Painting Your Eye Ball

TRAUMATISED

After a five-day coma, Naya finally regained consciousness. However, it is not yet possible to get out of the ICU. His external injuries were not too severe. But not with the inside. Especially the pelvis. The doctor required Naya to take a complete break for a year.

Cakra stood beside Naya unhappily. Wearing the head wrapped in straight limp hair. “Nay, I'm sorry, yes. I shouldn't have followed your request for us to race bikes back then. If only I had spurned, of course you would be fine now,”

Naya shook her head weakly. Clear drops came out from the corner of his eye. His mouth moved like he was trying to say something. But it doesn't sound anything.

“Udah, Nay. You don't have to move much first. Don't be forced to talk. What matters now is a lot of rest. I will always take care of you.”

Naya just stared at her lover's face. Hope Cakra understands what he wants to say. This is not the fault of Cakra. He's the one who's wrong.

“Sorry, Mom. Let the mama rest first, yeah. The clock is up.” A hijab nurse reminded him.

Cakra. “Gue get out first yes, Nay. Lu rest. Don't think of macem-macem.”

Then Cakra turned about to go outside when his left hand was pulled. He looked towards the owner of the hand. A pale face full of wounds. However, that's not what's striking. It was his inner wounds that were clearly visible from the look of those eyes.

Naya shook her head weakly. Hinted that the Cakra should not go.

“Gue has to go now, Nay. Believe me the same. Cakra, Mama and Papa dear Abinaya Buntari always here. We won't leave you no matter what.” The chakra dyed Naya's forehead gently. Although she was held back, her tears fell down her cheeks as well. With a heavy heart, the release of Naya's hand that was still holding her fingers.

The chakras remove sterile clothing, then rush out of the ICU room.

“How? Is there progress?” ask Mr. Yudha as well as Cakra out.

The man nodded weakly. It's like yesterday, Om. Cakra also did not know anymore how to comfort him. Cakra couldn't stand to see his sad face, Om. Surely his heart is broken.”

“Ya, already. Let Naya go through the recovery process first. As the doctor said, he took a long time to recover.”

“Mama can't imagine what would happen if Naya knew she couldn't walk anymore. Mama can't imagine it, Pa.” Ms. Dian is back sobbing.

“Quiet, Ma. Papa's sure. Naya will be fine. He's a strong boy. Same as you.” Mr. Yudha kissed his wife's forehead, then stroked Bu Dian's shoulder to try to calm down. Even though his heart was broken. The only princess who is very dear to him, must experience this stragic event. But he cannot be weak. Both men needed strength from him.

***

A week later, Naya was allowed to go home. But the accident left a deep trauma for the girl. Coupled with the fact that he could no longer walk.

Naya is getting more emotional. He often blames himself for the misfortune he has suffered. Not infrequently he cried and tended to be angry at anyone who invited him to speak. This condition will certainly make it very difficult for Naya to socialize with her friends back in school. The learning process will also not work well, if the emotions are not controlled like that.

naya's parents decided to rest her daughter to their villa in Yogyakarta. With hope, the cool air of the countryside will calm his feelings. Hopefully he can restore his spirit as well.

Naya turned her wheelchair around watching the room she used to occupy as a child. Nothing has changed. It was the same as when he left. What is different is precisely him, now can not run there and here again while playing his barbie doll. Now Naya is nothing more than a weak girl who should be dead.

“Naya! Naya!” call her mother from the door. Naya.

“Iya, Ma.”

“There's that chakra up ahead. She must be very upset with you.”

“Naya don't want to see him, Ma,” replied Naya throw away face.

“Loh, why? He came all the way here, you know. You have not met for a long time. Don't you miss him?”

“No should he continue to be on Naya's side, Ma. He deserves better. He can still find another perfect girl.”

Bu Dian walked over to his daughter. “Why can you talk like that, Nay? I'm sure Cakra loves you very much. He won't leave you no matter what. So you don't have to try to avoid him, yeah. Because Mama is sure, she will not want to follow your will.”

“Mama doesn't understand Naya's feelings. Naya's shy, Ma. Naya is now disabled. Naya can't walk anymore, Cakra deserves more from Naya.”

“Why do you always talk about better and perfect? Perfection is located here, dear,” replied Bu Dian holding his chest with the right palm. “Everyone has their own meaning about what is perfect. If you think perfect is limited to being able to walk and hear clearly, then Cakra must have its own definition of the word perfect. You have to be sure of that.”

Naya nodded. He finally gave up. His heart longs for Cakra. However, every look at Cakra's face, their memories of still running around together and a walk to the maana alone made his heart ache.

Bu Dian felt Naya's nod was enough to answer her agreement to meet Cakra. The wheelchair rushes outside the room and continues towards the living room, where Naya's lover has been waiting. Papa and Mama Naya then leave to give time to the two of them.

Cakra hurriedly got up from the sofa when he saw Naya coming, “How are you, Nay? I miss it so much with you.” He then hugged the girl. However, the girl was silent. Not returning his arms as usual.

“Lu why?”

The chakras are half dead. Naya is not the type of girl who is good at sweetness, but she also never said that to him. He looked at those round eyes full of probing. There is no hate there. The sparkle of love was still there, albeit faint. What was clearly visible was the look of disappointed and desperate eyes. The guy understood, this isn't all easy for a girl of Naya's age. Moreover, she was the type of girl who could not keep quiet. This drastic change is tormenting him. “I'm sorry, Nay. I didn't mean to, ” replied Cakra solemnly. “Oh, yes. I brought textbooks to school. So, you can still learn through me. Well, one day you will return to school, you will not be left behind too many lessons.”

“What is the point of me studying? Oh, I'm no longer helpless. I can't do anything. It's no use, Cakra. So, mending lo take home again only the books.”

“Naya, you can't despair that way, dong. You can definitely recover and go back to school again. I'm sure, your own cook is not sure, anyway?”

“Please, Cakra. I don't want to!” naya shouted while hitting hard the book Cakra held until it fell to the floor.

“Lu has really changed, yes, Nay. You're not the Naya I used to know. I barely know you anymore.”

“Gue isn't the Naya you used to be, Cakra. I can't walk anymore. Paralyzed. If you want the old Naya, sorry she left.”

“Why, anyway, do you think I saw you as low as that? Why, always talk about physical? Why does it look like you can't walk? There are still things you should be grateful for, right? You still have a chance at life, Nay. It's much more valuable than what you mourn now.” The chakras are silent for a moment. “OK. If that's what you want. I'm leaving. I don't think you need me anymore.” The chakras pick up the scattered books. He rushed out without looking back or saying anything more.

Naya fell silent. Never had he seen this angry chakra. Usually the guy always laughs and marks it if it snaps. But not this time. It seemed like there was a burden she wanted to take out and explode because Naya was not as excited as she had hoped. Naya ruffled her hair and screamed in frustration. He hit both legs that could not walk repeatedly.

“What's up, Nay? You guys quarrel?” The new Ms. Dian came with a drink, shocked to hear Naya's jerky and her disheveled hair. The forty-two-year-old woman placed a drink mat on the table and approached her daughter.

Naya was crying even stronger. Without being told, Ms. Dian already knew, definitely not far from the conversation they were talking about in the room earlier. He hugged his beloved daughter with gentleness. Naya. Mama Dian doesn't care. She hugged her son even tighter. He understood, it's not easy. He himself is not able to deal with it. However, always being by Naya's side was the only way to slightly distract her son. For the sake of Naya he was willing to leave his job as a lecturer. Whatever he will do as long as the princess only wayangnya it can return cheerful. “Udahlah, Nay. Cakra must be good, really. Mama sure, she's definitely back. He cannot possibly leave you. He just wants to make sure, you will keep getting back excited or not? Then, you have to prove, dong, you are a strong Mama's son.”

Naya just shut up. His sobs seemed to be enough to describe what he was feeling now.

***

In the evening, Cakra returns to the Naya family villa in a doldrums. Face pale. Steps limped. “Assalamu’alaikum”

“Wa’alaikumussalam.” Bu Dian was surprised to see the state of Cakra that was so messy. “Yes your God why? Let's go in.” Ms. Dian grabbed her son's girlfriend's arm.

“Cakra, I'm sorry,” said Naya from afar. A wheelchair quickly approached her lover. “Gue does not mean to think about you, I just feel that my life is now, really, really heavy.”

Cakra crouched down in front of Naya. ”Lu still want not our conversation at that time? You said I was your source of strength. Then, why are you blushing now? Though I was always on your side.”

Naya smiled and nodded. “Gue won't shine anymore. As long as I can still see you.”

Cakra kissed Naya's forehead for a long time. A few minutes passed, they were still holding on to his position. There was not the slightest sign that the boy was going to take his lips off Naya's forehead.

“Do we want to keep kayak gini until morning?” asked Naya who was starting to be a little awkward.

Slowly the chakra releases its kiss. “Gue doesn't want this time to pass quickly, Nay. I don't want to waste the opportunity I have to be with you.”

Dahi Naya wrinkled. “Lu said as if I was still in a coma in the hospital, I'm fine, Cakra. Maybe next semester I can go to school again. Although use a wheelchair.”

Cakra stroked Naya's head full of affection. The sweet face was sad.

“Lu from where, anyway? How do you think it's so messy? Your clothes are dirty too?” tanya Naya who just realized the state of her lover like just returned from the garden.”

“Ngak. I'm okay, really. It's dirty because I was stuck in a tree. Your brother doesn't want me to hug. Frustrated, dong, me,” replied Cakra of origin with a forced laugh.

“Yaudah, you shower there. Later, Auntie prepared her clothes Om who was brought yesterday. That's Abis we're having dinner, yeah. We wait, loh, at the dining table,” pinta Bu Dian holds the shoulder of Cakra.

“Iya, Aunt. Shower chakra first, yes.” The sixteen-year-old then rushed to heed Bu Dian's request.

“Ma, Feel something strange not with Cakra?” tanya Naya frowned, after Cakra was no longer in the room.

“Whimsy how?” asked Bu Dian did not understand. “It seems nothing strange, deh. Mama look at him just plain.”

“Ndon't know, Ma. Just Naya feeling, how come, there's something strange about her, huh? Not as fun as usual. His face also I think hid something.”

“That's your feeling, Nay. His name is also you guys just had a fight. Maybe he's still a little sprained on you. Understand, dong, honey. Tomorrow too she'll be regular again.”

“Cakra isn't the kind of person you're like, Ma. Precisely if kesel, he did not hide his frustration. Is this how Naya feels, huh? Mama really don't see anything different from him?”

“Not there, Honey. You just calm down, yes,” comfort Bu Dian while immersing Naya's head into his chest.