My Mysterious Senior

ILLUSIONS

I can't see anything, just the darkness that envelops my vision, whatever happens to me, everything is invisible, I can't see anything, it's so dark, I need light.

but suddenly, the atmosphere began to change by showing me a vision that had repeatedly crossed my mind, this incident was even like a recording, the moment where Merlina left me, for good.

" this again?, this is death?, or illusion?".

but before long, the vision instantly disappeared from my sight, and darkness reappeared and enveloped my entire body.

" to what extent does this regret continue to cover my heart, even after my death ".

I just looked down because there was no way for me to come back, I don't know where I really am.

but my gaze was distracted when I saw a light shining from a distance, the light grew bigger and bigger, no, it was not the light that was expanding, but it was approaching, right in the direction I was.

the light made the darkness beside it bright, even making my eyes blur and my vision glare, I just closed my eyes as the light actually approached me.

" sherlene ".

when I opened my eyes, I was very surprised to see a place so dark it turned into a place that was not so foreign to me. This place, is a playground that I used to visit with my friends.

" sherla, didn't you hear what I said?".

said someone whose voice was completely unfamiliar to my ears.

when I looked back, it turned out that my guess was right, he was...

" jerlina?!".

" long time no see, sherla ".

said Merlina who was sitting on a swing.

" you?".

I just stared at Merlina with a feeling of surprise on my face.

I immediately hugged Merlina's body tightly.

" he, hey, you're too excited ".

merlina said while returning my embrace.

" i don't know what's going on right now, but I'm really lucky to see you again ".

I said while releasing my embrace.

" it looks like you really miss me ".

merlina replied with a smile towards me.

" of course, I always expected this to happen, even though it was impossible ".

I said as I rubbed my teary eyes.

" you came too far, willing to change your life to meet me ".

said merlina while patting her forehead.

" uh, you mean, I'm really dead ".

I said with a surprised face.

" mm, you could say so ".

merlina replied while throwing her face away from me.

" what?!, I'm dead?!, huhu how is this, I'm not ready to die this fast, I want to feel my life first ".

I said while grumbling.

" hihihi, you have indeed not changed well from the past, your childish nature is always attached to you ".

merlina said with a smile towards me.

" i don't want to die, I don't want to die ".

I said while rolling over my body.

" hey, you're overreacting ".

merlina said with a sigh.

" how is this, I'm dead ".

I said while grumbling.

" you're not dead yet ".

merlina replied with a sigh.

" uh, I'm not dead yet?".

ask me in wonder.

" well, you're not dead yet, now stop acting weird again ".

merlina answered with an annoyed face.

" then, what exactly happened to me?".

ask me with curiosity.

" this is just your illusion Sherla ".

merlina answered with a serious face.

" illusion?".

" well, this is just an essay that mixes your thoughts and feelings ".

answer merlina.

" so, all this is fake?".

ask with a sad expression.

" hm, you could say so ".

merlina replied while nodding her head.

" no, this is impossible, if that's the case, how can you talk to me?, if it's an illusion, why can I touch you?".

my words were not received with Merlina's answer.

" because you created all this, you wanted me to exist, I was just your imagination, sherla ".

" it can't be ".

I said with a sad face.

" hey, but it's not that bad, you should be happy that you're alive, right?".

merlina tried to change the mood.

" no, I don't want to, I want to stay here with you ".

I said with teary eyes.

" no sherla, you can't blame yourself for whatever it is that's going on you, it's destiny, don't do anything stupid ".

merlina tried to persuade me.

" do that stupid thing?, don't you know?, you're the one who did that stupid thing!, jumped out of the building and threw all that away?!, why merlina?!, why are you doing that?!!".

I said out loud while looking at Merlina seriously.

" i, I'm sorry ".

merlina said while bowing her head.

" why don't you tell me when you're in trouble, you're the one who says we're best friends, aren't you?".

I said while tightly hugging Merlina's body with tears dripping down.

" i'm sorry sherla, I can't be a friend to you ".

merlina replied while returning my embrace.

" you're wrong, you're the best friend of my life, you're the one who first understands how I feel, and you're the first person who wants to be friends with me ".

I said while stroking merlina's hair.

" thank you Sherla, I'm really very lucky to know you ".

merlina said with a smile.

" i'm also very grateful to be friends with you ".

I said while returning a smile of Merlina.

" it's time you came back ".

merlina said as she extended her hand.

" i..".

" what are you?, you're afraid of loneliness ".

merlina cut my words.

" heard Sherla, there are a lot of good people out there, lest regrets make you not want to be close to anyone, believe me, you're going to meet someone much better than me, someone who always accompanies you, wherever you are ".

merlina said as she stretched out her hand.

" hhh, well lady preacher, I will not forget your advice ".

I said while embracing Merlina's hand.

" hey, are we meeting again?".

I asked while tightly holding Merlina's hand.

" of course ".

merlina replied with a smile.

" me see you later, sherla ".

" me see you later, merlina ".

in an instant, my body suddenly seemed to be thrown into a place. When I opened my eyes, I saw my body lying on a mattress.

" sherla!, are you awake?!".

said Aida who was sitting next to me.

" is Sherla awake?, hey!, sherla is awake ".

sofia said loudly.

" sherla?, you finally woke up too, mom really worried ".

mother said while coming to hug me.

" you also made Dad anxious ".

said dad while stroking my head.

" actually what happened at the time ".

I said with wonder.

" that's when your grip slipped from me when you started to lose consciousness ".

said aida.

" and when you get mixed up, it's a good thing Kevin jumped in and saved you ".

said Aida while pointing towards the senior.

" te, thank you senior ".

I said with shame.

" you know, your story's almost the same as the one you used to save your mother when she drowned in the pool ".

said father with a haughty face.

" huh?!, wasn't it the mother who saved me that time?".

answered the mother while pulling the ear of the father.

" Haha ".

the whole room was accompanied by the sound of happy laughter, from people who sincerely loved me.

you're right, merlina, it's too soon for me to regret all this, there are still so many good people out there, and just found them.