My husband's cousin

Chapter 5

   If he thinks I'm wrong, why isn't he advising gently as usual? Why did he choose to take me to my father's house? Is this the attitude of a husband when annoyed at his wife? Or is it because there is another woman who means more to her eyes? Is it because of this that he could throw away his own wife? 

     I got up from the bed to the bathroom. Wash your face and hair so that the head cools again. 

   So this is what it wants? He wants to return me to my father after all these years I learned to accept his presence as a husband? 

  Ok. If this is what he wants, I'll follow it. I don't want to look weak in front of him. I'm not that weak!

  Get out of the bathroom, I see he's not in the room. Maybe downstairs, maybe he's warming up the car to get me. Alright. I won't ask him to keep me. Because I still have my pride!

  I pulled a suitcase from the side of the closet. Then stack one by one clothes from the closet into the pink suitcase. 

  Dew reappears and accumulates in the corner of the eye. Until finally it turns into a hardened speck. Occasionally rough cuttings with the back of the hand. Damnit damnit! Why is it getting faster?

   One by one, shadows flashed in memory. It was as if the projector was twisting scene after scene of a past time. 

Everything that happens between us. The ridiculous incident and everything we had been through together made my chest even more crowded. 

 My body began to tremble with sobs even though I tried to relieve it but could not. The more I held back the more I claustrophobic I allowed myself to cry as I pleased. 

  Head back throbbing pain. Dizziness and nausea strike simultaneously. Either my stomach acid is relapsing or this is because of the cold due to long flushing in the bathroom earlier. 

  "Sir, why did you bring this much clothing? We don't want to go on vacation anymore, Dek!" the bass suddenly came out of the door. Ignored him. 

  

  "Well, why cry? Why else, this?" tanyanya while reaching for my hand that is still busy moving clothes. 

I brushed it off rudely. 

 "Dec? Why else, anyway?" ask again. Now he grabbed both my shoulders and sat me in bed. While he knelt before me holding both my hands. 

 I turned my face away from him. No more staring at him. It still hurts to remember how much he would throw me away. 

"Darling, say brother, Dek. Why are you again? Why are these clothes in all the suitcases? Where are you going?" gently persuade. 

 But that only made my sobs worse. I get so excited in front of him. 

  "Dek, say the same brother. Why are you packing something like this? You want to leave brother?" insistence back. 

 "Isn't it Brother who wants to throw Adis away? Brother wants to take Adis to dad's house, right? My brother has changed now! For the sake of another woman you must throw away your own wife. Abang outrageous! Hiks," I'm rambling. 

Bang Danil frowned looking at me with a confused face. 

 "What the hell are you talking about, Dek? Who wants to throw you out? What are you throwing away?" talk about it while joking. Not funny!

 "Not funny!" irked me. 

I was just about to get up and carry on putting the clothes into the suitcase when he got up and is now sitting next to me. 

 "You never had such bad intentions, Adis. You know even your little brother already loves you very much. Otherwise, how could you possibly persuade all of our families to marry us off? All because my brother loves you. Always looking after and protecting you. How could you think that?" his words are full of tenderness. 

 I looked back at his two brownish black beads. There is honesty there. 

 "Why did you say you wanted to send Adis to my dad's house?" I asked among the sobs that were still as they pleased. 

 "Who said he wanted to send you? My brother said we were going to your parents' house. Not to send you!" again trying to convince me. Still with a soft voice like that. 

 "Why go to Dad's house?" ask again. 

 "Have you forgotten the big family gathering schedule? Now it's your father's turn. That's why I told you to get ready." 

"Huh?" 

I remember all that. Slowly my crying subsided. So that's why he told me to get ready? 

 "You forgot for sure, huh?" goda. 

He wiped my tears that bathed both cheeks. Then rubbed my hair before finally grabbing me in his arms. 

"Never think about it, Adis. How could you possibly ignore you for the sake of others?"

 I stuck it back in his chest. I'm really scared of losing him. For me, he is my hope for the future. I loved him since childhood. And now that affection turned into love since Ijab said from his lips. 

 "Dear baby Adis?" many doubt. Yeah, I've been doubting her feelings ever since I saw that woman. 

 "Yes, definitely, Deck. It's really you!" 

He held his forehead close to my forehead until our eyebrows clashed.

 "I'm sorry that what you're doing sometimes makes you uncomfortable, Dek. Brother doesn't want to lose you. That's why it's overprotiv. None other than the greatest love for you" he whispered solemnly, which made the corner of my eye wet again. 

  "There is no other woman who attracts your brother but you. You're just from before. Can't you figure that out?" 

  I shakes honestly. Yeah, I don't know how deep she felt about me all this time. I dare not feel her feelings either. I'm afraid I'm guessing too much. Afraid of finally getting disappointed. 

  "Now get ready, yeah. Don't let us be late to gather it. It's not funny the same daughter-in-law who actually arrived late!" again, she said with the sweetest smile. 

 I pushed him tight. No matter what he thinks. What is clear is that right now I just want to be in his arms for as long as I can. 

 

  "Hug it and connect later, yeah! Pity your father for waiting for us. Go home from there you can continue to hug as much. More than a hug is also okay," his god as he chuckled. Makes my face warm up from puffiness. 

 I immediately took off his embrace and then just passed by. Hiding my face that might already be as red as a field sauce crab. 

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