Post-divorce

part 31's

Don't forget to leave a trace

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"It's mas." He immediately opened the envelope, and I was surprised by the contents, my heart felt crumpled, my body was unable to stand up, I sat down limp expressionlessly with tears that began to break out of my eyes.Oh my God what else will happen in my life? It's so dear 'have you put this self to trial for me again?' whispered in my heart.

"It's not like what you saw Amanda." I can only shed tears. "it's really Me, but I'm not doing anything as it looks in the photo." Rama admitted himself in the photo.

"How can I believe you didn't do anything, Mom?" I touched my chest that felt tight and then drowned my face behind my hands.

"Please don't be like this Amanda, please stop your crying. I can't see you like this." He tried to hug me but I quickly brushed him off.

"Don't touch me, Mas ... I'm disgusted, that hand has touched another woman not just me, even more than one woman you've invited to serve you." The photo shows Rama dressed as he is sleeping with a different woman. The envelopes I received were photos of Rama's intimacy with other women. Rama is a businessman, no stranger to being surrounded by paid women in his business life with clients and fellow entrepreneurs, a thought that undermined my confidence in him.

"Amanda listen to my explanation, this is all a trap from Herman, his father Tasya and Tasya to destroy our household. You said yourself 'we should be based on trusting each other, then why don't you trust me?"

"Indeed I said it, Mas. But that doesn't mean I close my eyes to the photographic evidence I see."

"Then what do I do, Amanda?" He sat down in front of me with a grim look, drowning his face in my lap. I wiped my tears, neutralizing all the emotions that were stirring in my chest.

"Give me proof that none of this is true." He raised his head until we met. "Before you give evidence that the photo is just a trap, don't meet Me, let Me calm down" I continued.

He grasped and kissed the back of my hand, as soon as I reflexively pulled it. And walking quickly outside the room to avoid it while still holding the photo in my hand, my steps stopped when I saw Atma, Janu and Gita.

Seeing their arrival, I immediately hugged Gita in tears, it hurts so much to see a beloved husband sleeping with many women by his side even if just looking at a photo is enough to make this heart ache.

"Sister, what's going on?" I could only cry, the photo I held was pulled by Janu, after seeing the photo Janu widened his eyes, his jaw hardened, and his hands clenched.

"It's not like you see in the picture, please listen to my explanation. These are all traps and slanders from Tasya" Rama pleaded.

"So this is how you look after the woman I've secured for you, asshole ...." Janu pulled the collar of Rama's shirt. "if there was no Atma here I would finish you off." whispered softly in Rama's ear, but I could still hear him.

"Here you go, Brother, perhaps what Mas Rama said is true. We must not judge Mas Rama only from a photograph of an unknown person."

"Ma ... Mama why? tanya Atma stopped our conversation.

"Just misunderstand dear, so Mama's sad." Rama calmly answered Atma's question.

"Mama's angry with Papa?"

"Mama's okay, Atma don't worry, Mama's just a little angry with Papa, everything will be fine," replied Rama, Atma simply nodded in response as she was probably confused by the current situation.

"Sister, take me to Ummik's house." I asked Janu to take me away from this house.

"No one will leave this house" said Rama firmly. "I can't afford to stay home without you and Atma." 

"Mas Rama, let Brother settle down first at Ummik's house, let Me and Brother Janu bring Brother and Atma home," pinta Gita.

Without hearing Rama's reply, I packed the clothes I needed with tears still coming out of my eyes.

"Atma stay at Grandma's house first yes, Pa ...." Atma hugged Rama affectionately, as heavily as to leave Rama at home alone.

"Jaga Mama yes handsome boy," said Rama grudgingly kissed Atma's forehead. Actually do not have the heart to leave Rama, only I need calm to think objectively with the problems I am facing. Rama was just glued to me silently as I passed by and got into Janu's car.

[Mom, Amanda and Mas Rama are in trouble, Amanda is currently staying at Ummik's house for a few days to calm down. Amanda asked Mom to accompany Mas Rama, she was sick, Amanda was worried about her condition. Pray that our problems will be solved quickly, ma'am.] I sent a message to Mother to accompany Mas Rama, although disappointed in her still as a wife I was worried about her.

On the way to Ummik's house, Atma fell asleep, as if she were tired of attending school today.

"Sorry, I've been troubling you."

"It's okay, sister" replied Gita.

"Sorry, I had an emotional moment with Rama, I shouldn't have acted that way" said Janu, I just smiled faintly.

"From the way that Janu's sister protects Amanda, I know there is still love for Amanda" Gita said, forcing a smile on her face, but I understand she was hiding the sadness in her heart.

"Dek .. if indeed Big Brother makes you hesitate to marry Janu, you better stay away from your lives." 

"I'm sorry Gita, sister. It wasn't Gita's intention to ask Big Brother away from us, it was just that it was painful when the future husband still had a sense of love for others."

"It takes time to forget someone even buries in the love that has long inhabited my heart, Gita. I beg you to give me a little time, stay by my side Gita, stay a wife for my future, never think of leaving or staying away from me just because of the love that still exists in my heart for Amanda." I heard Janu was trying to convince Gita.

"I'm sorry Brother has made you sad, believe what Kak Janu said. He needs you by his side, Brother wants you to be happy, just as you want Me and Atma to be happy" said I who also helped convince Gita.

"I'm the one you should blame, I chose Amanda's path of happiness by giving it up for Rama, but it's not easy to bury this love. But believe me you are the woman who will hold this heart, not anyone." Janu tries to convince Gita again.

"I'm sorry, Brother. Not that I blame Brother. I'll try to reach out for Kak Janu's love, because I'm sure he's a man and a future husband worth fighting for." Gita hugged me and cried in my arms, we dissolved in each other's grief, as human beings we could only go through everything He had destined with sincerity no matter what.

We arrived at Ummik's house, Abi and Ummik looked shocked after seeing I was carrying a lot of clothes in a bag, and I told him everything that happened.

"You're patient, don't make any decisions when your heart is still filled with emotion" Abi said after I told her everything.

"Yes, Abi. Amanda just calms down here until Amanda can control her emotions. And will not take any decision let alone the decision to end the marriage, just want to convince yourself, Bi."

"Thank God it was like that."

"Yes, Son. Do not let you regret the decision you take later, consider this a test in your household." Ummik and Abi tried to calm themselves with the various advice they gave so that I would not make the wrong decision. 'may I pass the test after the test that His Lord gives in order to feel happiness in our household.' My prayer in my heart.

"Ma, what's going on at home, Atma kangen."

Deg ... had just left the house a few hours, Atma had already missed Rama. As much as Atma's affection for Rama is, and vice versa, but I can't go back now, I need to convince myself to accept all the facts I'm going to face later. I'm going through the trauma of failing a marriage, a lot of the fear that's in my heart, even just believing in Rama is very difficult for me.

~Connected

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