
Once again I was carried away by an illusion,
entangled by tightness and shackled by self-torturing pain
The dark scooped up everything I had,
drown it to a colorless bottom
Black and dark, and,
forcing me to get stuck in it so I can't move on.
Torturing me to feel the pain that slashed his heart
I was crying, though,
I screamed and I sobbed.
But everything is silent
As deaf to my suffering
Help u! If this is a dream, wake me up,
Don't let me continue to wait in the turmoil that ravaged my heart
Help me who can't come back to the surface
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Her usual sparkling beautiful net was now dimmed, drowned wet by the outpouring of tears that would not stop for a moment
He was alone in the room, shutting himself off from everyone who was waiting. Just befriend the restrained Isakan who arose by him to stifle the chest
His hand was unable to lift, the message that entered his phone a few seconds ago had destroyed it to the ground
Since last night when the man left he could not sleep again, his heart was troubled. The discomfort that continues to gnaw at his heart he tepis without care, trying hard to wait
Day after night, he assured himself and everyone that the man would return as promised
With full confidence she wore her gorgeous dress, polishing herself to look more dazzling, waiting with confidence. The man had promised and there was no way he would betray
The clock kept passing and everything was neatly arranged like their original plan and the man had not arrived, everything passed until it was at the end of time and the restlessness began to interfere. But the message seemed to stoke him from within
Your husband that bastard has died in battle, don't you wait to come!
If you got that message how do you feel? on the day of the wedding reception that the whole family is waiting for, when your heart slowly begins to accept its existence. Then the message seemed to throw a bomb that destroyed everything
Asya didn't want to believe it, she was still there waiting. Do not want to go out when the husband has not arrived, repeatedly he contacted Dirga to make sure everything. Even he had contacted his sister-in-law as well, but there was no answer as if they were sure that the two were gone
Tears that had been dripping melt the heart of a Zara who had long frozen, she tried to contact juan who is Asistan as well as her husband's personal bodyguard. Instead of improving even his mind increasingly confused, the aerospace traveling without taking him. Even the man whose full name was juandany did not know about the commotion last night
Asya was sitting limp on the floor, as if his bones were no longer restless. As if all the supports of his life had been forcibly stripped away, it felt like he wanted to just die right now.
"Why did this happen?" He asked on the sidelines sobs
"When I thought everything would go fine" after saying that his body leaned on the side of the bed because his weak body was no longer able to support his weight
The noise of the crowd from the first floor of the residence was not even heard anymore by him, his brain seemed empty and empty. He even got a shipment of terrible photos from the location where the aerospace should be located
"I just want to die" he said desperately
She knows all the risks of being the wife of an aerospace, to be with her then it takes mental strength. But he is also an ordinary man, the same as women in general. The situation now seems intact but fragile
It feels like he can't if he has to fail for the second time, especially with worse conditions. Why should he be destroyed again, even on an important day like this
Traakk. The sound of the opened window was able to shift his focus, his eyes wide to see the figure with a heavy and firm voice before him. His previously weak body helplessly instantly gained the strength to stand up straight
Greep
Asya immediately lunged at the body that had just set foot on the floor of the room, he hugged it as if afraid that the figure would soon disappear
"Don't you ever say that again, how can I live without you? Hah answer me ra, answer! I could die and die. You don't!" Dirga gripped his arm firmly, he shook and spoke with an angry tone
While he did not answer at all, he still sobbed and even more tightened his embrace
"Don't go" only those words were spoken from her trembling lips
Dirga sighed violently, his heart softened at the sound.he took off his grip and turned to hug and rub his wife's shoulder slowly
"Hey, don't cry anymore" she said gently
He tried to take off his embrace so he could see his face, but unfortunately did not want to take it off even if only for a moment
"I'm here and I'm not going anywhere, you don't cry anymore, baby" she said slowly
Dirga felt quite confused to see his wife's behavior, he never saw his wife took the initiative to embrace him first. Moreover, crying and hugging him until reluctant to leave, all the questions from within him continued to pop up filling his brain
"Why you ra? Not usually you like this" asked Dirga by gently kissing the top of his wife's head
Asya just shook her head and increasingly drowned herself in the arms of the dirga that was able to calm her soul
"Actually I like you hug gini, but try to release first deh ra" said Dirga
But again he did not answer and just shook his head
"Zara, my shirt is covered in blood dear. So let go first yes" Dirga tried to persuade him again
It is not usually fun to hug him like this especially with the current state of his body, considering he usually hates the smell of blood and will not let himself touch it even a little before the man cleans himself. this of course made him wonder
The knock on the door of their room was finally able to distract
"Zara, are you ready yet? That's the guests waiting" asked a voice from behind the door, dirga guessing that maybe it was the voice of the fauzia. Because the voice was different from the voice he used to hear, namely the voice of his mother-in-law
Asya looked frantically at the sound, she slowly let go of her embrace and hurriedly wiped away her tears.
"Before a moment, this is still ready" said Dirga to remove the worry that may arise due to those who are silent silent
"Alright, when you're ready to go down" continued the voice from outside the door
"Yes mbak, we're coming down" said the dirga again
After the voice from behind the door was no longer heard, he finally looked at Asya
"We talk again later ra, we have to hurry" said Dirga then immediately rushed to leave the room and headed to the bathroom to clean up
Asya just nodded without answering, slowly he tried to tidy up his appearance so as not to arouse suspicion of people who saw it
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Don't forget to leave a trace, because your response my spirit😊