Pesantren Love Story's

24. Wedding Fitrah

now I return to the dormitory for Isya Prayer and ready to leave early.

"Sha, why are you so blindfolded" asked Mahira

"aunt yes I the story, now I want to pray and ready to be ready for prayer"

arriving in the early class, I also daydreamed a lot not focused on the material presented by Ustadzah that explains the lesson of Fiqh.

after the dawn finished Ustadzahpun out of class, but not with me and my friends, because we still have class deliberation.

I who looked lethargic immediately got a lot of questions from Anisa

"bk you why the mb from the beginning to go home like diem diem bae, usually you are the most active mbk" asked Anisa who sat beside me

"gk papa Nis"

"mbk not feeling well mbk, mbk still sick ya mbk"

only I reply with a smile and a headband.my mind still drifting somewhere, it feels like to run away from the cottage let's not be married to the same gus Zafran,

"i still want to focus on the salary, God" I murmured and immediately leaned my head on the table

"mbk I take you to the dormitory aja yuk mbk" I also. nodded because I want to be alone.

"gave you a break" said Anisa when she arrived to take me to the dormitory.

"thank you Nis" I said

"yes mb, I went back to class first ya mb"

my own dormitory ning Afra if it is a definite obstacle to ndalem and Mahira and Ghina are still in his class

I cried imagining tomorrow what happened to me, when I was so excited to cry about fate, my mother arrived

tock tock "Assalamualaikum"

I opened the door and hugged my mother

"ma, Nasha doesn't want to ma"

"here, let's sit first" asked Mama

"ma Nasha still wants a salary, still want the focus of memorization of the Qur'an ma"

"you are patient, son, maybe this is the best for you. You remember your mother wanted you to go to the hotel but you always refused, you always refused, until finally you were given the same test of God through the slander that Angel gave until finally papa forced you and brought you here, and now see, you are very eager to study in this boarding school, you are very enthusiastic, you love this pesantren, your soul is already in this pesantren" said mama while stroking my head

", believe me son, behind every problem.the disaster and the test must have its silver lining, do not dissolve in sadness, do not, something you hate may be the best for you according to the word of God in Al-Baqarah verse 216"

كُتِبَ عَلَيْكُمُ ٱلْقِتَالُ وَهُوَ كُرْهٌ لَّكُمْ ۖ وَعَسَىٰٓ أَن تَكْرَهُوا۟ شَيْـًٔا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ ۖ وَعَسَىٰٓ أَن تُحِبُّوا۟ شَيْـًٔا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَّكُمْ ۗ وَٱللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنتُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ

it means: "Jobbed on you to fight, but fighting is something you hate. You may hate something, but it is very good for you, and you may (also) like something, but it is very bad for you; Allah knows, and you do not know."

"or why, your words can calm me, my mother is right, in every disaster, trial, and test there must be a silver lining. I who used to be very reluctant to be included in the pesantren now I am very excited in the pesantren and rightly said my soul mama is already in this pesantren, Pesantren Love Story, my feelings are now a little relieved and accept the marriage that tomorrow morning I will carry out" my inner being still hugging my mother

"Mama right, sorry Nasha ya ma, Nasha will learn sincerely and accept with airy chest this marriage, doain Nasha ya ma, may Nasha be happy in this marriage" I told my mother

"amen darling, mama always doain you" said mama while kissing my forehead

"Sha, tomorrow you will be Zafran's wife, tonight you can sleep here with you"

"of course ma" I said while tightening the embrace on my mother

"Assalamualaikum" the voice of Mahira and Ghina who just returned home

"eh there's Aunt Amanda, how are you tan"

"Alhamdulillah good dear"

"it's been a tan" asked Mahira

"already" said the mother with a smile

"oh yes this aunt brought a snack for you, eaten yes"

"repot bothered the tan" replied Mahira while opening a plastic bag containing snacks from mama

"sok sok an said bother, but also want to eat it" I said as I threw a pillow towards Mahira..

"he he he said, little Sha, no tan"

my mom laughed too

"oh yes Mahira, Ghina, tonight can aunty sleep here with Nasha"

"can tan, but I'm sorry tan, it's like this, understand me dipesantren gada springbad tan he he he he" said Ghina

"yes, aunty knows" said mama

now my mom and I are in a bed measuring 120 x 200. we sleep on our side to fit, mama memeluku from behind

at 2:30 pm, I woke up to perform the Tahajud Prayer, I insisted on asking God for forgiveness and protection, every prostration I cried remembering my past sins, and remembered the event later in the morning. I asked for strength so that I could be born inwardly.

"Allah, forgive the sin of the servant, only extinguish the servant take refuge and ask for help, protect the servant from slander and danger, give the servant of strength and sinfulness to live this all, he said, Robbana atina fiddunya hasanah wa fil endoti hasanah waqina adza bannar, amin amin ya robbal alamin"

I continued by reciting and reciting the Qur'an, until in the verse that my mother read last night, the letter of Al-Baqarah verse 216 I cried, but again there was a feeling of relief and my sincere feeling grew.

I finished my reading until the dawn Adhan looked on

"Nasha are you awake, son?"

"already ma"

"yasah mama took Wudhu first yes, then we are ready - ready"

"yes ma"

currently I and my mama pray together in the Dormitory, from last night when I pray Isya I pray in the Dormitory, bodo very if you want in tiakzir ya takzir because not praying congregation.

after that mama's prayer advised me to come back

"Sha, marriage is one of human nature to worship, whose main purpose is to perform historical obligations, God has determined with whom we will be paired, he said, and not only the man whom Allah has installed but also the plant and other animals, such as day and night, right and left, up and down, in the letter Ar rum verse 30 Allah says

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا ۚ فِطْرَتَ ٱللَّهِ ٱلَّتِى فَطَرَ ٱلنَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا ۚ لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ ٱللَّهِ ۚ ذَٰلِكَ ٱلدِّينُ ٱلْقَيِّمُ وَلَٰكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ ٱلنَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ

"Face your face straight to the religion of Allah; (remain above) the nature of Allah who created man according to that nature. There is no change in the nature of God. (That is) a righteous religion; but most men know not,"

Shahabat Anas bin Malik radhiyallaahu ‘anhu said: “Have said Rasulullah shallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam:

مَنْ تَزَوَّجَ فَقَدِ اسْتَكْمَلَ نِصْفَ اْلإِيْمَانِ، فَلْيَتَّقِ اللهَ فِي النِّصْفِ الْبَاقِى.

“Whoever marries has completed half his faith. And let him fear Allah in the care of the other half"

"so I hope you really accept this marriage and carry out your duties as a wife, ask your husband for permission every time you travel and do activities outside your daily activities, so that your husband is pleased with what you do"

"God willing ma" My feelings are now truly relieved