Niati With Bismillah

Alleviated

A week already mas Yudi hospitalized, and during that time I went back and forth from the hospital, the children were always taken care of by Harni. Although there is a drama that he said Ardan is fussy and cry continues if the night until the Harni boulevard must stay calm.

Mas Yudi used to stay in the hospital alone, because I came home from the hospital at dawn, and started cooking for sales. In any case I need money for daily needs and also pay the debt that is still paid twice. After the sale, I spent time with my kids. It was only after the children took a nap that I went to the hospital.

Luckily, Yudi's condition immediately recovered after surgery, there were no significant complaints. I wasn't too worried about leaving my husband alone in the hospital.

Even if there is no one to look after, but Yudi will not be lonely, because Yudi mas is in class III, economy class with one room containing six patients. So if you need help, you can ask for help from people who care for patients nearby, I thought.

Today mas Yudi can already go home, but if the medicine runs out must come back again for control.

It feels so good. Mak Plong feels like Yudi mas can rest at home. I don't have to go back and forth from home to the hospital anymore, not to mention when I was in the hospital my mind was running around thinking about my kids at home.

With Bismillah I started every day. And regardless of what happened a week ago, today will be the beginning of my story that may be exhausting. Just imagine that I felt that my days would be heavy. How not, my husband should have a total bed rest for the next three months. Automatically making a living is now my responsibility.

Sometimes tucked a sense of regret when seeing my peers who are still single. It occurred to me that if I had not married young, maybe my life could be better than now.

But soon I patted that taste. I realized, it is not appropriate for me to think so, I said Istighfar many times.

When he arrived home, many neighbors came to see my husband, thank God from every neighbor who came, they slipped the windfall for us. Indeed, it has become a habit of residents here, any distress will surely help in droves to relieve.

Thankful that I live in an environment where the majority of people care about each other.

Because of the number of neighbors who came to change, today I decided not to sell. Fear is thought not to appreciate guests if the act of selling, especially the husband is still returning from the hospital. Surely if I sell there will be live radio. Life in the community is good to getong royong help each other, it is not good if what we do according to others does not deserve it will immediately become a trending topic, if the word now mah viral.

I had two days off from selling after Yudi came home from the hospital, and today I went back to selling. Because Yudi mas is at home, so I don't need to leave the kids on the Harni.

Thank God my trades are always sold. When I got home I intended to clean the house and wash all the utensils that I had used for cooking, but it turned out that all had been done by mas Yudi. Guilt covers me, it is not good to let the sick person have to do homework especially coupled with the laundry that is mountainous and must take care of the child as well. When I rebuk mas Yudi just said that it is appropriate to help you Yuk, while mas can and can afford, why not? it is not a job that requires a lot of energy. It was also mas worknya while ngaso-ngasoan, if the feeling of dizziness or tired ya immediately break new jerk continued again.

I'm touched by it, I don't know what Yudi mas think? does he feel guilty for not being able to make a living? but this is not his fault, it is the destiny of the Creator. I can only advise that tomorrow mas Yudi does not need to wash the utensils that I use to cook, just sweep the house just as keep the children.

Today's schedule control mas Yudi, I leave my son to the Harni tribe again for the umpteenth time. Because our closest relatives are only Harni Caucasians, while I am an only child and my parents are also dead. My father died when I was in Elementary School and my mother died two months after the birth of my first Lina anyak. And I don't know if I still have relatives from both my father and mother. Because they never invited me to visit anyone's house, not even my grandparents. There was actually curiosity, just reluctance to ask. Because I asked once and I went straight to my room without going out again. Since then I have not wanted to know more about my brother, relatives or even grandparents. Let me be alone with my mother as long as I can be happy.

I and mas Yudi went to the hospital on a motorcycle that has been repaired, at first I refused, but after being persuaded by mas Yudi and can also save the cost, yes well I agree, but after being persuaded by mas Yudi, on the condition of slowing down, there is no need to rush.

Previously we drove Lina first to school, and asked for help with Ms. Rosita if later to pick up her son so that all of you piggyback Lina and deliver her to the house of the Harni boulevard, thank God Bu Rosita is willing. I don't have to worry about how my son will come home.

After waiting in line for quite a while, it was finally my turn to enter the check room, I did not want to miss, I entered the room, seeing the doctor examine my husband and give some questions about any complaints experienced and many more questions that my husband must answer. It's like an interview, a big question.

Although of the many series of questions and answered with only minor complaints, Yudi still had to control two more weeks.

Huh every two weeks must be controlled, hopefully not continue until the third month next. Because honestly I've been wondering how to make money. Because the installment debt to Bu Sulis is still paid once again.

Thank God Miss Sulis last Sunday was quite understanding because I knew my husband had an accident, so he was given two weeks off, and this week I have paid. stay the following week.

But I was confused about what to pay, because the results I sold were just enough to eat everyday and make a child snack. Should I get a loan again? to who? hadeehh mumet my head if I have to think about how to get money.