Prison Wound
Eleven part
Still unable to believe what Riena was asking for, Raditya seemed hesitant to step up. He even thought he was dreaming. Yet not a minute has his eyes closed. All night, Raditya wakes up to consult with his friend.
"Well, don't you want to hug me?" Riena's voice was getting louder. The woman was putting negative thoughts on her. Raditya's anxiety, considered as evidence if now he himself is indeed dirty and despicable.
Raditya immediately realized that Riena's request was not just a hallucination. As fast as lightning, Raditya approached Riena and immediately hugged her warmly though not too tightly. He did not want a little rough movement or suppression of his physique, making Riena again remember the sexual violence she had experienced.
"Make me hug you longer, Bee. Don't just for a second. I don't mind at all." Slightly losing self-control, Raditya whispered affectionately right next to Riena's earlobe.
Riena's body suddenly felt stiffened. Raditya could feel a slight pull back from his wife's body. Only then did the man wake up. Riena has not fully recovered. His wife must be trying hard to overcome her fear and trauma. Slowly, Raditya released his embrace. With a heavy heart he did. Hugging Riena for him was a cure of all heartbreak. Over and over no matter what burden of work or thought is felt, it always subsides if it is holding Riena by its side.
"Well, I want to get out of the hospital. But I don't want to go back to the cottage. I'm going home to Mom, okay, right? I miss mama." Pinta Riena.
"We wait for the doctor, yes. After your infusion is removed, we go home." Without asking much, Raditya immediately gave an answer that made Riena relieved.
"Thank you, Ay," said Riena as she retreated and chose to sit on the edge of the bed. Hiding her trembling hands and feet received her own husband's embrace. Apparently, it still takes time and more courage to make his condition recover.
Raditya caught the uneasiness in Riena. He turned his brain for a moment to make sense so that his wife did not feel guilty for the oddity of the attitude shown to him.
"Bee, I'm sleepy, I can't sleep all night. Can I sleep here. If there's a doctor, wake me up, okay?" Raditya immediately pulled the bench that was not far from the nightstand next to Riena's gurney.
"Just sleep here, Ay. This safe is big enough for both of us. I'm tired of falling." Riena said it with a hint of hesitation. However, he could not bear to let Raditya sleep in such a sitting position.
"No, I'll be scolded by the nurse." Raditya refused with his eyes closed. Both hands are folded in front of the chest.
"When do you start to fear being scolded by people, Ay? There is usually no fear either. Especially if you're dealing with a nurse." Riena started talking a lot. Although his voice was still slow and not too excited.
"My nose began to shrink. It is because of you that I miss, but ignore me instead. I'm weakened, Bee. People say that women can make a smart man stupid. Brave men often turn out to be timid. I need an energy recharge. Only you know how to." Raditya is again released. Speech like this is usually said before. Even Riena would have been happy to return the remark with a direct action. Raditya forgot, things are no longer the same.
"I'm on a monthly basis, Ay. This is in the hospital, anyway" Riena said. Of course he lied. He said that only because he did not want to disappoint Raditya continuously.
Raditya bit his lower lip while re-opening his eyeballs. It is no longer possible to pretend to sleep. She was well aware of what Riena was saying was definitely just to keep her feelings in check. Unlike her who was trying to keep the heart of the woman she loved so much, Riena also did the same. In the midst of her own injuries, even Riena was still trying her best.
"Bee, can I kiss your feet?" Questions as well as unexpected requests slid from Raditya's lips.
"Don't, Ay. Dirty feet. I didn't shower yesterday. It must stink." Instantly Riena pulled her legs back down under the gurney.
"It's okay. We used to exchange sweat and spit, right, Bee? If it's just smelly feet, it means nothing. In fact, not infrequently we can immediately make love in the morning before brushing our teeth and bathing. What difference?"
Riena could not argue anymore. What Raditya said just now is true. But what makes Raditya want to do it? Shouldn't Riena kiss her husband's feet? Wasn't he the one who was guilty of not being able to keep the honor of a wife?
Without waiting for Riena's thoughtful answer, Raditya shed his body until his buttocks and knees simultaneously touched the coldness of the hospital ceramics. Raditya was standing right under his wife. Both hands reached out to Riena and placed the foot on her lap. Slowly leaning over to kiss the feet of the woman he loved.
"Ay, no. I don't deserve it" Riena tried to pull Raditya's back so that her husband's lips wouldn't touch her instep. But late. The warm sensation of Raditya's lips seemed to penetrate the frozen recesses of Riena's heart because the deep wounds were still intact.
"O Allah, O Robb, forgive all the sins of the servant. Truly I have denied the best gift that You have bestowed on me. Forgive my khilaf, God. I don't want to end my life. While you have sent an angel without wings to take care of me," Riena said.
Almost five minutes passed, Raditya was still reluctant to keep his lips away from Riena's instep. If he is able to speak directly, he really wants to apologize for his inability to take care of his wife.
"Well, there's something I want to tell you about" Reina broke up. After a while he was seen inviting his brain to think a little hard.
On the other hand, Ratih and Reno who had arrived at their residence, were chatting while enjoying a cup of coffee in the living room.
"Tih, your tumben until you spend the night in the hospital? With clients anyway. Your client this time is special, right? Or is his soul badly shaken? So that you have to do the accompaniment for 24 hours." Reno tries to extract information about Riena from his own wife.
