ORANGE (The Second Wife)

what am I wrong???

all day there is no conversation between orange and tama directly orange interact with tama only through sabia alone, when the streets also orange seemed indifferent as if ignoring the presence of tama. tama tries to start a conversation with an orange but an orange always avoids it for various reasons.

jingga was forced not to ask to go home just because of sabia, orange does not want to damage the happiness of sabia who just could return to vacation with him and also tama, he said, again the orange must succumb to the happiness of the princess just a moment orange thinking maybe this is his last vacation with the family formation is still intact

orange pondered on the balcony of the villa room, considering the breakup that might happen to make the orange chest feel very tight, lying if the orange is not loving but the wound that was given so deep though the orange does not know all the facts it feels orange is not able to know the reality that is more painful than this, his sacrifice of seven years was wasted, his desperate love for an adnan priest was now avenged with a betrayal.

"unfortunately we have to talk" said Tama who suddenly stood beside the orange

"what to talk about again? everything is quite clear neither you dodge at all but reward me with a slap.really sliced" said orange with a bitter smile

"mas can explain everything dear, mas apologise for being rude mas khilaf but please do not have a word of separation between us, everything can still be fixed we start everything from the beginning again yes" please tama with a clear look

"what needs to be fixed? I just don't know since when our marriage was ruined" replied cynical orange

"forgive me dear mas, mas salah mas have kept all this for too long mas afraid you will leave mas if you know everything, mas, but you need to know that you love you so much, especially sabia mas do not want to lose you and sabia"

"if indeed love cannot be duplicitous, or indeed you who still can not be separated from your past? it's true said the person whose name is first love is hard to forget"

"sad you misunderstand, mas already do not love as it used to be and only love you first there is sabia among us"

"so you loved her so much? so what is the reason that makes you re-establish a relationship with him when you are a husband huh?" the jolt of orange makes tama silence instantly very visible the look of disappointment from the orange eyes

"when did you get in touch with her again? my struggle for seven years was like useless mas, hard work so that I could fall in love with you and accept our marriage but what do I get? you ruined everything say I'M LESS WHAT?. don't you think only you have first love even I was willing to leave my first love in order to receive an arranged marriage with a man I didn't love at that time while you were cool to re-establish love with your first love without thinking about my feelings"

orange let out all her anger, her pride as if trampled by a betrayal committed by her husband, the orange feeling currently shattered formless even the orange itself did not know how to heal the wounds that had already been inflicted so deeply in his heart

orange body slumped and sat on the floor, all the bones seemed to feel weak powerless household is now on the verge of collapse

"what's my fault, what?" lirih orange with a voice that was so heartbreaking that tama felt so very guilty, her heart also felt pain because she saw the woman she loved crying because she hurt

tama ventured to embrace the orange, although tama betrayed the orange but tama wanted the orange to believe if the love he had for the orange was very sincere and so deep. feeling no rejection dsri orange tama further tighten his embrace and kiss the orange forehead for so long. can not be denied if the tama hug is the most comfortable hug for orange. should orange lose this hug? should orange end the marriage he desperately fought for? but to heal the wound is orange itself does not know how

"i want to be alone first, please understand" said orange releasing his embrace from tama and walking towards the room

tama just stared at the departure of tanoa orange want to force his will, tama know how destroyed the orange feeling at this time and tama do not want to make orange more depressed.

at this time you have to think about how to be able to separate with the barrel and make orange the only wife does not care about the condition of the barrel which is currently pregnant with their second child. I really don't want to lose the orange

already four days of orange, tama and sabia are on the island of bali but the orange attitude is getting colder to tama. there are various ways tama do to make orange just want to talk to him but very difficult orange at all do not consider tama presence

"mi.." call sabia soft.

"yes dear" sahut orange forced his smile

"mami fight with papi?" ask sabia

"dear baby, why are you asking like that?" orange stared at the glum-looking face of Sabia

"but why don't you want to talk to me, papi? every time you talk mami dodges, papi nyakitin mami?"

"lovely, maminlagi tired so again males ngomomg same papi you"

"mami don't lie, yesterday bia denger mami cry again"

sabia's too smart for a lying orange, though, as strong as orange cover the situation sabia continues to urge him to be honest but orange not until the heart to say orange relationship with tama is not okay but must behave like before again at first it feels so difficult. his sense of disappointment to the husband so deep even when looking at the face of the orange heart feels increasingly painful.

whether it must be in a way let alone orange must cover his pain in the presence of sabia, must to whom orange complain at this time even to tell the problem to his father and brother alone or so there is no courage for it

"maafin dear mami" the inner orange gazed at the sabia by holding back her tears

while Tama who has since peeked at the conversation between his wife and child can no longer stem his tears, a sense of regret that was felt so deep. must in a way let alone make the orange want to talk and give tama allness even if only once