My Stepfather
When The Heart is Worried
FLASBACK.....
The rain is getting thicker soaking up the old dry earth waiting for coolness. The cold felt through the pores made Jesica's body shiver with cold. The thick sweater he wears is not enough to dispel the cold. Several times her tiny lips were rummaging indistinctly. While the clear crystal continues to wet his eye fertilizers that have been swollen due to too much crying.
Since the great quarrel with Melinda in Bogor villa a few days ago made Jesica's attitude change completely. It is not what it used to be. Especially if you remember Melinda's words that made her mentally worse, if she was just a child. The day he spent shutting himself up in the room.
He would only come out if mama Kinan invited him to eat together, and then he again closed the door to his room in a meeting. It made his body shrink further leaving protruding bones in the neck, cheeks and wrists. Her originally beautiful face now looks tangled dry unkempt, plus the black color that coiled in the eyes increasingly makes her look sad, like people eating less than a year.
In addition, Jesica was reluctant to go to school, lazy to move like the day before. Jesica who was once jolly, chatty, ignorant, and installments has now turned three hundred and sixty degrees. He really turned into a closed person, a little talk even seemed haughty and cold. He is more often silent daydreaming and sometimes even likes to laugh alone.hemmz already crazy him? I don't know who wrote it either. Pura pura tak tahu gitu aja😂
He now also often avoids if there is an event arisan or reunion main event associated with the crowd, especially the large family Cokrodiningrat, he prefers to be alone in the room because he is aware of his position, he prefers to be alone in the room because he is aware of his position, which is not part of them. So it is better not to appear, than to be hurt to hear scorn from a venomous mouth.
And what makes Jesica even more lazy, his feud with Melinda still continues to this day. Neither Jesica nor Melinda want to give up, they are just as selfish, too put forward their own egos. If the two meet face to face, then there will be no moments of mutual greeting, chat or just a little joke. The ones that exist are just silent to each other as if they never knew, staring at each other hatefully.
Today what Jesica needs is not the luxury of the world, but the calmness and comfort in living his life. He wanted to go back in time, before he knew he was not part of the Cokrodiningrat family. The time where he was so happy to spend his day with them, joking with jokes, vacation together, especially the thing that was missed the most was to laugh with his two brothers after successfully judging people. He wanted to go back to that time, a time without tears and tears, but that would never happen. All he sees is sadness. If he is given a choice, he will choose to live in ignorance.
Jesica wiped her tears that were back wet. Her little lips tried to smile even if forced, she wanted to end her sadness at this time, but free even crying continued. Until the apocalypse will not ignore the existing problems even add new problems. Jesica is determined to forget her dark past and begin making peace with the problems she faces today by opening a new page.
GECK... GECK....GECK....
"Darling... Cyka open the door, son"
The hoarse voice of mama Kinan was heard greeting the ears, disperse the daydream which had gone where. With a lazy step he got up from the sofa stepping weakly towards the door. When the door opened Jesica found the shady face of the mother who slalu made Jesica want to cry into the arms of the mother.he immediately hugged the body of Mama Kinan tightly.
"Mama hiks... hiks... hiks... sorry Cyka ma, Cyka slalu nahusahin mama hyks... hyks... because Cyka mama like this hyks... hyks..." jesica said between her cries.
Mama Kinan shook her head slowly stroking to get rid of Jesica's haircut that covered her forehead affectionately
" Cyka is not wrong, mama knows Cyka is very hit with this fact, sad may mama will not forbid but Cyka also have to remember one thing. The name of life is certainly there must be a trial that we must go through, no one is straight as smooth as the toll road. There must be derivatives, twists, climbs or pebbles that can sometimes make people who are not heartbroken to fall slipping. Even if there is something like that we will feel life is empty, the plate is so, not exciting" Mama Kinan set the breath then continued the speech
"Now try Cyka shadowin if as Cyka's life just seneng no sad ever from Cyka born to old, surely Cyka will think life is gini gini aja boring. If you do not understand try Cyka shadowin eat with the same menu every day. rich song that you know the song dangdut title does not know anyway that it sounds gini eat it again vegetable asem again yes it's that again~~~~.
try shadowin every day should eat it aja, so until Cyka old, surely bosen right ! Cyka must be keen to eat with other menus that are more varied.
So is our life, son. God is fair, dear, he knows what is best for his servant. And God knows people like us are very easy and get bored quickly. He therefore gives the color of pleasure and sorrow, happiness and weeping, the treasure of the wealth of luxury, suffering and poverty. It's all a test for us. Whether we can or not we get through it all". Mama Kinan took a breath again because the one that had started to run out
And yet another God never wrongly places a trial on his servant. God knows when we are happy and when we are sad. It'll be beautiful in time, son. Our duty as human beings is only required to worship Him, always grateful whatever the circumstances we want to be sad to be happy to never forget God and the last is always introspection. ". Mama Kinan's advice was long.
"Jesica was choked when Kinan's mama touched God's name. His blood rippled strangely when he heard the name of God greet his ears. There is a kind of longing that is difficult to express by the tongue using words, like a friendly poem to express longing for the lover.
Jesica gulped down a spit that felt mute. All this time, he never knew about God. He only knew a little about God even from school lessons, but yes it was because of his minimal brain so he was not so able to absorb the knowledge he got. Plus his current parents, foster parents mean. 😳They never teach about religious science, they are too busy with work and sometimes up to days do not go home because the project is too big.
Papa Arman is a successful businessman and well-known in the field of food processing. Yes although not ranked as the best entrepreneur but Papa Arman is a fairly successful entrepreneur anyway. While mama Kinan is a famous designer of the country. His work is admired by many people even to foreign countries. Not a few awards were obtained for his achievements.
His panda-like eyes began to pool, clear water flowing back on both of his pale cheeks. His heart weakened as his body weakened. He wanted to cry out in the name of the Lord, to put all these burdens of life and longing on Him. But he did not know how, knew his religion was shallow. All he could do right now was cry without being able to do more. "God is this the way of my life? jesica asked noiselessly.
Mama Kinan felt devastated to see the current condition of Jesica, thin dry as a bone wrapped in cloth. Her tears also fell to see Jesica crying, hugging Jesica again.
"Sir Mama beg you not to be like this, rise Cyka must rise, mama kepen Cyka strong do not be a weak and easy to give up ! this is still not how much, there is still a lot bigger than what is now, if the current Cyka had desperately given up so how later if Cyka found a heavier than this.
Come on son, anyway after this mama do not want to know Cyka should be able to rise from this slump, the road of your life is still long, there is still much you have to fight, there is still much you have to fight, including the pursuit of mind be the pride of mama and papa. And make Cyka's biological parents regret for throwing away a child as great as you!" Mama Kinan's advice is gentle but there is firmness there. This time Mama Kinan really did not know what else to do.
Jesica stared intently at my mother's eyes.
"I will try to get up mah. forgive Cyka if it makes you angry and bored" said Jesica lirih.
" mom always forgives you baby, before you apologize even mama has forgiven you, you are my favorite child, mama loves you even more than mama's own biological child." mama Kinan smiled sincerely
"But maa....." Jesica was silent not continuing her sentence.
"What a darling"
"Sorry Cyka can't make mom papa proud, do you know Cyka is stupid shrimp brain, shrimps, and Cyka always makes mama embarrassed because Cyka can rank one from the bottom because the report value is very good, all red" said Jesica half whispered in shame.
Mama Kinan laughed at Jesica's words. While the one who became the laughingstock was upset. Mama Kinan did not know what to answer, he was confused so he chose to laugh. He doesn't really care about Jesica's low IQ, unlike most children. And until now, Mama Kinan is not ready to open the secret of why Jesica can be a child with an IQ is very concerned.
Not yet the time Jesica knows further the truth of his past, he is afraid that his mental will come back fragile even worse than it is now, besides that also mama Kinan is afraid of losing the figure of Jesica in his life. So choosing silence is the best way he thinks. And let time answer the mystery for the mystery, let all walk like water. His base is going first
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