My Beloved's Choice Woman

Not Loving you

***

"Lie, where are you from?" ask Zello.

"Zello, are you home? I need to be the same friend. Been home long ?"

Veron sat on the living room couch, looking at the clock in his hand, at two in the afternoon.

"About ten o'clock. Your phone's off, I'm calling Grandpa they said you weren't there."

"Yes, I didn't go there. I met an old friend earlier." Since his departure with Desy earlier, Veron felt a little relieved, especially after seeing Desy singing rich man possessed there. That makes him a little entertained.

"Have you not eaten. I'll ...."

"What will?" Zello put a smile on his lips.

"Will cook for you."

"really?"

"Yes .. but I'm confused what to cook," said Veron with a red face.

"Yes, I know," Zello said with a small laugh. Zello looked at Veron's activities in silence. Remembering what happened earlier this morning, his expression of feelings were indirect. 'Does he understand what I mean?'

"You don't usually go home yet." Veron.

"Kan, I told you I'd finish it soon." Zello went to the kitchen and opened the fridge. "There's nothing" Zello said.

"Hehehe, you always don't have time for breakfast. So ...."

"No time to cook." Error Zello.

"Yes yes. I was wrong." Veron said later.

"Just be careful." Zello's Advice.

"You always leave early, how can I cook yesterday."

"Yes, who's wrong with you. Go, delevery! I'm hungry." Zello smiled funnyly laughing at Veron.

Hearing Zello's words, Veron stepped into the room.

"Where are you going?" ask Zello.

"Delevery. My phone's running out of battery." Veron answered without stopping his steps.

Upon reaching the room, Veron realized that Zello had entered his room and was already sitting on the bed.

"What message do you want?" ask Veron.

"Anything, as always."

"OK."

It didn't take long for Veron to place an order, which he then put his phone on again.

"Let's get out, we'll wait in front" Veron said.

"Here first!" Zello patted the bed, so Veron would sit next to him.

Veron's heart flowered a little at Zello's request, but he did not forget to give Zello a little distance.

Veron sat on the lip of the bed right next to Zello.

"Zello."

The slight pressure on Veron's chest that Zello exerted left Veron's body lying, with legs dangling.

Stare at each other in positions both lying down. Slowly gently, Zello gave a caress to Veron's face that was still stunned.

"I miss you" said Zello quietly.

It felt like Veron wanted to rebel which he was feeling. A beautiful feeling mixed with sadness. Veron swallowed his saliva heavily and tried to wake up from his sleep.

Hugging it warmly and with passion.

"Zello," elak Veron by giving Zello's body a boost.

"Why? Didn't I say this morning. Don't you understand everything I'm saying?" ask Zello gently.

"Mm me .. I want to live our lives as usual, nothing more, Zello."

"Are you still a lover?"

"No. Yes," said Veron was wrong.

"No or yes? You said you'd end it."

"Zello. I want to live my personal life the way I want."

"What kind of life? I'll give it to you."

"No, Zello. You don't understand what I mean." Veron got up from his sleep and sat on the lip of the bed.

"How do I understand." Zello sat down to follow Veron.

Veron sat down slightly with the clenched fingers he had hidden behind his clothes, covering up his uncomfortable feelings. "Zello, you speak so only to satisfy your own heart, without wanting to know my heart first. As if we had the same taste."

Veron's gentle yet capable speech made Zello smile wryly. Veron's reddened face could every soft caress from him, Veron's face that met with red shame when he said the sweet word, Veron's face reddened by being ignorant of him. Salahkah, Zello thought, if his wife also keeps the taste for him.

Zello looked at Veron with an erratic feeling. "Continue!" zello said with a feeling of not knowing the direction.

"I ..-"

"Look at me!"

Highlight the sharp eyes of Zello that Veron had just seen, made his heart stop beating for a moment. "I don't love you" Veron said softly. "Sorry, Zello. But that's the truth." Imbuh Veron by staring at the Zello bead.

With disappointed eyes, Zello stared at the old Veron in silence. "All right," Zello finally said.

Zello walked out of Veron's room. Leaning on the back of his living room sofa. Before long, Veron sat next to him awkwardly.

The two sat together dissolved in the silence they had just felt for the first time. A rumbling feeling that they could only utter in silence.

After their meal, Zello ate it. "You only order one" said Zello.

"Yes, spend! I'm full" said Veron slowly.

Zello's mouth activity stopped for a moment when Veron said. Usually they will spend one serving along with sweet.

"Drink!" pinta Zello's. And get some sodoran to drink from Veron.

Zello put down his food, and immediately stood up to move.

"Zello, your food is not finished yet" Veron said.

"I'm full. I want to rest first" said Zello flatly. And just continue his steps.

Veron who lived alone there let out a long sigh. Veron encourages himself, that he is capable and gradually Zello will return to the way he was, being sweet as necessary to him.

On the other hand, Zello who was already in his room immediately lay with his eyes closed, even so his mind could not stay still. What's he doing now? His family loved Veron very much. His heart? His heart throbbed in pain remembering Veron's words earlier. But Veron's shadow of a smile and his potent attitude shut the pain down. Especially for him, from the beginning of their marriage is not a game. The deal never existed either. He couldn't give up just like that, right?

***

(Night)

After dinner, like an ordinary friend. They went straight into their rooms. Veron who was in the room in a bad mood, in contrast to Zello who busied himself with the laptop he was holding on to.

The night is getting late, it has managed to bring Veron into the dream world. Zello just finished his job.

As if returning to the initial struggle, Zello headed to Veron's room with a slow pace. Because Zello feels, he will be rejected if Veron realizes his presence.

Arriving in front of Veron's room, Zello also swooped the door handle slowly. Trying not to make the sound of locking hendle, and after so trying to open slowly, but Veron's door could not be opened. In fact, he has added pressure in the handle but the result is the same.

Zello's hand clenched tightly can be rejected so far. Standing in front of Veron's room with a rumbling feeling, and not long left Veron's room with a throbbing heart of pain.