Not the Dream Son-in-law

POV sari

***sari

I don't know when I have to go through all this, everything I do seems to be in vain .

do I not deserve to be happy ??

why did I marry him ?

and why did her mother accept and approve of our relationship when she knew I was from a poor family !

or is it all just a guise so that I can they do whatever they want including hurting me ?

every day I work hard to earn my own income so as not to bother my husband too much, so that my husband also does not think too heavy economic problems .

but what do I get ? I'm just like a stranger to his family never thought I existed.they contacted me just wanted to .

what should I do ?

I have to split up !

no it is impossible, O God, if this is a test of yours make it easy for all my business, facing people like them is not easy .

I can be crazy .

I don't know what I'm going to do now that I lost my son, I feel like I have no hope anymore .

moreover, my husband who could dare to wish me, I was not able to .

do I have to pretend I don't know, Stupid time is so ?

ah it doesn't seem to be able to, it's hurting my heart and my mentality so much .

I was allowed to go home today.

my husband has gone nowhere since he came to see me he never came again .

I try to think positive might be at work and can't be left out .

I was surprised there was a bouquet of red roses .

I'm glad I didn't see the article, just this time I got the flower .

I took it and saw I thought it was from Mas Agus, but there was no sender's name but just a letter .

". the to sari

welcome back beautiful ,

I'm happy you're finally healed.

remember I'm always behind you, keep the spirit yes beautiful

"

that's the contents of a piece of paper I think it is from Agus but it does not seem to be from whom .

never mind later I want to rest it feels like my body is not fit right .

now I was alone in the boarding house this morning deserted there is no Fahmi who is usually always there now he works . 3 he does not work , Fahmi always comes to look even waiting for me .

I'm so glad that someone still cares about me even if it's not my own husband.

I was silent I looked up at the sky of my room , I closed my eyes for a moment.as bright as my husband's shadow with Mia appeared .

I had to close my eyes, tears slowly came out of my eyelids .

long time ago wet my cheeks .

my chest is a crowded porch my mind is screwed up again .

I don't know what to do if it keeps hurting myself.

I kept sobbing until the end I went to dreamland .

I dreamt that my husband was making love to his mistress , there was me but why can't I do what I just silently looked at with an emotional gaze I wanted to kill two of them at that moment but my body seemed heavy to step closer to them .

it was cold heat all over my body .

I want to destroy his face .

oh god come help me, why would they do something like this with me .

they enjoyed scene after scene that made my chest even more sore and tight .it felt already unbearable .

I want to go but I can't go .

instantly my body felt shaken shake someone build ku .

I was shocked and woke up, sitting position I looked at that person with a look I could not understand .

I forgot whose memory he was ?

" you why, do not cry I am here . You must be able to fight it all we must be strong do not be weak. if you want to continue like this they will be more happy because they managed to bully you "

that's what he said***.