my love is a lie

Chapter 33_ gives an answer

Not wanting to make Marcell add hope to him Tiara finally ventured to tell him what his decision was so that Marcell's feelings did not grow deep which would make him hurt, he said, honestly Tiara feels comfortable when around Marcell men are both attentive and polite but Tiara realizes not to be selfish because Marcell deserves a woman who is much better than him, he said, tiara's decision was also based on her heart which was only able to consider Marcell as an older brother figure for her. somehow until now her heart is still filled with the name Raka. as she tries hard to forget Raka then there is only Raka in her mind, even in a third of the night Tiara always pleaded with the creator to remove his sense of shame he believed that God gave the feeling to grow in his heart and that God would remove it. even Tiara hoped that there would be a growing love in her heart in exchange for another name, a name that was much better and able to guide her to the realm.

tiara is currently sitting behind the restaurant where she and Marcell always eat together. Tiara was deliberately waiting for Marcell first because earlier he had also told Marcell that there were important things that he wanted to talk about, not waiting for Marcell to come closer

"sorry Tia if you have a long problem today I'm a little busy"

"no, I'm new here too"

"oh yeah he said there's something you want to talk about ma me and he said it's important, about what is Tiara?do you have an answer for my call to ta'aruf?"

"we eat first, sister, after that I'll tell you"

"alright"

they both enjoyed the food in silence just the twang of the spoon sounded a little nervous that Tiara was feeling at this time but he tried to mention the name of Allah(Asmaul Husna) in his heart to solidify his intentions. finished eating Tiara cleaned her lunch box and she took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, looking at Marcell's face and trying to smile sincerely

" this is my sister before I say it, I hope you don't hate me"

"let's say Tiara don't make me curious"

"sister, it's my decision regarding my brother's intention to invite me to ta'aruf"

"then what is your decision may you want to welcome my intention.Amin"

"before I'm really sorry, brother, but I can't fulfill the wishes of Marcell's sister, a very good brother, almost near perfect, not worth getting a woman like me, you deserve a woman who is better than me in any way, don't sacrifice yourself just for a woman like me"

like being struck by lightning in broad daylight hearing Tiara's words his heart was broken about the decision but Marcell will still try to convince Tiara that she is the woman he deserves

"why are you talking like that Tiara? is it because I don't deserve you ? why don't you open your heart to me, can't you feel my feelings for you?I really seriously want to marry you after your Ida period "asked Marcell solemnly

"honestly I feel everything, brother, but sorry, brother, I really can't"

"give me one reason to accept your decision" said Marcell slowly by trying to regulate the taste

"does we need a reason"

"yes I need the reason"

"a.a I u" said Tiara stuttering.

"i what's Tiara?"

"i'm pregnant sister now and I don't want to get in trouble because I'm better from now on we stay away" she said, bowing her head

tiara looked up at Marcell's face

"i'll accept you too with your son.I'll love him even I'll consider the boy my own son Tiara regardless of who his father is. even I will never mind the words of others that are important to me is my family accept your situation, it is enough for me. I can't keep other people's mouths shut one by one but there's still God who knows the truth and that's enough for me"

"please understand me" Tiara said with tears streaming down her cheeks

"don't cry I can't see your tears, Tiara I beg you to give me one chance to make sure that I'm really sincere to you" Marcell said, holding Tiara's hand

"sister" he said as he pulled his hand

"sorry Tiara if I'm sassy"

"not what brother"

"Tiara please give me a chance "

"but brother I'm afraid that later I will be your wife and have children with you, brother will change with my son and I don't want that to happen so please look for another woman "

"if because of your fear about the child you're carrying I promise I won't have enough of this child to be our child, I'll pour out my love for your son even if you don't believe me I'll have a vasectomy so you don't get pregnant again"

"but brother"

"please give Tiara a chance" said Marcell pleading and from the look of his eyes radiated love for Tiara

"it is fine that our brother lives according to His will but I cannot promise anything because the promise is a debt, and I do not want to be charged later by God"

"yes, thank you Tiara"

"same-sama brother"

Tiara went from that place to musola to perform prayers. Marcell saw Tiara's back walking away

"i'll prove to you Tiara that I love you sincerely"

"o Allah give me the opportunity to be with Tiara, allow us to complement each other and allow me to mate with Tiara and may we be together towards the realm of Mu, she's a good woman who deserves to be happy "

kania overhears their conversation and Kania does not understand why Tiara can reject Marcell even though many women want to be loved by Marcell. even himself also wanted to be like that but unfortunately from the first time working not a bit Marcell glanced at him even the attitude of Marcell famous cuek will only talk as necessary differently after there was Tiara even Marcell also often smiled more attention to their employees.

Tiara prayed as usual and after she read the Koran to calm her heart, she was confused as to how, wanting to get away from this city and live enough with herself and her child but remembering that Selly was so fond of her that Tiara finally surrendered to God asking for guidance for the best path she had to do