ORANGE (The Second Wife)

pretend to be okay

jingga stepped into the house of jemi, there was seen sabia and her two nieces were playing, playing, jingga staring at the princess who was laughing loosely without a moment of orange thinking can orange make the laughter still exist when the orange will no longer be able to provide a whole family for his beloved daughter, the tightness in his chest increasingly revealed how deep the initial disappointment and father salim incised for him, his heart crumbled even orange did not know until when he could heal the wound

"ji" a clap on the orange shoulder blew his daydream

"mak maya" muttered orange staring at nanar the sister-in-law

"you're okay, right?" maya asked for an answer

orange immediately hugged the slender body of his sister-in-law, for some reason in the presence of maya, orange can no longer stem the pain everything orange spilled in a cry.

maya who already knew from jemi about the condition of the orange household now feels disappointed to tama especially to her own father-in-law. maya gently rubbed the orange head buds trying to give strength to the orange that she already thought was like her own biological sister

"you are strong ji, mbak sure it" said mbak maya make more sobbing orange

"i'm devastated mbak, I don't know what to do now it hurts so sick" lirih orange that sounds so sad

"do not make a decision when you are emotional, mbak suggest you calm down first do not be rash to take a decision that could make you regret in the end" advises mbak virtual

"i was wrong until my father was the same as me, I was disappointed why the father deliberately presented a marriage full of wounds for his own daughter" said orange made maya look at him gently

"maybe I have my own reasons for doing this ji, you better talk to me later"

"i'm not ready to see you now - right now, it's hard to accept if you're the first person to mess up my life like this"

"you don't understand your feelings, there are mbak and mas jemi who are always there for you. Never feel alone"

"thank you mbak, only mbak can replace the position of mother after mother left"

"it's an obligation mbak orange do not hesitate you are like a sibling mbak own"

orange hugged his sister-in-law again, trying to find the calm that he had always wanted to get from a mother, jingga really misses the figure of his birth mother especially in the condition of himself who when injured like now but his longing for the figure of the mother must be buried deeply because until this moment orange is still I don't know where her own mother is

"mbak" exclaimed orange staring seriously towards mbak maya

"why ji?" ask maya

"how can I be selfish this time?"

"meaning?"

"i'm tired of maintaining my household with mas tama, I want to end it all mbak"

"have you really thought about everything? have you thought about how the sabia will be in the future if you split up?"

"i've been thinking about it since long ago mbak, maybe I can forgive the mistakes of tama mas but to live together with mas tama it is difficult mbak, mbak, the betrayal that has been done is really fatal. for the problem of sabia I will give understanding slowly, sabia a child who is quite intelligent certainly he will understand although not completely"

"thank you mbak, I don't always understand me"

"do not be too late in sadness remember there is a sabia that still needs you, be strong for sabia ji"

"definitely mbak"

after talking with mbak maya made her heart a little relieved, orange grateful because mbak maya did not judge her about her decision to part with tama. mbak maya is very appreciative of the orange decision because the living it is the orange itself not himself or others.

orange decided to go home before evening, mbak maya offered orange to stay to calm his heart and mind but orange refused. orange does not shy away from the problems he is facing at this time, the orange is not shy away from the problems he is facing, although I was very disappointed with tama but currently the status of orange is still the wife of tama, orange does not want to arbitrarily take a stand especially tama also do not know if the orange already knows all the secrets that have been hidden for seven years

"honey from where? kok just came home" asked Tama who had already arrived home

"almost to the house of the brother jem" answered the orange trying to be sweet even though his heart was eager to slap the face of the tama as if without sin

"don't you know first?" ask Tama again while taking over the sabia into her sleeping carriage

"my phone is dead, sorry" replied the orange with a forced smile

"yes you have taken a shower first, after that we have dinner together. mas has been cooking specifically for the two of us" said tama making orange dumbfounded

"you cooked? not wrong?" ask orange not believe

"no, hurry up and wait in the dining room, dear" said Tama with a sweet smile

tama deliberately acts sweeter and wants to spoil the orange, tama hopes that with everything he does the orange will forgive him.

without knowing it, in the room now orange is holding the anger, disappointment and pain that is present at the same time. it is not easy for an orange to look fine in the presence of a person who has clearly given him a wound. orange crying under the shower, water shower, hitting his chest repeatedly hoping that the tightness will be slightly reduced but useless the more orange considering the face tama, orange more and more feel the pain so deep. if not for the sabia may be reluctant to go home and act as if nothing happened in the household, he said, but for once the orange will be a little more patient before the orange really ends it all.

ending a marriage like hell.

"long time in the shower, tumben" asked tama when the orange was in the dining room with his nightgown

"after soaking, my body felt very tired" replied the orange

"want to go for a pijitin?" bargaining seems to forget that between himself and orange is currently involved in a problem that is quite strange

"no need, I just want to rest tomorrow and my body will definitely be refreshed" minus orange

"but if tomorrow you still do not feel better.we just go home to check" said the attention made the orange squeak in his heart

"cihh lebay"