My World is Bad

epsd 11s

I feel so alone, I feel so broken, I feel so empty and sad, but no one can understand.

^_^

This afternoon della went home alone with his car, fatih had offered della to go home with him but because della this morning brought his own car, so he refused on the grounds that he brought his own car this morning.

His head ached in a nod as the fire-bts song performed Beautiful in his car. Maybe when some people who are learning are more happy to hear classical songs, but della is different, for him hip hop songs are the most comfortable songs he hears to learn.

His eyes were cool looking left and right, and his gaze fell when he saw a quite crowded crowd. Della stops her car, and goes down to see what happens.

'Oh turned out to be an accident' - Inner della

He walked over to see the victim, and was shocked when he found out who the victim of the accident was. It was her, right, it was her sister, Della barged through the crowd to see the state of her brother.

He slowly sat down next to his older brother, then della put his hand under Kevin's head, and slowly pulled Kevin's head over his lap, his arm freely stroking his brother's cheek.

"Sister? Brother gk papa?" della lirih.

"He fainted, how are we supposed to?" said one resident in the crowd.

Before telling della to circulate his gaze to Kevin's body, he ascertained whether the wound suffered by his brother was severe or not, when he saw Kevin's wound that was not too severe, della exhaled his leg.

"Mba?"

"Eh i-iya mas, please help bring it to my car only"

"Oh yes, let me help you"

Della drives her car anxiously, her eyes unable to escape from her older sister, and she prays that Kevin is completely fine. Arrived at della's apartment asking for help from her apartment security guard.

With little difficulty finally della was able to lay kevin's body on the sofa, after thanking the security guard who helped her, della rushed to pick up the p3k box and cold compress to help reduce bruising in Kevin's body.

Della sits on the floor and begins to clean Kevin's wounds with gauze spiked with alcohol, painstakingly treating and covering Kevin's wound on his forehead. Then della turned to some bruises on Kevin's arms and legs, he tried to compress the wound, and gave her red medicine. After that della looked at her brother's peaceful face, her hands tracing the face of her handsome brother, and her hand movements stopped in Kevin's hair, lovingly della rubbing Kevin's hair gently.

"for a long time I'm not like this same lo brother, I miss it, you used to always defend me, but now you are far away huh brother? far away, until it feels like we are like people who have never known, sick, really sick" della slowly removing her uneg-uneg. +

"Here my sister" pause della while pointing at her chest with her index finger "here it feels like a long time to see you guys happy without me, see you guys are cool when I suffer" della again gave a pause in her speech - perhaps stopping her speech, her hand was now busy wiping the water dripping from her beautiful eyes, della chuckled and then shook her head, she got up and headed for her room to change clothes.

Della gets her cell phone she wants to send a message to Fatih.

NDella: fati?

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Why del?

NaDella: busy gk?

ArFatih: no, why?

NaDella: oh, what more now?

ArFatih: why the del? Am I really back in nanya?

NaDella: yes, the answer is very difficult.

ArFatih: yes-yes, I'm not doing this again pause game, right again chattan ama you, why is it? 1

NaDella: out yuk? Eat cake or where cake, again sad nih 😞

ArFatih: yauda later I will pick up Maghrib

NaDella: yaudah, afternoon fatihhh

ArFatih : afternoon also della 💘

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06.45

Kevin woke up from his fainting. He circulated his view. He almost got hit by a car. His eyes unintentionally caught a porridge, medicine, and a note that was in the tray. Kevin grabbed the tray, and read a note near the porridge bowl.

Dear brother kevin

Eaten up, get well soon. You can go if you're better. Oiya, your motorbike is still in the workshop, if you go home by taxi.

della

Kevin's eyes reddened, ah how much he missed his little brother. Even after what he did, Della was still kind to him. Kevin began to eat the porridge slowly, and after eating kevin porridge drank the medicine.

Kevin put the tray back on the table. He got up, and with a little restrained kevin began to walk out of della's apartment. Kevin had asked his friend to pick him up.

He sighed once more, and left della's apartment.

•••

"Fatih~" +

"Hm?"

Della and Fatih are in the park. Fatih completely kept her word to pick up della. Della looked enthusiastic when fatih picked her up earlier.

"Fatiiiiiih" della again whines at fatih.

"Hm?" again and again fatih just replied to his words with a mutter. Della looks upset and swells her cheeks.

Feeling no longer heard the sound of della, fatih turned to look at della who was now staring blankly at a child who was laughing happily with his family. Fatih tried to resuscitate della by patting della on the shoulder, della who realized his gaze was shifted to fatih.

Their eyes met, fatih showed her sweet smile, and always, that sigh always accompanied her heart that felt beating faster. Della develops her smile, then quickly moves into the fatih deck. Fatih returned the embrace of della just as tightly, hoping that the burden of this lover can be lifted a little.

Della was already about her decision to work. Fatih hesitated a little to allow it, but della came back to believe it and made her only resigned. Honestly, fatih pity with this lover, I don't know what makes him very strong to withstand the pain that he has endured for many years.

About five minutes they hugged della first let go of her embrace and immediately got up, reflex, fatih also rose and looked at della with a questioning gaze.

"You want heheh ice cream" della said while giving her the mainstay grin, fatih who saw that instead of being upset even felt anxious himself and quickly pinched both cheeks della. Della only snorted and flicked her lips when she received the fatih treatment.

"What the hell, sick tau"

"Gemes, I swear, yaudah, would like some ice cream, right?"

"Yes ayok"

Next they walked to an ice cream shop located across the city park. Della picked a spot near the window and fatih went to order ice cream. Before long, a vanilla and chocolate flavored ice cream was presented in front of him. Della immediately enjoyed it regardless of the fatih looking at her with an amused look.

'So fast yes mood lo back again del' -fatih

Ting!

The sound of the phone distracting fatih, he glances at della for permission, della just nods her head and continues to enjoy her ice cream. Fatih returned with a look of annoyed face. Della, who had finished enjoying her ice cream, looked at Fatih in surprise.

"Why?" della began to ask.

"Ep.. I-that's how it is" Fatih looked confused.

"Why? Say it"

"Dad I called, he said I had to go home, because my father asked me to meet his business partner" Fatih explained.

"Oh yaudah, would you like to go home now? I'll take a taxi"

"Eh--don't, you'll come here with me, yes you have to go home with me too"

"Here, gapapa kok tih, gih there first aja" della again assured fatih, that it is fine if you have to go home alone, if you have to go home alone, eventually fatih relented because time would be wasted if they continued their debate.

"Fine, but now you I'm looking for a cab" the final fatih that was met with a whim by della.

They got up to the highway in search of a taxi, three minutes later a taxi walked towards them, fatih swiftly stopped the taxi and began to speak, della who watched only saw the driver nod under fatih's orders.

"Del enter, later if you have heard yes" ordered the coach while scrambling della's hair.

"Girishal"

Della arrived at her apartment at about half-nine. He took off his shoes and put them on the shelf. His gaze was circulated towards the sofa where his sister lay before he left. He breathed a sigh of relief because his brother had left, although a little disappointed in his heart.

Not wanting to be sad for too long, della walked shabbily into her room. I don't know if he feels a little dizzy in his head. In the room, della dropped her body on the mattress, before falling asleep she first gave news to fatih and in an instant she fell asleep.

Meanwhile, on the other place, Fatih was standing in front of his house, after della gave him a message of relief. Honestly, he was confused why the house which is usually quite quiet now looks a little crowded by several cars lined up neatly in the yard of his house. Trying not to care, Fatih began to move her legs to enter her house.

Fatih was surprised when he arrived in the guest room, his eyes slightly opened irregularly. He feels something strange here. Yes, he saw his lover's twin - Dilla - sitting flanked by father and mother dilla of course, and in front of the family dilla there was his father who was seen chatting and his mother just smiled blandly with a blank look. 14

When his consciousness rose again, fatih slightly shook his head to expel the thoughts that were now holding him. He continued his steps and his mother who realized it immediately approached fatih. Fatih's mother looked at her son with a sad look, fatih had been astonished by that, when his mouth was open to ask what was going on, suddenly his father called him and his mother to sit down, inevitably he bent his steps in the guest room.

When his body was fully on the sofa, fatih tried to smile at the old man dilla-also della of course. He tried to be friendly for the sake of his family's good name, accidentally his eyes looked at dilla who was now smiling sweetly - more precisely, centil, fatih snorted softly and this time he tried to open his voice.

"Sorry, what happened before?" fatih tried asking his father.

"Well, can we start now?" fatih was increasingly astonished by his father, he really did not understand what this meeting meant.

"Have it explained first hen"

Alif-ayah della and dilla.

"Okay let my father love you first, previously knew this om alif, aunt laras and dilla. Om alif same aunt laras it temen daddy time in high school. And they're here intending to..."

And his father's last sentence made the world collapse instantly.

•••

00:13

There are wounds that can't be told to anyone.

•••

Hustle and bustle in this place feels cramped, the music is pounding loudly, many people are moving trying to follow the rhythm of the music. Some of those who were there were already stoned.

Fatih was there. Yes, he was in one of the clubbing places in Jakarta. After the meeting at his house he tried to forget for a moment the problem, and cursed him for the umpteenth time he returned to this place. He knew, after this surely della would be furious with him, let alone his parents. But fatih does need a diversion for now.

Fatih's head felt heavy, his vision was a little blurred, his body also felt shabby when walking. He tried to walk slowly, he had enough to consume a lot of alcohol so his body became difficult to control.

Arriving in the car, he dropped his body and began to drive his car slowly. Although his consciousness was almost gone, he tried desperately to stay fully conscious. He drove his car to della's apartment. Let della scold him all out, but she needs della this time.

In the apartment lobby fatih walked slowly, he was still trying to hold his consciousness now, and right on the door of the apartment della he knocked on the door without caring that there was a bell available.

Della who had fallen asleep in her sleep cursed in her heart. His eyes he pointed to a wall clock that showed one o'clock past thirty five. 'For God's sake, who would dare to visit gini nights anyway?' - inner della.

Della got up, actually he was a little worried, but rather than he was curious, he just saw. When he opened the door, a man pulled his body to hug, della knew who this man was, yes, he was his lover, fatih. But della smelled an unnatural smell in fatih's body, it was a smell.. Alcohol!

"Oh my God, are you drunk?" peeking della, fatih did not answer because at once his gaze increasingly blurred and black.

"Eh astagfirullah, fatih!"

°°°

The Sunlight managed to break through the window and make someone disturbed from his sleep. His eyes crept slowly, and he soon came to a full realization. His head felt dizzy, immediately his memory was thrown at the incident last night and the most shock was, he was drunk and at home della. +

Fatih quickly got out of the bed, but when she tried to walk, the dizziness came back to her until a groan came out of her mouth.

Before long, della comes in with a bowl of trays and a milk bear. His face looked irritated, he snorted while staring intently at Fatih.

"Ish you why? Why try drunk? Or do I cape I have to make mulu porridge! Yesterday for Kevin, now elo, ish ngeselin!" cerocos della at length in front of fatih. Fatih just breathed out her breath, she knew her lover would definitely get angry.

"Yes sorry" for conditions like this fatih must indeed succumb because he realized that he was wrong here.

"Sorry, sorry, just eat the porridge, abisin. Gamau! Don't forget the bear's milk also let the brain neutral, I wait in the middle room if it's finished" yes like that della if too upset, yes, his chatty moves will come out and make anyone horrified to hear them. Again fatih just nodded under della's orders, well today he must obey his mother country.

THE STORY CONTINUES BELOW

Slowly the fatih began to eat the porridge given from the della. Honestly, he didn't really like porridge but because of this della ruled, so he had to eat it. Finished with the food business, fatih drank the milk of the bear that was still on the tray. Then he got up and walked out of the room.

In the living room, he saw della watching tv, fatih immediately put down the tray and walked towards della. He sat next to Della who was staring at him.

Gently, fatih's hand began to grasp della's hand. His eyes looked at della inside. The stared Della could only duck. The atmosphere turned awkward instantly.

"Del" fatih began to open his voice because he could not stand the awkward atmosphere.

The summoned Della simply raised her head asking for further explanation. Fatih who understood della's gaze reopened her voice.

"Della I'm sorry, I'll explain everything, but I'm sorry if this makes you hurt" Fatih waited for a response from della. But della just fell silent, again waiting for a fatih explanation. Fatih was a little disappointed when della did not respond.

"After papa I called that time, I went home, until the front of the house I was confused why many cars, when I entered I was shocked because there was dilla there with your parents and dilla. But to my surprise I didn't get there, I was more shocked when my parents told me I was the same dilla di-" Fatih's words came to a halt when della quietly cut her words.

"Stupid" shrewd della, looked down and wiped a tear on her cheek. Della breathed in the air trying to breathe quietly so that her cries were controlled. He lifted his head back and tried to smile.

"You, fooled same dilla right?" fatih was fixated when he saw della's smile. No, fatih knows it's not a happy smile, but it's a smile of gaiety. Fatih's heart feels sliced. It feels bad for him. How miserable that girl was.

"Tih" della's call resuscitates the fatih of her demeanor.

"Yes?"

"Can I stay?"

And fatih really left della alone.

•••

This is where della is. On the balcony of his apartment. Della repeatedly wiped her tears. All this, it really feels exhausting. Della tried to close her eyes to feel the wind caressing her face. +

"God, why do we need to be fatih? Della Gabisa lost the fatih god, della was afraid to be alone. If you can, can you be selfish this time? Della needs to be fatih" said Della with tears constantly falling from her beautiful eyes.

Slowly della began to master her emotions. He smiled and started to get up from the sofa on the balcony. He turned his feet towards the room. Della dropped her body on the mattress and began to fall asleep.

°°°

It has been three days since Fatih explained to della that she will soon be engaged by dilla. The condition of the relationship cannot be ascertained, because della still needs time to think clearly. Fatih understood that, however she had to understand della for this time. He knew della was in for a very tough choice. He was the same but seeing the condition of della lately made him more convinced that della was the one who was very tortured here.

Della stared at Fatih from a distance. Slowly but surely his pace began to approach fatih. The decision is round. He had to talk to Fatih immediately. Fatih who saw della approaching instantly revealed her smile.

"We need to talk" said Della when faced with fatih in a quiet voice so that no one can hear

"Where?"

"Rooftop, now" after saying the word della immediately moved first. Fatih just silently let della first walk towards the rooftop. After being sure della has arrived fatih quickly approached della.

Fatih arrived at the rooftop after entering a password she already knew. He approached della who was now staring blankly at the sky. Della immediately smiled when she realized the existence of fatih. He got up and threw himself into the arms of fatih.

"Fatih, della kangen" said della. Fatih simply nodded and put her head on della's shoulders. He returned a hug della no less tight.

Before long a prank escaped della's mouth. His body trembled and could be felt fatih. He began to lead della to the sofa that was in the rooftop.

"Fatih, if I want to be selfish, do you mind?" della asked in a loud voice. Fatih was confused in her place. He did not understand the meaning of della's words.

"meaning?"

"If I ask you to keep having a relationship how? I want to be selfish again, why do you have to, why? Hiks" racau della. Fatih who had understood della's words also tightened her embrace on della.

"Let's maintain this relationship. Cause you're mine and I'm yours".

•••

Seriate....