PHYSILOVAS

PHYSILOVA 20 - Guilt

"Let me know about you."

~Elsa~

Elsa stared at the beautiful view from behind the window of her room. The silent susana in the morning and the smell of petricor made her feel a little peaceful. The rain water is getting smaller.

Elsa walks down the stairs that lead to the living room, "Ma. I'm leaving first" said Elsa to her mother.

"Lohs. You're not having breakfast?" my mother was attentive.

Elsa shook her head, "Let's go. Along with Arial in the school cafeteria, "replies Elsa optimistic that her plan today will succeed.

"But today you came home rather late in the afternoon" said Ranti-Mama Elsa.

"Udah Ma's. Later Elsa will eat kok, with Arial," Elsa replied reassuringly.

"Keep if Arial has breakfast first how?" timpal the Papi Elsa - Surya.

"Oh, Papi. Semalem kan in chat Arial said, he said later breakfast together in the cafeteria," said Elsa upset.

Surya and Ranti throw their gazes at each other, "Yes already," said Surya then followed by the sound of a motor horn that sounded from the front page.

Tiinn!!! Tinn!!!

"That's right. Arial's already picked up," Elsa stirred up by herself.

"Mommy, Papi. I left first" he said, kissing the backs of his parents' hands in turn.

"Yes be careful," Surya stared back at his son's steps that were increasingly darting away.

Elsa emerges from behind the big door of her house. Smiling cheerfully even though the day was a little dim. While Arial was only silent with his flat view. Sitting on his motorcycle seat.

"Good morning, Arial," greeted Elsa with excitement.

"Yes" said Arial rather lazily opening his mouth. He gave Elsa a helmet, "Lo don't wear a jacket?" tanya Arial is sensitive to the thin material that Elsa wears.

"Oh yes. Wait a minute," said Elsa immediately running inside her house as quickly as possible. Not until fifteen seconds, Elsa was back in front of Arial and immediately boarded the Arial motorbike.

Arial motorbikes are splitting the city streets. Apparently the sky was still dim and still wanted to spill all its weight onto the earth. Slowly gurgling rainwater that had subsided again filled the empty space in the atmosphere with a fairly heavy tempo.

Halfway to school, Arial pulls off his bike at the bus stop. He was self-defeating, had Arial chosen to go to bed earlier last night, surely his fate would not have been unlucky like this since he could at least wake up earlier as the new rain subsided. Yes, Arial had to be willing to stay up all night just for a video call with Elsa, finished the video call Elsa instead forced him to continue his chat via message.

Arial took off the helmet he was wearing and immediately shaded under the canopy stop. He exhaled slowly, sitting on a long bench. It was almost seven o'clock, but the rain was still busy spilling all its weight from a height above the clouds. Elsa sat next to him with her mouth shut.

"Sorry huh? Because of me, we're late" Elsa said after gathering her guts to make a sound.

"Nothing is wrong" replied Arial briefly.

"But the rain is romantic. It's just the two of us at this stop" Elsa continued.

Arian let out a long sigh, "Okay. I challenge you," said Arial.

"Challenge what?" Elsa looked at Arial curiously.

"You can get my ranking in the final school exam later. I'll do everything you want" explained Arial.

"How come?"

"No, you have to fulfill all my desires."

"What kind of desire?"

"Don't know. I still think."

"Don't that heavy-dong!"

Arial nodded. After that the mood returned to silence.

"Al," call Elsa. His gaze was far between the rain.

"Hm" said Arial without words.

"Gue wants to answer your question yesterday" said Elsa sure.

"Which question?" reply Arial most hobby wearing forget mode.

"So about, 'why do I like you?'" explains Elsa.

"Gue already knows," replied Arial briefly.

"Where are you from?" Elsa frowning. The view turns on Arial.

"From me," answered Arial is still busy counting the number of raindrops that fall.

"Can't you?" elsa asked increasingly cluelessly.

"Yes can" answered Arial almost the same as Elsa's question.

"l. I'm serious," complained Elsa.

"Gue's serious too," now. Arial's gaze managed to catch Elsa's eye bead.

"Tau ah," bete Elsa turned her face away from Arial's gaze.

"Lo know, what is the romantic rain?" arial asked with mystery. His face was again faced with the rain falling down heavily.

"Tau" answered Elsa.

"What?"

"He remains. Despite falling many times," said Elsa confidently, "I'm looking to lo" he continued.

The deg!

Arial fell silent. But only for a moment. He recalled the time when Elsa was chasing after his steps just to express love.

"FUCK!!!" call the rancid girl after Arial's accelerating pace, "Wait!!!" he shouted, his voice almost filled the entire school and matched the volume of the school bell.

Arial still doesn't want to rub it. He kept his feet fast.

"ARIAL! I LOVE THE SAME LO. URATE ******** I'VE BROKEN UP. THAT'S WHY I DARE SCREAM! ALOHAAAALL!!!!!" peekik Elsa is upset.

The sneers of the school residents began to creep into his ears. But with no care Arial instead left Elsa with scorn and scorn from others.

"Pantes is not ashamed."

"Udah bad. Just go to a mental hospital."

"Wrong," Arial denied making Elsa snort loudly, "The romance is raining. Make me believe. That the gravity of the earth is the same as the gravity of my feelings right now," continued Arial sweet.

Not happy to hear Arial speak sweetly like an angel. Elsa even grinned, "Gue tau. I've loved it for a long time, haven't you?" the point is directly on Arial.

Arial fell silent. Among the rainwater biases she tries to concoct the right words for Elsa. What is definitely not a fight like a fat man or the like, "El," he called slowly.

"Gue tau's. You must be telling me the truth" said Elsa, cutting off the conversation.

"The rain had subsided somewhat," Arial's pretext immediately rose from his seat.

Elsa was upset again, "Honestly Arial. I have been in love with you for a long time!" he loudly held back the anger.

Arial just kept quiet as if he hadn't heard, "You want me to stay?" he said coldly wiping the wet motorcycle seat with a kanebo.

Elsa just looked at Arial in annoyance.

***

Arial motor stop in the parking lot of the motor that already looks full. There are still five minutes left to the school bell. But Arial's steps shot towards the school cafeteria with no words coming out of his mouth.

"Cold, Al," complained Elsa rubbing her hands together.

"Same," replied Arial flat.

Chicken porridge with caldnya broth makes Arial increasingly impatient to eat it. Now he was sitting in Mang Koko's canteen, "Mang. Porridge two chickens," he exclaimed looking around which turned out to be still crowded.

"Eh, the****** is even here!" kevin shouted directly sitting next to Arial and followed by Angga who sat in front of him.

"A little while in. Eat you!" added Angga.

"My laper," replied Arial receiving chicken porridge from Mang Koko.

"Of up, baby" chirped Kevin as he teased Elsa as she accepted her order. Meanwhile, Arial just quietly enjoyed his morning breakfast.

"Messenger. Don't vent, "Arial replied briefly without turning his attention to his morning breakfast menu.

"Later it was a bit unfortunate," Angga said.

At first glance Arial looked at Elsa who was eating her food and looked hungry, "Be careful, El. It's still hot" he said, drawing attention to Elsa, who choked the girl. Arial gives his drink to Elsa.

"I said be careful. You even kayak asked," Arial's nag.

Elsa took a quick sip of water, "Yes my surprise you can pay attention to me," he replied annoyed.

Arial turned his face the other way.

"Eh, Al. You are ready for the match the day after tomorrow" asked Angga who only got a short nod from Arial.

Ah, apparently Arial was so enjoying her morning breakfast.

***

YUK!!!

Nita collapsed in a long, empty hallway.

"Waduhh!! Al," surprised Kevin was holding the weight of a stack of chemical books.

"Lah, he even slept there," added Angga amazed.

"She passed out ******!" maki Arial gave the stack of package books he brought to Kevin.

"Ehh, to *****. Heavy!" exclaim Kevin received a stack of package books from Arial.

Arial runs towards Nita. Squat in front of the girl to make sure. Nita's face was pale and her body warm. Arial immediately carried her to the UKS room.

"Buset is very heavy," grumbled Arial brought Nita to the UKS room.

Arriving at UKS Arial immediately lay Nita's body on the bed, "Why is she Sis?" Welcome the UKS's caretaker doctor.

Arial shook his head, "I don't know. Suddenly he fainted" he replied.

"Let me check first" said the doctor attached his stethoscope to the pulse point Nita continued by providing the treatment needed until Nita woke up. While Arial was just waiting for him behind the doctor's back.

"He was just exhausted and needed enough rest" the doctor explained.

Arial just silently listened to the doctor's explanation.

"You're his classmate?"

Arial nodded.

Nita wakes up from her stupor. Looking around the room in a white and flavorful tone typical of medicine, "Where's Gue?" his question is still not fully conscious.

"Lo in the UKS. You fainted" replied Arial.

Nita was silent, remembering the last time she walked alone.

"Lady. You should not be too tired yes," the doctor recalled.

Nita nodded.

"Then excuse me first," said the doctor who is quite handsome at the age of four heads.

Now in the room there are only Arial and Nita. Shut each other and shut up. Arial sat on the bedside chair, "Lo sampean abis why the hell?" tanyakanya.

"Because there was a meeting I asked for help for the decoration of his birthday for today," explained Nita.

Someone walked into the room, "Nita?" call him. His voice sounded anxious.

Arial and Nita turned towards the source of the voice. Shortly afterwards Gilang appeared from behind the curtains.

Arial got up from his seat, "Yes, yes. I stay," he said.

Nita nodded, "Yes. Thanks, yes" he replied.

"Hm." Arial nodded briefly and patted Gilang's shoulder gently.

The brotherly relationship with Gilang seems to be getting colder to feel.

Two human children greet Arial when he comes out of the UKS room. Embrace Arial and take him to class.

"Gue still doesn't understand" Kevin said.

"Do not****, where can you understand," Angga reply anxious.

Arial laughed, "Lo both make me anxious," he continued to embrace his two friends.

***

Sometimes behind the look of Gilang's face that Arial looked terbesit guilt in his mind. Arial must be completely willing to let go of Nita and erase the feelings he once held for the girl he just met for Gilang's happiness. Yep! Gilang loves Nita after a long time she chose to avoid falling in love.

"El. You will return by yourself, right? I've got practice" Arial said after the break bell rang.

"Gue wait for your training" said Elsa.

Arial breathed his sigh resignedly, "Old master, El. Ten o'clock just turned back," Arial replied.

Elsa shook her head, "Biarin. I'll wait a minute." I guess.

"El. I don't want anything."

"Gue doesn't want to do anything either."

"Elsa. This time it's just me."

"Gue is horrified. I just don't want to." Elsa looks to shake her head.

Arial grunts his head. His patience is being tested. "It's calm, huh? I'm not going to do anything," said Arial reassured.

Elsa shook her head hard.

"It's up to you," when Arial immediately left Elsa where he stood rather than having to argue any longer and seduce her.

Novi is seen walking closer to Elsa. "That's right. Nurut is the same boyfriend," he said embracing Elsa.

"It's not very sensitive. I really want to spend time with her," grumbled Elsa folded her arms in front of her chest while staring at Arial's steps away.

"Lo has business. Arial has business too. The world isn't just about girlfriends, El. Because the world is too wide if only to fill the love story," said Novi smartly advising Elsa.

Elsa breathed her heavy breath. "Yes yuk? Jajan," he asked.

***

Arial walked into the UKS room and in his hand carried two boxes of food that he had ordered online.

"This is for Lo and Nita," Arial gave the box containing the food to Gilang.

"Thank you, Al," replied Nita who was still seen limp in her bed.

Arial just nodded. In his heart hoped that his relationship with Gilang would improve. But in Gilang's eyes, Arial is still the little killer who has laid the life of his mother.

"Do you want to be good with me?" Cross sounds cold.

Arial smiled knot. "Ngapain is good. Just eat it time. I know that every morning you don't eat breakfast."

Gilang grunts sebal. "Yes that. Look at me, you kill me," he narrowed his eyes at Arial.

"Gue think it was an accident." Arial looked at Gilang blankly but his gaze still looked flat.

He turned his face the other way. Meanwhile, looking at the small debate between Gilang and Arial, Nita was just silent.

Without another word Arial left the room.

"Udah yes," said Nita calm Gilang who had emotions. He held Gilang's hand gently and smiled warmly. Gilang returned that smile and nodded.

Arial exhaled heavily. He felt so guilty that he often blamed himself. I should have been the one to die. Not a person as good as Aunt Lidya, her mind when it comes to frustration thinking about the very terrible event. Where the flames are growing, devouring the house and all its contents.

TBC...

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