Niati With Bismillah
Mas Yudi's
# The POV #
This month the expenditure is so great, the number of neighbors and friends who have gifts, not to mention sick children, plus have to pay vehicle taxes. My payday money can't cover every need. Until Ayu went to borrow from the neighbors, but not given even a talk that I myself felt hurt to hear the story from Ayu.
Until finally Ayu borrowed money from Ms. Sulis. Borrowing with interest and having to pay weekly.
Actually I disagree, because I feel heavy having to pay installments every week. Until Ayu gives an idea he will sell with capital money resulting from borrowing the same Mrs Sulis.
This heavy heart agreed, but the economic need was so urgent, nothing could help. This road is the only one. If Ayu does not work, I also do not know how to pay installments every week. With a heavy heart I also agreed to Ayu's plan. Let him work as long as the children are not neglected. His work is not bound by time.
In the afternoon when I came home from work, it turned out that Ayu really immediately realized his intention of selling cooked side dishes. He plans to sell around the village to sell his cuisine. I pray that my wife's efforts be spared and waged.
Before going to bed, Ayu set an alarm at 3. In the morning he had to wake up, I protested, but Ayu gave me reasons that made me unable to argue anymore. Honestly I'm afraid Ayu is exhausted and sick. Because he was also at home busy taking care of my two children and also cleaning the house. I can only pray that he will be healthy and well.
I promised to ban him from selling again after the debt at Mrs Sulis paid off. But the plan is only wishful thinking. I even had an accident when the installment to Bu Sulis stayed twice.
When I was hospitalized, I felt I was useless, I troubled Ayu. He had to go back and forth from home to the hospital, not to mention he had to cook and sell, I felt guilty for making it difficult for him. I just resigned and prayed that Ayu would always be in His protection. Especially when the doctor says that I have to rest completely and can not work for the next three months. I'm syook, what's the point of me as a husband? already unable to make the wife's children happy, now even make my wife hard to earn a living to meet all needs. Why should I be a burden to my wife, O God? when can I make her happy? when can I give my family a beautiful life? why does everything have to happen to me? i'm rattled. As a man I feel useless, I am just a burden to my wife. I failed, I couldn't keep my promise to make her happy, I failed.
When I was down on the incident that happened to me, Ayu was unceasingly supportive of me until I started to think positively, I need to be able to heal and have to think about how I can remain a good father and husband in my current condition.
I can now sincerely and patiently accept my situation now. I can't blame fate, I just have to get up and start all over.
Today I have come home from the hospital, a lot of neighbors who choose to come to visit me, do not forget they slipped the fortune for me. Thank God I am grateful for the help of all of them. Ayu used the money to fix my motorcycle which was damaged by the accident that hit me the other day. And the rest Ayu kept it, he said to my byayaku during later control.
Early in the morning, Ayu was busy with our first child Lani, she took care of it very painstakingly, then drove her to school, after the affair with Lani was over, she took care of it very painstakingly, now Ayu is back in the kitchen and starts cooking for sale. I offered to help her again, but again Ayu did not want me to help her. Not wanting to argue and instead make his time wasted, I more relented and chose to be silent to see Ayu who looks so busy in the kitchen.
Not yet cooked all Ayu cuisine, it turns out my youngest son woke up. I intend to take care of it, and either because it feels too troublesome, Ayu now let me take care of Ardan my youngest child. I made milk, bathed it, and breakfast.
When I was done, it turned out that Ayu was also done with her activities. Ayu said goodbye want to pick up Lani at school, I allowed and asked her to use the motor only, Ayu did not refuse.
Lani has gone home from school, and Ardan has also played cheerfully with many of his toys spread out in front of the television room. Now it's time for Ayu to go around selling. I saw Ayu back and forth from the front to the kitchen carrying dishes and arranging them in a basket.
Because I'm at home, the kids are with me, it doesn't feel good to always bother the Harni bulek.
After Ayu left for the sale I walked to the kitchen to get a drink, I saw a scene that was really concerning. A lot of dirty laundry that accumulates in the dishwasher tub, maybe Ayu has not had time to clean up because of chasing time.
I went back to the television room where my two children were playing, I asked Lani to look after Ardan's sister, because I wanted to wash the furniture that Ayu had used.
Thank God all is done, the clothes have dried, all the utensils are clean and back to the place again, the house has also been I sweep and mop. I feel proud, although a little I can still be useful, I can lighten a little burden on Ayu's shoulders.
When Ayu came home from selling, Ayu went into the kitchen and saw that everything was in order. Again Ayu nagged, not because of disappointment, but because of worrying about my condition. I just responded with a smile.
Every day I do all the homework when Ayu sells, Ayu can not protest, and can only give up.
Today my schedule controls, I feel better, but the doctor still recommends for me to control two more weeks, my God, why is it still being told to come back again, even though I have been advised not to work. It seems like three months for me not to work will indeed happen. What is the fate of my family? I can't bear to let Ayu slam bones looking for fortune for me and the children. Until I started thinking about a business that I could do at home and could make money. I plan to talk to Ayu about it tonight. Bismillah, I hope everything will be okay again. Aami..
