My World is Bad

The epsd 13

I hate it when I realize that after what you did to me I still love you.

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At 23:15

Fatih and della arrive at della's apartment. After hunting and picnicking they decided to stop by Bella's house again. Until finally they have to go home this late because of the fun of playing.

Fatih escorted della to the door of della's apartment and said goodbye to della. Della just smiled and said carefully, then went inside her apartment.

Just one step towards the middle room della felt hot on her cheeks. Della could only flinch in her place. His parents and his two siblings were looking at him with a hard-to-understand look.

"You're outrageous della." read papah della with a jerking intonation della.

Plaques

This time the slap was rewarded by his mother. After his father is now his mother? Della was in tremendous pain.

"woman macem what are you? You do not thank me for giving freedom but you are abusing it? Now come with us home!" jolt mom della whose decision is already unanimous.

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Pyars

Throw some photos right landed on the face of the beautiful della. Della looks down and tries to see what photo Dilla, her twin sister, has just thrown.

"Lo crazy huh? Do you know that I like fatih? But lo? ******* lo." dilla's scream echoed in the family room. Della just lowered her head and closed her eyes trying as quietly as possible so as not to be provoked by emotions.

"Yes, I'm having a relationship with him. And please, Dilla, I knew Fatih before you knew him. Don't take him either. Enough mother, father and sister who you take do not fatih also" tone of voice della sounding soft in their ears.

Plaques

Again a slap was again given by his mother. Della regulated her breathing and tried to hold back the pace of her tears that were ready to slide.

"Don't mistake dilla for her feelings, don't care who knows first because anyway I will make sure that dilla who will mate with fatih" after saying this, Dilla and barrel went to her room.

"Della, I'm really disappointed in you, not just because of your relationship with Fatih but your behavior as well. So your frustration is that I give you money until it is ******? Tell me how many mistresses like to play with you? How many men do you squeeze just for fun and money?" this time, the words that her father had thrown out really hurt her heart. Della couldn't believe her father was putting out such extremely painful words.

"FATHER!"

"DELLA!"

plaques

Again, again and again the slap they kept giving. Even the slap this time made the corner of della's lips slightly torn to bleed. This is what della hates, she can still love them after what they did to her.

"Keren lo del, how dare to snapped papah? You think who's the dog? I'm not diem means I can't act, but just look at your outrageous attitude just made me sick." kevin forward this time. After confirming the papah, mother and della's twin enter his room, Kevin takes over the della.

"Lo tuh should be grateful del, you live freely, gk restrained parents. Gk every motion lo watched, and gk made my kayak doll same dilla. Do you think we are tormented? Sama del, I also want kayak lo. And you know? Because of your mistakes that made me hate the same dilla lo. If you're selfish maybe we can still get together with him del. You should've died del."

della's vision is blank, her memory is thrown back into a time where she laughs happily with her family and moves on to a time when all her destruction began. This was indeed his fault and della very much admitted it. If only Kevin knew how hard it was to live without a family. And Kevin wants that? Justjust wonderful. Della wants to be restrained, worried, but her brother? Who had clearly gotten all of it even felt it was a burden? Miraculous.

Kevin has left della after taking her to the room she has been living in for several years. Della circulates her views, tracing every place that ever prints memories between her and her family back then. Della dropped her body on the mattress with a prone position. He closed his eyes and cried there, thinking of the sharp words of his family after the quarrel.

Della is heartbroken. It is quoted******* by his own father. He was given harsh words by his family. Do they deserve to be called family? I don't know if Della's doubtful enough about it.

Suddenly della's head throbbed, her breathing was irregular and her heartbeat felt unstable. It was quite torturous della, della got up and looked for her phone in her bag.

He tried to type the message before his consciousness was snatched away by the darkness.

To : bang rifki

Bang iki, please della. Della kumat again, please della bang, della scared bang. Della at papah bang. If you come here please don't be suspicious, please - della.

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At 01:15 in the morning.

Della wakes up from her stupor. His eyes blinked slowly trying to adjust the light that entered his eyes.he felt his hands clasped. Della raised both corners of her lips and her free hand gently stroked her sister's cousin's hair. Rifki, or the usual della call bang iki. A cousin who just came home from his home to become a doctor.

Rifki who felt his sleep disturbed was awakened slowly. He smiled when he saw Della who had woken up from her fainting. He had panicked because he received a message from della, so he quickly went to the della house to monitor the condition of della. Arriving in the della room he found della who had fainted with irregular breathing, fever and groping.

"Where is he?" ask rifki to della.

"Udah gapapa kok bang, thanks for coming" replied della with a smile.

"Good, ***** I panicked earlier. Lp suddenly sms it keeps fitting I nyampe here already fainted aja" rifki grumbled that avenged ama della's grin.

"Sorry yes ngerepotin, btw bang more saucy ae anyway, really miss me. Hugging dong" della stretches her hands code ask to be hugged. Rifki immediately pulled della in her arms and inhaled the scent of della's head that she had not breathed in for a long time.

"What did you say? Ngerepotin? Don't ever think about it okay? Because you know, right? My goal is to be a doctor that makes you so that you can always heal you if you are sick del. Lo it's my favorite little adek" della who heard the phrase rifki also tightened his embrace on the rifle. Warm and comfortable. It felt almost the same as he hugged Fatih.

'And my sister's like a lo bang' -in della.

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00:17

The universe is unfair.

The universe is not on my side. The universe never understood what I wanted.

The universe is never fair.

I just want him with me. But the universe unites him with others.

- unknown

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Della was in the car this morning with her cousin, Rifki. Last night, Rifki decided to go home and come back when it was morning.

Della says goodbye and gets off the rifle. Right in front of the corridor of her class della saw Fatih standing with her arms crossed and looking at the intense della. Fatih looked down and played her phone. Not long della felt the incoming notification from her cellphone.

Train: the rooftop del.

From fatih. Della believes Fatih was misunderstood because of the incident this morning. Della nodded slowly as fatih looked at her. Slowly della stepped towards the rooftop first. It was only after feeling safe that fatih followed della's footsteps towards the rooftop.

In the rooftop fatih saw della who was standing staring down with her blank look. He slowly approached della and hugged her from behind. Della gasped in shock and intended to turn her body to face fatih, but nimbly resisted della's body so as not to turn over.

After feeling enough, della tried to return her body to face fatih, there was no rebuttal from the fatih this time. The two of them looked at trying to dive into the eyeballs that were emitting different auras from each other.

"Del, we need to talk" exclaimed fatih still did not turn away from della's gaze.

"About?"

"About us and your twin." della closed her eyes again and tried to get rid of the thoughts that perched on her head. Della thinks Fatih will talk about her leaving with a rifle this morning.

"Okay, let's talk."

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One by one the clear crystals fell from della's face. He stared at the invitation in his hand. An invitation containing the name of his lover with... Dilla's.

Currently della is still silent on the rooftop, in contrast to the fatih that has dropped a few hours ago. Della also knew this time was the time to go home. Yes, della missed all the lessons today. Della was quite devastated by the words spoken by Fatih earlier.

"Della, yesterday your family came back to me to continue the engagement"

"Della I'm sorry I can't prevent this, they're too imposing."

"Del, honestly I also don't want to like this, but sorry del, we're quite up here huh"

"Della please say something, don't put it on"

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"OK maybe you need some time, but again sorry della, I..."

"Go"

Fatih's words continue to ring in della. Della could only sit tight after fatih left her. He did not not want to lash out the words fatih but his lips were too difficult to use when he heard that fatih would soon be engaged to dilla.

Della closed her eyes as rain began to slowly fall on her face, soaking in the rain that melted with her tears. Enjoying the pain of his gaping wound. Everything seemed empty to della.

Go again, go again.

Della felt her cell phone ring, she opened her eyes and took her phone which was in her skirt pocket. Do not mind the rain that continues to flutter della still remain under the rain water at this time. Della shifts the green sign to the right of the sign that she is receiving a call from an unknown number.

"Yes hello, who is it?"

"Del, dilla was in an accident." della was shocked instantly, she let out a rough sigh. Della knows who called her, she is Kevin, her brother. I don't know where Kevin got his number but della doesn't care.

"Yes on?" saut della in a cold voice, tried to disguise the tone of her worries. There was a sound of breathing there, della knows, surely the condition of dilla is not okay at this time, maybe they called because there is something that must be sacrificed again.

"Where's lo?" instead of answering della's question, Kevin switched their conversation.

"School rooftop, why?"

"Gua over there, you get down, spit."

Beeping. The channel was cut off, della actually did not want to comply with Kevin's words, but when imagining a face full of emotions belonging to Kevin della so shudder in horror himself and went down.

Della was still faithful to let the rain water wash over her body. He also went straight to the gate because the bag he had brought since morning was still in his carry, he did not care if the book in his bag was wet, besides there was no important note in it.

About 15 minutes waiting, a white car stopped right in front of della. Della still has no intention of approaching even though she knows that it is Kevin's car. Kevin came down with an umbrella protecting his body. He was amazed to see della in her wet uniform.

"So, what's up?" della started to make a sound when she saw Kevin who was still silent without raising his voice.

"Can you come with me?"

"Can I believe it?"

"Sure"

Della finally followed Kevin to his car, in the car della was silent like a statue. Della just felt the extreme cold when the cold rain combined with the cold ac from Kevin's car. Kevin who can't hide his worries also takes the jacket that's draped behind and gives it to della. Della just accepts and wears it without a word of thanks.

Seeing della who still looks cold kevin increasingly grimaced on the spot, he pulled over his car and turned off the ac, he also went down to the back to pick up the clothes he used to carry if there was basketball practice. Kevin got back in the car with a flat face he thrust the clothes in his hand towards the della.

"Change your clothes, I saw it. Gasudi actually saw you wear my clothes, but for the sake of mutual interest anyway, tuh use" della also would not want to accept kevin's clothes even though his heart ached hearing the words that came out of kevin's mouth.

"Get out" said della, kevin who understood was immediately out using an umbrella, waiting for della who was changing clothes. The car glass is not translucent because he wears a thick film glass, so it is safe if della changes clothes inside.

Not long kevin felt his car glass knocked, he also saw della who had changed clothes there. Della looks more comfortable and cute with kevin's oversized hoodie. Finally Kevin can drive his car calmly without any worries that ambush him. I don't know if Kevin still feels hate for della but the feeling of worry is difficult to be removed from his brain, besides they are in need of della for now.

Kevin turned his car in one of the nearby cafes. He chose to park his car close to the entrance of the cafe so as not to be too exposed to rain. Kevin came out first and walked around waiting for della to enter the cafe along with an umbrella in kevin's hand. They walked together entering the cafe accompanied by the amazed gazes of some people who were in the cafe.

'***** matching, the face is similar again'

Iyala similar, the guy she's my sister yeu-della

'Ih boy ama I aja si'

Take it there.-della

'That's a really cool thing, the chilli cake'

Basic micin generation, I just dija also from earlier.-della

Della decided not to listen to what they were saying. Kevin and Della are sitting by the window. Kevin's ordering a drink first.

Ten minutes passed, kevin came up with two cups of coffee and two dishes of fried rice that were still steaming in place. He put one cup and one plate of fried rice in front of della.

"Can I talk now?"

"By the way" said della lazily.

"Dilla's in an accident, she's in a coma. Kejad-"

"The gausa base of the stale please ntar is really stale again. To the point" della cuts kevin's speech with her song face. Kevin was only able to clench and hold back his emotions.

"Dilla needs a blood donor."

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