps
If I retreat backwards, then,
I laugh at him often
It's ridiculous!
If it never happened
The shame!
Why would I get caught like that?
Be happy!
I smiled to find that sweet smile of yours
You have successfully turned grief into love
Sad I am, you are magic into laughter
Ever since I knew you,
far away it's been that emptiness
You are like a parachol
parasol protected me from the heat and the rain
This is not a fight
Because I am not speaking well
I'm not a liar either
For whatever I do, I lie to my own feelings
Because that's what you made me
You've ruled my whole life
You changed my life
You are with my life
Again, I said,
you are like the morning sun
you shine upon my heart this dry
you are like rain in the afternoon
thanks for giving me some relief
the Nabilah Angela Siregar
from your secret admirer
Tangerang, December 24, 2009
Where are you?
Where are you going?
How shocked I was when I heard the news
You just left
You play disappear in front of me
I'm here without any certainty from you
Wait around
That's something I hate
For your sake I will
How long you've been gone
I will always wait for you
Last week's exam
You know, right?
Then why did you leave?
Without your presence, it feels different
The exam was scary for me
Unpleasant
What are you moving for?
You don't love me anymore?
The darling?
Yes, I know
Who am I this
What are we?
Just friends?
Or can I call you My Love?
Because that's how it is
This love, this heart, this,
you've mastered it
There was a mistletoe on the door of the church
On the Christmas tree there is a winged angel doll
My mind is flying to you
Guess who?
Well, you, that rule my heart
You're the one over there
Take care of yourself, you
I asked for one thing
Don't forget me
Always remember I was there
I was as real as dew in the morning
Merry Christmas, Nabilah Angela Siregar!
Tangerang, December 28, 2009
If you know why I find it hard to move to another heart,
here is the answer:
God gives only one heart and one love
That's all I give just for you
Tangerang, December 31, 2009
It feels lazy to go everywhere
There was no desire to see fireworks
There is no you
I'd better spend the new year's night with the game
Happy New Year, Nabilah!
Tangerang, January 2, 2010
If we could meet again,
I hope it's part of God's destiny
I hate that it's just a coincidence
And, now, I'm sincere
So sincere, I decided to change schools
If we are fools, then,
someday we will meet again
Dear you, Nabilah!
Tangerang, January 12, 2010
I'm confused
What are you really
What is our relationship
Do I really love you
Because I just met a girl
Not the intent of cheating
Even though I'm not sure this is cheating
My chest shook near the woman
At first glance the highlight is similar to your highlight
It's like I see your figure
Is that love?
But when I love two women at once?
❤❤❤❤❤
Matthias was only grinning himself while reading the collection of poems. These poems will probably never be delivered to Nabilah. How can he convey, if there will be a wounded heart. His relationship with Kezia is at risk. But it would be a relief if Matthias turned to Nabilah.
He reopened the folder on his phone. Matthias looked at each of Kezia's photos. Slowly her tears began to drip. He started beating his head. Her lower lip was accidentally bitten. Then, slowly he looked at the photo of Nabilah in Junior High uniform. What a teenage girl with a Middle Eastern face who has made Matias crazy. A photo of Nabilah and a picture of Kezia.
"Kezia is my girl. Find the past that never gives certainty. Just focus on Kezia. Kezia is worth fighting for." Matias smiled. The photo he tucked back in the book poetry collection belongs to him.
Now, has Matias really moved on?
