My Secret to Being an Actor Casanova

Episode 19's

As we sat together on the sofa, Maya started asking about my relationship with Anita, and I tried to explain honestly that we were just pretending. However, I also do not know why he asked, even though he himself never said about his heart about me.

"Isn't that not important anymore because you don't want to accept my feelings?" I said with a bit of disappointment in the voice.

Maya looks surprised to hear what I say. With a sharp look, he asked, "Why are you two pretending? Is this just a joke to you?"

I felt a disappointment in Maya's voice and I didn't want to hurt her feelings any further. With some regret, I replied, "I'm sorry if I let you down, Maya. Anita and I were just pretending because we knew that our relationship wasn't going to go well. We both realized the big difference between us."

Maya looked at me firmly. "So, you decided to hurt the feelings of others for your own sake? Is that what you mean by pretending?"

Now, I really feel guilty for hurting Maya's feelings. In a regretful voice, I replied, "I'm sorry, Maya. I didn't mean to hurt anyone's feelings. We both decided to pretend that Walton's family wouldn't stop setting him up. I understand that this may feel selfish and unfair, but we're trying to protect each other."

Maya pondered for a moment, as if giving me a chance to explain myself further. "But isn't what you're doing more hurtful? Now I feel played and fooled."

I nodded, realizing how much our actions could hurt his feelings. "One more time, I'm sorry, Maya. We didn't mean to make you feel this way. We know that our relationship will only last a moment and it is unfair to take you on such a game. I wish you could understand our choices."

Maya still looked injured, but after a while, she nodded. "I can't control how I feel about you, but I understand why you're doing this. But please, don't mess with my feelings anymore. I want my pride respected."

I wonder why Maya feels played with, even though her feelings for me have not been clear. Anyway, I already explained that my relationship with Anita was just pretend.

Maybe Maya felt played with because she felt she didn't know her position in my relationship with her. Although I have made it clear that my relationship with Anita is just pretend, but Maya may still be confused and unsure if I am really serious about how I feel about her.

Finally, I tried to convince her and embraced her affectionately. I spoke from my deepest heart, expressing my sincere and serious feelings of love towards Maya. I try to give you the assurance that my relationship with Anita is nothing more than a charade.

Maybe Maya is still doubtful and skeptical, and I can understand her feelings. However, I tried to make her feel safe and convinced that my feelings were not just passing by. I gave him time and opportunity to gain complete trust in myself.

Hugging Maya tightly, I reminded her of all the sweet moments we spent together and how important she was in my life. I promised her to be faithful and earnest in this relationship.

Then, unconsciously we had already started kissing passionately in the warmth of our embrace. We give each other a kiss full of love and desire, exploring each other's lips gently.

Our bodies were filled with an overflowing sense of amusement and swish, making all daily worries and problems forgotten. There is nothing more important than this moment.

We kissed with increasing lust, undergoing second after second full of intimacy and warmth. Each of our gestures and touches conveys an inevitable affection and desire to each other.

Time stopped and there were only the two of us, fused in a feeling that grew into a blazing fire. There is no limit to the happiness we feel today, because only one is in our minds - the love we share.

We kept kissing more deeply and passionately, like we didn't want to let go of each other. Every touch and touch of our lips only makes us more and more infatuated with each other.

Until finally, our breath gasped and we were forced to cut off our kiss. We looked at each other with intimacy, letting our breath recover. Despite wanting to continue, we gave each other a sign of self-control.

Maya smiled gently and rubbed my hand gently. "It's okay, Prince. I-i understand. I don't know what I'm thinking either."

We were still sitting on the sofa, close by, but with a distance separating us. A gaze full of intimacy is still interwoven between us, yet there is wisdom controlling our actions.

We were still in a moment's silence, absorbing what had just happened. There were tremors of tension still lingering between us, but we tried to let it pass.

“Alright, it looks like it's time for me to leave," said Maya wanting to leave the studio.

“Does this mean you've forgiven me?" I asked as Maya got off the couch.

Maya just nodded while confirming her slightly messy clothes after our actions earlier.

After Maya leaves, a mysterious black cat reappears to meet me. “Did you already realize it?" said the cat.

I was a little confused by what he said, but I started to think about myself who recently had a hard time holding back or getting out of control.

“Night, is everything happening to me because I didn't listen to your advice?" many confused.

“True," replied Night. "Your passions will rise and spiral out of control because you've gone too far with some of the women you've met. Not only that, women who are with you will also get drunk on romance or lose control because they are captivated by the powerful charm of your strength and good looks.”

I was shocked to hear Night's words. I do realize that lately I have been behaving inappropriately, especially in relationships with women. I often act impulsively and don't think about the consequences. In fact, Maya has given me good advice not to rush into a relationship.

"I'm sorry, Night," I said in a soft voice. "I didn't mean to hurt anyone, but I was too weak in self-control."

The black cat nodded and looked at me sharply. "You must learn to have control over yourself, not only in relationships with women, but also in your life in general. The decisions we make have consequences, and we have to take responsibility for them."

I contemplated the words of Night. He is right, I must learn to be more patient and wise in the face of temptations that arise. I must consider the consequences of my actions and not allow the mere passions to rule over me.

"I'll try better, Night," I said with determination. "I will listen to your advice and try to control myself so as not to get caught up again in a pattern of harmful behavior."

Night looked at me with his sharp eyes, giving me some kind of hope. "Alright, I'll keep an eye on you here and remind you if you get stuck back. But remember, it all depends on yourself. I hope you can improve yourself and become a better person."

I nodded my head as a marker of agreement. Although there were still worries and uncertainties within me, I felt encouraged to make changes. I need guidance and reminders, and Night is the only one who can give it to me right now.

Seriate.