My Lovely Driver's
16
Finally Nata came out after confining himself for a dozen minutes in the bathroom. There was no trace of gloom on his face, as if nothing had happened before. But Radit knows something's hidden.
“He likes you?”
Nata tightened his blazer, even though the weather was not so cold.
Radit chose to sit on the sofa, in front of him there is a large glass that displays the view of the capital before evening. Heading for a pause from every human sweat.
“No other discussion?”
Nata pulls a cup with a new gold edge delivered by an office girl, then takes a sip of her favorite lemon tea.
“Example?”
“Share science, you just came home from study right?”
One week Radit decided not to join his sister and his mother back to Palembang. There are several Ustadz assemblies that he often follows his studies so far from the da'wah channel, which he wants to attend directly while here.
And I don't know what moved Radit's legs to Nata's place, but the woman was restricting their meeting. According to him, it is strange to want a proposal but still meet.
'Let me know what it's like to miss you'
Nata replied last week, making Radit happy not to play following this request.
“Hey, how dumb! What are you doing today?”
Nata repeated his request. So that the man forgets the topic about Lukman.
Radit sat staring down with his face down, his two hands clenched in front of his lips that seemed to tremble.
“Radit, you why?”
“To. long..”.
Radit looked tired of talking, pale and had difficulty breathing.
Nata immediately called Mr. Amar to take them to the Hospital.
Along the way Radit only held his chest while occasionally trying to breathe. While Nata looked panicked down the street with an unsettled face.
Just a few days ago visited shock therapy at IGD, who would have thought now Radit's turn should feel his body resigned in the hands of the medical team. Due to the narrowing of the respiratory tract, it is congested.
Nata sitting by his side could not stem the anxiety. For a year, he had known Radit, he never knew that the man had problems with his breathing that at any time could recur if exhausted or stressed.
It's been a few hours of breathing apparatus installed. The body still seemed to be breathing. He was able to speak even though he had two words.
“You're better?”
Radit raised both of his thumbs, smiling.
“I call your mother?”
Radit wiggles the wrist. His mother just how many days to breathe a sigh of relief and go home, he will not be enough to bother him again.
“Say your doctor must stay, your blood pressure is low. Tonight Mr. Amar will take care of. I go home first, really, really hot. I need a shower. God willing tomorrow morning I'm here”
“Still Nata”
Radit released Nata's departure with his eyes not turned away until the woman passed from sight. It's been three hours that he's been keeping the man there attentive. Not a bit to go except to pray.
While Nata, down the corridor of the Hospital with a giant step. Many things cloud his mind. Just last week he said yes to open the heart, just one week of sowing new love. Who would have thought Lukman came back, and threw him into a space called gamang.
***
As promised, today Nata returned early in the morning to see the state of Radit. The woman wore a pastel purple blouse that was inserted into a white flower-patterned white skirt with small flowers matching her dress. In the instant pasmina dress, Nata did not convey his social class in dress at all. But still stunning even though it looks simple.
“Try if I'm married. There must be a wife who takes care of 24 hours”
Radit began to wonder, as Nata took a seat sitting nearby.
“Makanya, why also wait up to two years. Even though if you do not wait for me maybe now there is another woman who wants to take care of you as sincerely as”
Nata grabbed a small knife and took the apple from the fruit basket, peeling it carefully.
“That's when I wanted to seduce you. How to get hit anyway.”
Radit sat up and slept while shaking his head, smiling. For a moment he saw his last infusion that was almost finished.
“Lha.. My fault where try ”
“Yes, yes, your fault it's just too pretty, too good, another nothing wrong.”
“Awas, you woo again I fill your infusion of eucalyptus oil liquid!”
Radit laughed amusedly at Nata's mimic that deliberately inflated his nose.
Radit grabbed the TV remote near his pillow, then pressed the channel button a little longer. Only an attempt to avoid looking into Nata's eyes began to look at him with a feeling of ignorance.
“While a man like you can get a girl kinyis-kinyis lo. How much do widows want widows?”
“Iya. Yes, women like you can also get men brondong. Half-heartedly to the widower. Yes right?”
“No, brondongnya not clear!”
Nata put down a plate of apples that had been cut a little hard hit the table. I don't know why Lukman's face bothers him so much today.
“Whose are you upset with again?”
Investigate Radit while taking a piece of Apple, then chew slowly.
“Nothing!”
Then the woman targeted a piece of apple, leaving no one. And devoured it with a mouth full.
Radit has always loved this scene, as Nata eats with his frenzy.
“So if not, why upset? until eating two pieces of apples once swallow.”
Radit laughed, his eyes leaving only one line.
“Eh, so how does this story of your pain recur? I think this one week you are actually not soybean”
As usual, Nata always had a way to shift the topic. He began to notice Radit a little more intensely. While the man looked surprised at the question Nata asked.
Something he really wants to say, related to the burden of thoughts that haunt him. Radit instantly remembers the minute before breathing difficulties. After studying, he came to Nata, and suddenly he could not control his mood. Then tight before you can say anything.
“Nata.. Do you think that a person who sins a great sin then repent nasuha, does he have the right to live a happy life and hide his sin. Worried about being abandoned by the person she loves?”
Nata feels strange with Radit's opening sentence this time. The man's eyes seemed to be looking for pity, while Nata was still digesting the sentence carefully.
“Depends. Because in some cases God forbids us to indulge in our own disgrace. If it does not cause harm to loved ones, I think it is ok”
Nata did not have the courage to ask who sin, and what sin made Radit seem unsettled at heart.
“Natasha.. If I had a bad past, would you still want to continue this matchmaking?”
Radit's question confused him. Their extended family had already prepared a proposal. Although it will be called simple, but the invitation has reached hundreds.
The most enthusiastic retno. Even have chosen a good wedding date when the application has not taken place. His mother had already started telling Radit and Nata about all his fellow prisoners.
“You mean you used to be the mafia boss?”
Nata still tried to present a smile even though his heart began to feel suspicious. Radit returned the smile, but looked bitter.
“Nata. Didn't I ever tell you, my High School days were very chaotic without the presence of a mother figure. Free association makes me unable to control myself.. And yesterday, when you came home from college, you asked me what I learned there. You know Nata, ustadz just explained one of the three great sins that are very severe punishment.. And I got into one of them.”.
Radit's eyes looked teary. Nata is getting confused about what Radit will tell him. There was a long pause before Radit dared to continue his words.
“Nata... I've fucked women without marriage.. I'm khilaf..”.
Radit seemed unable to stem the pain, tears spilled one by one. The sins of a dozen years ago came back to haunt him. God will punish the world. Even the departure of Sadiqa and his baby, now understood as a punishment for sins in the past.
While Nata, still can't believe what he's listening to. Radit did tell a story related to his playboy. But do not expect to go that far, because the shadow of the past does not leave a trace in the present. He's a totally fine man. Nata hid his face behind the palm. It took up to a few minutes until Nata could neutralize the taste, and dared to ask.
“How often do you do it?”
“Once Nata. Wallahi only once. It was before father married mother Sukma, and before I knew Sadiqa ..”
“Then Sadiqa knew about this?”
Radit sobbed back, from Nata's remorseful look, knowing Radit hid this from his late wife. Then sob.
“God punish me Nata..”
“Radite.. I am not a holy man. I also have a mistake. But, fornicate..”.
Nata withholds his sentence not to judge again, however Radit has repented. There was no trace of lies in his eyes. The man truly regretted his actions. It was even as if God had punished and atoned for his sin, by losing two loved ones, at once.
“Nata. I'm sorry. If you're not willing to continue this match. Please hide this reason from anyone.”.
Radit looked resigned, he was self-conscious. Remembering the verse describing the adulterers will only marry the same group. No matter how much love for a woman in front of him, he is willing if bad possibilities take away his happiness.
Meanwhile, Nata, for a moment remembered a friend who was a good woman of religion and apparently, in the editing of a man who looked perfect. In the tenth year of marriage it was revealed that the husband used to like to find entertainment in the localization, and had two children outside the marriage. Miraculously, the wife forgives.
While Radit? Should he be honored before his Qawwam title for Nata is religiously valid.
For some reason he suddenly imagined Lukman who made a similar confession, will be the same reaction.
