My father-in-law Kang Setur
MKA 23'S
Time passed by so quickly, the rich man just yesterday I gave birth to Zavier. Just yesterday Zavier and I were both fighting to bring him into the world. It didn't feel like it had been a year. Yes, today is his first birthday.
A few days ago, it made me laugh in tears. At that time I was proposing to make a small party, I was a new mother and I was like other mothers who wanted to hold a celebration even though it was not luxurious.
~Flashback~
"Ma, Dhira wants to talk." I purposely spoke like that in front of everyone, this was not all my wits because the one who told me was my own husband.
"Yes, just say it!"
"And soon Zavier's birthday, Dhira wants to have a small party. Can you, right?"
"Darling children, yes dear children, but do not use wasteful everything!"
"But this is rarely Ma, even this is his first time."
"Not bother, bother."
"If you feed the orphans, what about Ma?"
"It's up to you, man
Your own money ... Erroneous, meaning your husband's money."
I could only reply with a bitter smile, "All right, Ma."
Mama Rima kept seeing me making me feel uneasy, as I looked back at Mama Rima to take her eyes off me. "What's up, Ma?" I deliberately asked directly, Mama Rima looks panicked at this time.
"Oh this, you bought 'the other children snacks. Neighbors here must be happy it's in the snacks' love."
I smiled faintly, it turned out that was what Mama Rima meant at this moment. "Yes, Dhira will buy."
"You bought it? Mama's coming!"
"Yes, Ma." I reply kindly, this is for my son's happy day and I have to be patient with it. I lyrics Mas Rayyan at a glance, it turns out he gave a thumbs up to me.
In the afternoon we went shopping, I wrote a lot about what I would buy. But the old incident repeated again, Mama Rima' is the one who set everything up. He took whatever he wanted, he also had time to ask which choice I was, I shook my head so that Mama Rima would choose everything.
For the umpteenth time I have to give up, I want it to feel like I am participating but the choice of Mama Rima has been very much even beyond the limits I have prepared. My mind wonders why it's this much? Wasn't I told to irit? Want to laugh but it hurts, want to cry but want to laugh.
~Flashback Off~
Neighboring children around the house invited us to cut the cake together. The children sang a happy birthday song, all looking happy. And so did Zavier, my son giggled at the sight of his friends singing. What's more, when he blew out the candle, Zavier looked very happy.
Cut the cake
Cut the cake
Cut the cake
Right now
Right now
Right now
Zavier looked at me and Mas Rayyan alternately, "Son, who's the first bribe for?" asked Rayyan gently.
Zavier picked up his spoon and came closer to me, "For Mother .." said Zavier making my eyes sparkle, I smiled and nodded.
"Eitz! Just yummy. To Oma dong, dear ..." Mama Rima said suddenly. He pointed Zavier's hand at his mouth.
Zavier flinched in surprise, he glanced at me for a moment. I gestured with a nod of my head, after which Zavier smiled making the pain in my heart go away as his smile treated everything.
The event at home was over, the children had returned to their homes with a paper bag containing snacks, drinks and fried rice that I had just cooked this morning. After this, Mas Rayyan and I wanted to deliver some of the groceries that we were going to deliver to some orphanages. All the things that you want to bring are already in the car, Zavier is also already in the car because my baby likes to play in the car.
"Are you leaving?" ask Mama Rima.
"Yes, Ma." Sahut Mas Rayyan's.
"Just a second!" tell Mama Rima, I'm confused now, but Mas Rayyan said Mama Rima did not want to come.
Soon Mama Rima approached us, "Yuk!" said.
"Loh, Mama's coming?" I asked spontaneously.
"Yes, why? not happy with you?"
I sighed, "It's not so, Ma. Yesterday, my mom said she didn't want to come!"
"As for Mama'lah, why are you so cranky."
Mas Rayyan immediately glanced at me, he shook his head in a sign that I should be quiet and patient, I nodded obediently. Zavier, just for Zavier I did this.
On the way a loud voice was heard because Mama Rima sang the song 'Glass glass', her loud voice that made Zavier cry. Because it turns out that singing is Mama Rima's pent-up talent and should continue in pendam. Zavier kept crying while Mama Rima was still singing.
"Ma, Rayyan's son is crying. Rayyan's song is over!" mas Rayyan said very carefully.
"And there's his mama, he's got to be good at 'he persuaded his son." Mama Rima's answer made me more emotional, if she was my sister, I'd have her hair all out.
"Oh yes, later that comes down Mama yes. You're in the car, Dhira. What else if your son cries."
"But Dhira has the intention to pray for Dhira's son, Ma."
"Tell me Mama, that's why I'm bothering."
"I ___ yes."
I didn't feel my tears coming back, I felt like I was competing with my mother-in-law. Though all this time I really appreciate it, every day my mind continues to wonder what is my fault? Why would my in-laws do that to me?
