My husband cheated on me

regret Dimas

Dimas was silent watching Nisa search for the missing part of his phone, especially when Nisa squatted looking at her phone with her back to him, a feeling of guilt suddenly enveloped his mind, but he was still with his ego.

"Eat it don't dare to be with the husband, that's what it will be" tried to warn Nisa.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim," again Nisa uttered the phrase istighfar hearing the words of Dimas who never wanted to admit his mistake.

Nisa also chose to leave in front of Dimas. He thought, "It's just fine that if the fight is continued, Dimas would never want to admit wrong."

Nisa stepped outside towards Haifa's room, without a word coming out of her mouth.

But when Nisa wants to leave the room, Dimas intercepts her asking Nisa to continue his wish, grabbing Nisa's hand and making her stop from his steps, now Nisa is right in front of Dimas.

"Where are you going? our business is not done yet, let's finish it! what do you want now?"

Nisa turned her face away, as if she no longer wanted to see the face of Dimas who made her sprain.

Whether there is still an apology or not, just seeing her husband it feels like he no longer wants to be at that time.

Hate, Sickness, Compassion, Anger, Disgust, all he felt.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim, what the hell mas!"

Nisa tried to jerk at Dimas's grasp which was so strong that she clasped his hand.

"Well, I don't want anything, I'm tired of fighting, but you're broken, you're satisfied now?" firmly Nisa with her soft voice, mimic her face looks resigned, she tried to release the grasp of Dimas from her hands.

Slowly Dimas let go of his grasp and let Nisa go.

But now inevitably he had to accept the anger of his wife.

He went back to bed, laid his body, put one hand on his forehead and tried to close his eyes with his thoughts.

Because he felt unable to sleep, he grabbed his phone open and find out the status of Fira in Wa, because he knew Fira liked to publish his status, such as: What? In Where? Together Who? he always kept it in Wa.

Nisa who was in Haifa's room with her cry that she could not bear anymore, when she looked at her broken phone, the hurt feeling when remembering the incident, made her tears not stop flowing.

He thought, It was Fira who made them quarrel, It felt like he was cursing Fira over the phone right then and there, But in his little heart he could not, a lot of consideration in his heart, he said, there will be consequences if he does that.

It was that feeling that made him unable to do anything.

Just saying the word istighfar over and over again, that was all he could do now.

"astaghfirullahaladzim, astaghfirullahaladzim, astaghfirullahaladzim, while touching his chest.

Looking at his daughter who was already sound asleep, made him unable to stop crying.

"No, I can't keep crying" she murmured while wiping away her dry tears.

it is not that we are not allowed to grieve and cry excessively" he said

Nisa also took Wudhu, performing night prayers/Tahajud, actually this is not often he did but because his state of mind is not because of him this is the only way he must do, he said, he hoped that God would guide him.

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