Nayra's Defense

POV . Dinda ordeal.

" if you are really in love with an Om child you should want to do this" says Om jaya.

The incident continues to be plastered real in my mind as if not want to disappear in the slightest.Stupidly I can - usually fooled by sweet talk from the mouth om jaya. Sorry I am so sorry for what I did that day. If only I had refused, if only I had not come, if only I did not believe the promise and if ...

" Aaaaaahhh,, bod*h thou Dinda,why can ye be deceived why ..why haahh...!"

Pyaaaarr...

my dressing glass broke when I threw it with the item there .

" Dinda open the door, will you be okay, right?" said the mother from outside in a panicked tone .

Only crying in this room itself spills all the heartache and disappointment. Even though mother has made peace with my situation and from the beginning also mother is very understanding and understanding for what is going on with me , mother also does not blame me . It's just that I feel like a failed child an ungodly child because it has made the sick and disappointed mother .

I'm ashamed to leave the house, I'm ashamed to meet my neighbor with my current condition, however, my pregnancy will be even bigger I'm afraid that mother will blame everyone , I'm afraid mom will be insulted and scorned by the crowd because it's not good to take care of children, can't educate children I don't want it to happen .

Tok..tok.tok.tok the sound of knocking on the door from the outside getting louder.Mother is constantly calling me.

" Dinda mom please open son, do not make panic like this mother please son. I promise you mother will always love you mother will also receive the child in your womb is ,I promise I'll take care of her like I'm taking care of you, please baby Dinda open the door ? I don't have anyone - who else wants mom to have just you I beg you to open the door let mom in we can solve this problem just like a cool head "

mother's voice until it sounded raucous .

" go mommy, Dinda wants to be alone first "

" Dinda, I know how you feel, please open the door, and we can talk about this together "

" Dinda's mom isn't okay Dinda please mom go first huh ?" I said from inside the room.

" Well mom go, but mom please come out later ya from the room masakin mom eat for you huh ?"

I sat on my knees ,considering the happy times I used to live with a family that is capable and complete.Where I and my parents always together the streets on weekends chatting every afternoon in front of the television accompanied by cake dry made mom.

" Well, we're gonna walk this way again, right?" ask me with enthusiasm when in the car next to the father who is focusing on driving.

" Yes later if there is time "

" Yeaayy.thank you father"

Finally arrived at the tourist spot to play as much as enjoy the rides that have been served there until the time of eating the three of us were fun to enjoy the food .

" Dinda how happy is this, already satisfied not to play ?"

" It's well, really exciting games here are also a lot .Thanks dad " said at the time.

" Yes equally I'm very happy to see you two happy this way for you Dinda out this is not necessary to take the road - the road again yes enough just this first if you already have money again we're streets again "

"yes father." said father at the time.

But that happiness must be lost since the father left due to a heart attack at that time according to the residents of the father found by one of the residents who passed by papa lying on the edge of a quiet street . After getting help papa's body was taken to the hospital .I remember when the doctor told my mother that my father died of a heart attack 12 years old .My life immediately changed when I was also happy with the affection of a complete family and sufficiency even often the streets on weekends starting when it also changed. All are replaced by working and working to meet all the needs of the economy. Mom works odd jobs and I sell market snacks to help meet the economic needs of home and school

" My dad wants to come with me"

It hurt so bad that the glass fragment I said was on my wrist .My body shakes violently my eyes darken and get darker.

" Dad we'll meet soon enough, dad Dinda misses you so much .Dinda can't wait to see Dinda's dad want to tell a lot with dad .Mother calm down soon Dinda will no longer make mother's shame or bother mother again" said I while enduring tremendous pain.

It was getting sicker but I was still somewhat aware I could still see the blood rushing out of my hand . The vision was getting darker and lost.