ONE SUMMER NIGHT'S

I feel sick because I like it

"I always see him with Ken."

Jeane's footsteps came to a halt, turned back and looked at Oskan, before turning his gaze toward Gray who was seen breathing heavily. He knew enough about Ken and what kind of work he always did. He never even liked Ken, nor did Ruel, who was always with Ken, for fear that one time Ruel will really stumble into serious trouble if all they do gets to know by Eden.

"What do you mean?"

One Oskan's forehead lifted up.

"You don't know?"

"I know, then what's the problem?" reply Gray with one question. Jeane was still silent with uneasy feelings.

"His problem? I don't think anything, if it's related to me. It's just that, lately Ken's been doing too much dangerous work, do you still feel like it doesn't matter?"

Gray looked at Jeane who looked worried. Why did Oskan become so concerned about Ruel in front of Jeane that it made the girl even more worried, and he himself knew that Oskan had always tried to persuade Ruel to work together and help him in running his business which was even more dangerous than Ken's own job, he knew it because he had followed Ruel once, after Ruel finally asked him to stop because Ruel did not want him to get hurt.

"Why would I feel if you guys didn't care much about Ruel. What a big problem does happen in between ...."

"Close your mouth and go, Oskan. One thing you should know. We're fine and there's no problem at all" Jeane cut out trying to squash her anxiety.

"Alright, I trust you, Jean," Oskan nodded with a smile.

"Stop smiling at me."

"Come on, I'm just smiling at the person I like."

"Well," replied Jeane stepping away. Leave Gray and Oskan still there.

"You still very curious?" gray asked, looking at Oskan who was still silent.

"You can guess it?"

"Why are you so interested in Ruel?"

"I don't have to explain it to you."

"certain. You don't have to bother," Gray retorted.

"Hey!?"

Oskan slightly ran to catch up with Gray before embracing the man's shoulder and walking along.

"Why is it so cold? Like we don't know each other."

"Then what do you want me to do with you? Carrying you everywhere?"

Oskan looked up at Gray's silly-sounding answer.

"I just want us to be as close as we used to be. Me, you, Ruel and Jeane. We're always together. Is that too hard?"

"Nobody's staying away from you, Oskan. You're too busy with your activities to never be with us again."

"Yes, you're right. I've been a little busy lately."

"Can you tell me?" gray asked, stopping his steps, and turned to look at Oskan who came to a stop and stood before him with both hands inserted into the pocket of his uniform.

"What?"

"What activities have you been doing so often?"

"Just a little job."

"What-like?"

Oskan smiled.

"You look very curious."

"Yes. But, whatever you've been doing all this time, can you not involve Ruel?"

Oskan's eyebrows frowned, staring at Gray inside.

"I don't understand. What do you mean by your words."

Oskan was silent for a while, seen scratching his non-itchy eyebrows.

"So, you already know that?"

"That's not important, is it? I know it or not, I don't think it's gonna have any effect on you. You don't have to worry either, because I don't have enough time to take care of everything you do. Just don't ever involve Ruel."

"You look so protective of him. It's too favoritism, because Ruel's all you care about. I'm your friend, too, right?"

"I care about you all."

"I didn't see that."

Gray let out a long sigh, looking back at Oskan before stepping away without saying anything more. It was in a different place, precisely in a Theodoric residence.

"Sea. Please stop crying, you've been crying for three hours. You'll be really sick if you keep going like this," persuaded Anna began to worry when she saw Sea who continued to cry not stop, immerse his face on the surface of the pillow while creeping the edge of the blanket strong.

"At least say something, don't make me anxious like this" he grabbed Sea's body, and leaned the girl's body on the back of his bed after wiping a tear that was wet half his face, even his eyes were already very swollen from crying.

"Anna, I feel so sick."

"ill? You ...."

"My heart really hurts" Sea held onto his chest that was throbbing pain.

"Oh my God, Sea. What's the matter with you?" anna asked hugging Sea's body, rubbing Sea's back slowly.

"Anna, I miss her, I miss her so much. I thought it would be fine after telling her to forget me."

Anna's brows frowned, still clueless as to what Sea had said, not knowing what made her so sad that she cried for hours and who she was missing. It couldn't be Dex, because all he knew was that Sea didn't have any feelings for the man, even though he had never heard Sea mention Dex's name to him even though Sea agreed to even accept an arranged marriage between them.

"Sea, who is she? Who's the guy you missed so much that you got this way, it can't be Dex, right?"

Sea shook his head slowly with tears that kept dripping.

"Then who is he? Can you tell me?"

"He .. the boy."

"A-kids?"

"Someone who could make my heart beat so hard, someone who accidentally found me in the early summer of that night, someone I really miss right now."

"Sea, you ...?"

Sea bowed, cupped his face and cried again, while Anna could only be silent when she managed to remember something. He knew who the person Sea was referring to, someone he had always seen standing on the edge of the road right in front of his studio for the past few months. Someone in uniform who found Sea, even managed to make Sea fall in love, a man who was much younger than Sea. However, having a special feeling that made Sea think of him as someone special in his heart.

"Anna, I love her. I think .. I like it. What should I do, I feel pain for hurting him."

Anna hugged Sea's body again. Quite surprised by Sea's confession that finally to first admit if it has fallen in love with someone even though it must end with sadness and tears. Because Sea loves someone he can't possibly have, no matter how hard he tries, their relationship won't be united, considering he's getting married soon, moreover, the man that Sea loved was not someone who could enter the Theodoric family.

"Sea, what should I do for you?"

Sea's tears came back, even he himself did not know what to do now, and could only cry when he missed Ruel with guilt that continued to hurt to the bottom of his heart.

"Sea, you know what, right? You'll be married soon. Dex would be so sad to see you like this. So does Brother Vincent, especially Uncle Hellton."

"I know, but .. do I have to do it again?" tanya Sea, looked at Anna with both eyes glazed over. "Smiling in front of them, as if I didn't feel anything? While my heart ... my heart ...."

Sea again sobbed and again buried the face in his palm.

"My heart really hurts, Anna."

"I know, I know," replied Anna, shedding tears. "You should be honest, at least to Brother Vincent, if you have someone you love."

"No way, Anna."

"Why not?"

"Sir Vincent hates him a lot."

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