My ex-Maji
Peace
Shenna opened her eyes, she fumbled to her side. It seems to have become a habit of looking for a husband figure who has not slept in bed with him for 1 month, and it has become a habit of also being forgetful that Dyoza has been sleeping on the sofa for 1 month.
She went out of her sleep, preparing breakfast for her husband. After thinking last night she would be a wife who would serve the husband, not only eating, drinking, preparing clothes, but giving the husband rights as well. Yep! shena's gonna give it to him.
He realized Dyoza's attitude always makes him anxious all this time, even last night he really felt slapped with the speech of dyoza.
He realizes he loves Dyoza just that his fear overcame his love for Dyoza.
After helping Hanum's aunt prepare breakfast, Shenna returned to the room to build a husband who was still sound in his sleep.
"Dyoza, wakeup!." Shenna's whisper
"Dyoza let's get up, time for breakfast!."
Not getting an answer, Shenna stared at the calm handsome face while sleeping.
"Dyoza, will you wake up ?."
"Hmmm."
Dyoza just slurped lazily, really he was very sleepy.
"Do you want to bring breakfast to the room ?."
"No need, I'll wake up." Speak with a hoarse voice.
"Come on, I'll wait downstairs."
"He'em."
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Dyoza returned to the room after breakfast, today he wants to laze around in the room. His body was very tired, he wanted to relax his body all day.
"Dyoza are you sick ?."
"No!."
"Then why did you go back into the room ?."
"Why indeed ? Problem ?."
"Why do you always sniff at me ?."
"Why ? problem ?."
"Dyoza, I'm serious! Don't act like that."
"Who are you to arrange me ?."
"I'M YOUR WIFE!!!." Shenna's voice pressed
"why yell ? I'm not deaf."
"Dyoza why do you really suck ?."
Shenna pulled Dyoza's shirt roughly, accidentally tearing Dyoza's thin pajamas.
"Ah Dyoza, a, I. I'm sorry."
"You!!!!!!! You're a monster, aren't you ? my clothes are torn like this." Shouts Dyoza frustrated
"I didn't mean it, I'm sorry!."
"It's my favorite pajamas, Oh God what's my sin too much ?."
"Well, dear pyjamas, since when is Dyoza this sweet ?".
"I was completely unintentional, sorry! don't be mad."
"It was my grandmother's gift when I was in high school, it's the only thing I had with her."
"It deserves to be so small, but still in use "
"Dyoza I beg you not to be angry, I really did not intentionally."
"Get out! I don't want to see your face today."
Shenna rounded her eyes, she was so shocked by what Dyoza just said.
"You, you kicked me out just because I tore your pajamas ? ma, I mean it's because I didn't mean it."
"You know intentionally or unintentionally these pajamas have been torn."
Dyoza went into the wardrobe, not knowing what she was going to do, shenna just stared at her husband's back. He did not expect Dyoza to be that angry at him.
He approached Dyoza hesitantly, he would persuade Dyoza to forgive him.
"Dyoza."
"Why still here, go there!."
"Dyoza I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to tear off your favorite pajamas. Trust me!."
"I'm tired of your apologies, Shenna."
"I'm really sorry, anyways since when did you have a favorite thing ?."
Dyoza came out wearing only her pajamas with an irritated face.
Shenna fell silent, as if Dyoza's words were so silencing her mouth. Dyoza was right, during the marriage shenna never asked what Dyoza likes and what Dyoza does not like, even shenna did not know what Dyoza feels right now.
"Have you noticed my habit once ? Do you know now that I'm exhausted ? Shenna I know my mistake was so great to you, but did you just give me a little chance to fix everything ?."
"I married you because I love you, not just to make amends for you."
Dyoza sat leaning against the wall, grabbing her hair with both hands. It seems Dyoza is not able to face shena, actually not because of the problem of his pajamas torn Dyoza this angry. But, indeed he had long harbored resentment towards Shenna because of his attitude especially not to touch her.
Who can not touch a wife, let alone they can be said to be a newlywed. Dyoza is a normal male, though he promises not to touch without his wife's permission but until when shenna won't allow it."
"Dyoza." Shenna crouched right beside Dyoza. "I'm sorry, I accidentally tore your pajamas."
"So you think I'm this angry just because of a pajama ?." Dyoza said softly, he looked straight ahead without looking back.
"I...
"Shenna, what do you think I am exactly ?."
"Dyoza."
"ANSWER!!!!." Jerky Dyoza
Shenna jumped up, only this time Dyoza snapped at her. Shenna's legs felt limp, finally she sat down with her face down.
Then he began to say softly withstanding the pain that he had been suffering all this time.
"You know Dyoza, during High School when I started loving you, started wanting you, started trying to believe in men but instead you brought it all down. You know why I always don't serve those who try to get close to me ? Because I don't want to give them the slightest gap to get a chance."
"You're the one who's always attentive, gives me chocolate, knows all about me, I was so happy. I really feel loved, not because I am beautiful and rich. But, I feel like you're more like you just want to get my attention without you asking.
"Even every time you wanted to take me home and I refused you weren't angry, you just smiled and said "I'll wait until you want to". You know Dyoza ? It took me a long time to open the door of my heart to convince myself to accept you. In this world it's only the father I trust and it's been growing since I was a child."
"When I started trusting you at that moment I was disappointed, you just made me a bet. You played me, even you proudly admit it in front of everyone, even the ones I saw you feel great at the time."
"You know that time I completely closed my heart, I wouldn't believe anyone. Even I wish I'd never see you again."
"I don't want to hate but I'm just a human being, Dad always said life would be peaceful if we didn't hate. I always try to be someone who always accepts what I go through, for example being a waiter at your house, serving a man who once played me, do you think I'm strong ? No Dyoza! I'm weak, I'm just a woman who's never disappointed."
"So, am I wrong to doubt you right now ?".
Dyoza turned his head and looked softly at Shenna's eyes, she was completely selfish. It turned out that all this time his treatment was so imprinted in Shenna's heart, even he lived peacefully without any burden.
"Have you not forgiven all my foolish treatment of you Shenna ?."
"I've forgiven you. But the nail that stuck in the wall if it was removed did not die of the former ?."
Dyoza took a deep breath, he really felt slapped with all the explanations shenna.During this he always thought of himself, he never asked about shenna even though it was just the word "You're okay ?" Yep! these are simple words but will be meaningful to someone who needs attention.
Dyoza pulled shenna and hugged her tightly, she inhaled the scent of Shenna's body which was very soothing to her.
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. All this time I only saw your situation from the outside, I was insensitive to your heart. I beg shena forgive me."
The defense that shena had been building had finally collapsed, she was crying so much in the arms of the husband. It really brought out all the sadness he had been trying to reconcile for years. She wants to be free from worry, she wants to be free from fear, she wants to be a woman who will believe in the man who is now her husband.
Dyoza tightened his arms, kissing the top of Shenna's head and gently stroking Shenna's hair. He was truly sorry for treating Shenna so badly.
He let Shenna cry in his arms until satisfied, Dyoza really just wanted shena to feel relieved.
Long enough shena cried until shenna finally calmed down a little, Dyoza stretched her arms and looked at shenna. He tidied up Shenna's messy hair.
"It's quiet ?." Her speech is soft
Shenna nodded and looked down, clearly her eyes were swollen.
"Shenna by God I apologize to you, forgive all your mistakes, even forgive all the events today. Let's make peace, let's start from scratch, let me love you, love you, treat you well, make you the only woman I will always be happy with. I beg you to accept that I will be the husband who will be responsible for anything."
Shenna looked at Dyoza and kept silent for a while, Dyoza just waiting for the answer shena would give her, she was ready to accept whatever shena answered.
Dyoza smiled happily as shena nodded with great confidence. Finally Dyoza hugged Shenna again tightly, he kissed Shenna on the forehead and this was the first time they became husband and wife.
Feelings of relief, haru, happy now they feel. It seemed like the defense that Shenna had built that had made Shenna uneasy was simply gone. Yep! he should be able to really make peace with the past not just on the lips, and now he should give Dyoza a chance.
"Dyoza."
"Yes ?." Dyoza took off her arms staring at shenna
"I'm sorry, I accidentally tore your beloved pajamas."
Dyoza smiled and pulled Shenna back into his arms.
"Bas stupid, still thinking that."
"That's your favorite pajama." Shenna laughed a little
"Don't make fun of me!!!."
"You said that."
"Shut up or I bite."
"Heheheye yes I'm silent."
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