My Talaq!

Trying to Be Ordinary But Heart Wounded

Diana was still stunned for a moment, she still felt trembling over what she had just found. "Why is this contraceptive pill in the pocket of Bli Fikri's pants? What is this, God? Did he betray our marriage?" all sorts of questions ran through his mind.

Diana covered her face with her palm. He wanted to cry at this moment. Can he be disappointed? Can he be angry? Can he be hurt? Can she feel the pain of what she currently finds behind her husband's jacket pocket?

Although she did not love Fikri yet, she did not fully believe that the sweet black man had the dimples, but Diana was committed to building a household with him. He even gives confidence to Fikri that the man is unlikely to commit treason behind his back. But what did he find? A pregnancy-preventing drug for every woman.

So, who is that woman? Where did the two of them get along? Only a lover who often commit adultery or husband and wife without his knowledge? Diana was heartbroken before falling in love again. Again she felt a betrayal of her husband. The betrayal she also received from her first husband and now she receives from her second husband.

"O Allah, why do you give such a heavy ordeal? Why do you give the trials of life that are constantly concerned with betrayal? What was my mistake in the past that you put such a heavy obstacle in my household? What great mistake did I make until you always involved my husband in this matter of treason? Do I not deserve to be happy? Do I not deserve love? Am I not worthy of a household? Why is this happening? Why?" inwardly kept asking while sobbing little. He could no longer hide the tightness in his chest when the betrayal again occurred into his household.

After a silent cry in solitude, Diana again tried to stand up and do homework before Baby A woke up from his sleep. For a time, Diana let this go first and kept her findings. In fact, he was not focused on working on his exchange because his mind was in a mess with a heart slashed.

Diana, who is still in her puerperium, does not need to worry when she does not do dawn prayers. The body keeps working while the mind goes everywhere. He entered the wrong water that should have been poured into a glass instead he poured it into the dishwasher.

When the water is up, Diana is aware of the actions she is doing. "Astaghfirullah...! I got it wrong to enter the hot water," he said patting the eel while storing the pot used to cook water.

He breathed the rice down sadly. Because of the thought of the pill, Diana was daydreaming and mishandled the task. "Oh God."

After doing homework ranging from washing clothes, washing dishes, preparing coffee, to making breakfast, to, Diana rushes back to the room to wake Fikri and tries to hide her heartache over an uncertain piece of evidence.

Baby A after Diana's work is done, and now Baby A is in the hold of Fikri who is trying to calm the tiny baby who is crying looking for his mother.

"Bli Fikri is awake?" diana asked as usual. He wanted to find out more for sure who the contraceptive pill belonged to.

"Yes, I woke up because Baby A cried to wake up looking for his mother. So noisy. My sleep became disturbed by the sound of crying," said Fikri with a tone seemed annoyed because his sleep was disturbed by the noise Baby A created.

"Sorry, Bli. Her name is also a child must cry when she wakes up," reply Diana took Baby A from a sling Fikri. The baby was silent and no longer crying. Maybe a child's feelings are more sensitive to something. Young children will know which people are sincere and who are not. Even if it was a one-month-old baby.

Diana was silent and did not answer because her heart still felt the pain of the discovery she found behind her pocket. However, Diana still remained silent yet to question that before she found out who that woman was. He tried to act ordinary but his heart was hurt.

"Where have you been this morning, Diana? Baby A gets left alone, trouble me. Why don't you just give it to his father? Still taking care of the baby."

Diana, who was looking down, held her son in silence. "You know every day, every morning I do my duty as a wife. Washing, cooking, mopping, to take care of Baby A I take care of."

"What...?! You wash? Where's my jeans jacket?" Fikri immediately got out of bed looking for the jacket he was wearing yesterday. Instantly he panicked and worried about something in his jacket pocket that Diana knew. Fikri looked for him in every corner of the room. "Where's that jacket, Diana?"

"The package has been washed and I have sunbaked as well" Diana replied with until while paying attention to the behavior of Fikri who was so worried.

"What?! then you..." Fikri was made to sculpt to realize that Diana must know the contraceptive pill. Her heart was pounding fearlessly for Diana to know her secret.

"What are you, Bli? You are strange, since your face looks very panicked and worried looking for the existence of your jeans jacket. How valuable is that jacket to make you panic like this?" diana tried to calmly say without directly asking about the medicine. He showed a look of ignorance and confusion to make Fikri unsuspecting if he already knew what the man was afraid of.

'You must be worried about the pill getting into my hands, '" Diana murmured inwardly.

"No-no, I'm just confused why are you doing that early washing my clothes? Though it could be noon," replied Fikri standing while his right hand held the back of the head. 'May Diana not find the damn cure, ' her inner self.

"Baby A's still sleeping so I do homework. Now that we're eating, I've prepared food for you." In a state of hurt heart, Diana was still being kind and willing to take care of the needs of Fikri as her husband.

"Ah, yes. But you didn't find anything in your jacket pocket, did you?" Fikri finally asked him for a medicine he hated because he was curious whether Diana found it or not? She wanted to know what Diana said. His eyes were fixed on the beautiful eyes of the wife he had married one month ago.

"Yes, I found it."

Degs...