NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE

Still Can

"Where should papi leave the company to Abang and also not papi retired too?" If his son goes abroad then Arga can replace his son for a while instead of asking Raka to handle.

"Mommy you have to control and it just so happens that her schedule clashes," looks sad face on the face of Arga especially considering the condition of his wife who recently decreased and need extra attention and also intensive treatment to recover from the disease, therefore, he cannot handle the company as long as his son is abroad.

Indeed, since the first middle-aged men who are still handsome at a young age are indeed helping each other if there is difficulty or need help like now.

"May you recover Pi quickly," Raka also knows how the woman called mami has been sick in recent years and must be routinely controlled.

What else he has a little grandson so his soul wants to heal so big and wants to play with his grandson and see the growth and development of the grandson.

"Yes thanks bang," Arga was relieved because there would handle the company as long as he and Abi were not in Indonesia.

They did help each other a long time ago and are now declining to the nature of their child helping relatives who need help.

What else is the disease in Nafisa Arga's wife needs special attention and also enough opa who left them all and they are not ready to have to lose family members again.

"If papa is what? Papa no longer fasts talk, right," Raka's attention was shifted to Abra, because since he came he was a lot of silence.

Though in the past the unclenya was strange if silence actually often menjahili Raka when he was a child.

"Papa just wanted to ask for help to attend the meeting with the change from America where his son as a representative," hah can already guess Raka from the beginning if their arrival indeed has its own intentions and will certainly only add to Raka's work.

But to refuse also can't, he's Raka's parents.

And they can make the most of the situation and know Raka will not refuse.

"Why do you want to be the bait brother of the flirtatious women? Papa knows that you already have an angel," who is really told to meet a flirtatious woman who will tempt his client, not to mention the clothes used to make zina eyes and add to the list of sins.

Degs...

Dean's heart skipped a beat when he heard Raka say he already had an angel while the one considered an angel can only hurt his feelings.

Dean couldn't let the relationship of his son and daughter-in-law continue to drag on like this.

"This time it's bang," Abra put on a face and made Raka unable to resist.

Why are these old men so smart to use Raka who does not enjoy her people.

"Tomorrow if you find a daughter-in-law, don't be too possessive pa, make it difficult," Raka knows why Abra intervened like this.

Certainly the answer is her daughter-in-law who does not want her husband to interact with the opposite sex what else is a type of caterpillar.

But, Why was Raka the victim?.

"How else is the name also love, let alone the possessive who has hurt still want to survive" whether Abra is aware or not? That indirectly has offended Raka who still survives despite being hurt repeatedly.

"Now Daddy wants to come to the office? Want to lead the company again? if yes brother is very happy to be able to continue college again," Raka was happy if it was the case but it felt impossible because Arka had intended to retire early.

"Dream is night bang, not day," arka will return to lead the company if relaxed and enjoy time with his wife is much happier than working with the same pile of files that never end.

"Udah brother guessed," could not be expected again if asked Arka back to the company because the man would never want to unless the condition is very basic.

Because he has enjoyed his time together more with his wife so do not want to bother thinking about work problems.

"What's going on with Daddy at the office? Can't possibly be forced?" Raka was like a judge just questioning them one by one but all the answers were nothing that made Raka feel happy.

"Farah next week operation," although Farah never told about his illness but as a parent will never escape monitoring the movements and activities of his child without their knowledge.

But Dean never showed any hesitation if he found out about Farah.

"But there was work at that time, pa, so can't come sorry pa," Raka showed a regretful face because they could not be there when Farah underwent surgery, especially the girl also did not tell or just send a message when they both had their respective mobile numbers.

"No, just pray everything goes well," Dean also can not force his son-in-law this much less he knows how his son's attitude has been to Raka so he does not want to be selfish to ask Raka to be in this country and accompany Farah during the operation.

"Thank you for your understanding" they talked there long enough even had a lunch together ordered by Raka to her secretary.

Many things they discussed until the company problems entrusted to Raka as long as the leader is not in place and also Raka must think about mental readiness and divide the time because it is not easy to monitor three companies at once.

After nothing else to discuss the four of them say goodbye and leave Raka to continue her work.

At Dean's house at night...

"Aren't you all right?" At dinner with Dean saw the condition of his son who was not okay and also a severe face slightly pale than usual.

"No matter what pa, just a rest," Farah could not tell about the condition of his body that was declining and also about the disease he was experiencing.

"Alright after eating the brother immediately rest," but he was very hopeful if Farah would share his grievances with both parents, he said, but the girl preferred to hold her own and it made Dean feel disappointed at her son's attitude.

As a parent he felt unregarded and unneeded when in certain circumstances.

Though as a parent he wants to be a one-on-one place for his son to pour out everything he feels is not a secret.

The next day, Farah had woken up once in the morning even before dawn the girl had already come out of her room and walked towards the kitchen.

When passing through the family room, Farah faintly heard the voice of her parents when it was still very early in the morning but both parents were awake.

"Why can you hide the same disease we pa?"

Degs...

Farah's footsteps stopped hearing the words of her mother and she stood behind the wall to make sure that what she heard was not wrong.

"Maybe you just don't want us to worry, mam," Dean calmed his crying wife in his arms and did not forget to wipe her trembling back because she could not stop the sound of crying even though it was not heard by those standing behind the wall eavesdropping his parents even though he was unintentional.

"Then she hid this fact and we found out if she didn't think that we were so worried about her condition let alone this child herself," where maybe as a mother and a woman who has given birth to her to the world would feel sick that their little daughter has a disease but instead hold her own without sharing.

"Is this mama a bad mama until the child himself prefers to soak in what he feels instead of sharing?"

Degs...

**Mama is the best mom in the world**

Farah sat behind the wall, smothering her mouth so that the sound of her crying was not heard by her parents.

He means to hide this disease so as not to make his parents anxious but it turns out his actions are wrong precisely in this way he has made both parents disappointed because they bear their own disease and do not want to share even though the family this is the first place where we share.

"Mommy may not be considered people know again pa,"

Degs...

Degs...

Degs....

It feels that the oxygen troops in Farah's chest are getting thinner let alone hear if Farah considers not having Mama anymore even though for a month more they always meet and interact but never once Farah brought up about the disease which he suffered.

"Mama should not talk like that because if we are in the position of brother will certainly do the same because it does not want to make our parents anxious about our condition," although Dean did not justify what his son did but he also could not blame Farah actually because he wanted to keep his parents' feelings from worrying about his condition even in the wrong way.

Indeed, as a parent, they expect their children to share their suffering and happiness so that they feel considered as parents, not as Farah does, which prefers itself to save the suffering she feels not to mention the household ark which has not been clear until now whether it can still be continued or ended at the court table.

Moreover, Raka who has not given an answer about the continuation of their marriage relationship but Farah really hopes that their marriage can still be repaired and Raka wants to start all over again with a new story and full color.

After quite a long time hearing the chat her parents Farah got up from her seat and chose to go back to the room because it was impossible if she was caught eavesdropping.

"I let everyone down" Farah sat by her bed and thought about her attitude to her parents and husband.

The guilt was equally secretive of his illness from both parents and treated Raka not well at the beginning of their marriage and ended with regret now.

"But what should I do now?" Farah is very big on what she has to do now especially the schedule of her surgery is the day after tomorrow which can not be delayed anymore considering the kidney donor who asked to be forwarded his schedule because only that day he had spare time.

"Later after the operation I will solve all the problems I have done and also meet with my brother to ask for the certainty of our relationship," although Farah heard that Raka was going to have her wedding with another woman, she still wanted to be sure about where their marriage would be taken.

Moreover, she had seen a woman who was considered as her husband's future wife who was very beautiful with a dress and a graceful appearance.

Farah saw that the appearance of the woman was very suitable with Raka but deep down she was not willing that her husband should end up with another woman, her heart hurt to find that fact.

Morning time....

"For pa ma'am," Farah pretended not to know that she had heard her parents talk earlier this morning.

But he could see the mama's sad face and looked at her with a disappointed look.

**I'm sorry my ma**

They started breakfast quietly in the morning and after the completion of her sister Sarah asked to be delivered to campus because the car used was being serviced in the workshop.

Farah would be happy to take her sister away to campus at least she can avoid a while from her parents.

If she was at home for too long then her guilt and sin entered her heart even more.

"Sister how's the same brother?" Farah was silent at her place hearing the question from her sister and lucky they are currently stopped at a red light so it does not harm them or other drivers like having an accident because of the shock of hearing the question from her sister.

"What do you mean by that?" Of course Farah did not understand the question from her sister let alone she had heard if Raka still loved Sarah.

That's what he heard from Raka's speech at that time and concluded that Raka still loves her sister.

"I know brother if brother is at home because there is a problem with Raka bang," Sarah is not a child anymore who can be lied to let alone the girl who is still in college already has a lover who until now has not been introduced to her family.

"You don't want to know the deck" there's no way Farah's telling the truth about what she's going through right now.

Parents who are disappointed in her and her tenuous relationship with her husband let alone find the fact that Raka still loves her sister and also knows her husband already has another wife.

Why is it so complex now that Farah feels?.

"Sister must feel that brother still loves me right? Big brother is wrong because you already have your own beloved woman but that person is not me," although Sarah's age is still relatively small but his observation about the man who had loved her before is not wrong that Raka already has his own woman who is loved even though Sarah does not know who is the person.

"And that's the truth and if it's not you who she loves now means that woman," Farah was already convinced that the woman was loved by Raka now and it seemed that she did not have the chance to be together anymore and mend their marriage relationship.

"I don't know if you assume yourself and make decisions and conclusions without asking the person concerned will only make us disappointed and feel hurt for no reason," Sarah red her brother had misunderstood all of this but Sarah did not want to help in this because it was not her realm.

"You little kids know what it's better to focus on college and then enjoy youth without having to think about romance let alone having to fix a complicated relationship," Farah just does not know if her sister already has a very sweet lover to Sarah.

"I just hope that if you don't conclude something without looking for evidence at all because it will only cause misunderstandings and regrets. And I hope and I'm pretty sure that you'll never be apart despite the many trials that come with including a third person in your relationship," the car Farah was driving stopped in front of the campus and Sarah said goodbye to her brother and got out of the car.

Farah left her sister's campus area by driving slowly while thinking about her sister's last words and she guaranteed in her heart and very much hoped that her relationship with Raka would never end instead she hoped the better and they are together again.

If Farah is given the opportunity to be together again with her husband then she promises to treat her husband well and serve him wholeheartedly.

Because of the events and events that he has been through make this line understand that there is no need to link the future with the past that will only damage the future if the past we bring together.

"Hopefully we are still given a chance to be together" Farah prayed in her heart and wished she could still be by Raka's side.

"That's it!" Farah saw Raka's car and also the man who was sitting in the steering chair of his car which happened to be next to him at the red light let alone open the car glass.

So it did not make it difficult for Farah to find her husband with a woman.

The light turned green in curiosity as Farah followed until the car entered the airport area.

"Why did they go to the airport? Do they want to go honeymoon?" Farah's mind raged and the locust went nowhere and she thought of something making her chest tight.

Farah still followed the steps of the two of them in a safe distance and it can be severe that the woman held onto Raka's arm without getting any rejection from the man at all.