Mom 16 Th

Alzelina Outpouring

I spent time with Raska that day.

it is true to feel calm and happy. I feel like this is what his name is in love with. How good God is to give love to his people.

Raska was a man who always held my hand like he was afraid to part with me.

Raska and I went through a lot of time obstacles that became a problem. Because I was a teenager, Raska understood that sometimes my thinking was still unstable.

He guided me to be better, taught me what it means to have God-given time to be used for good.

We pass semester after semester together.mid exams or regular study semester exams.

all the time we lived was very valuable that time.2 more years we clasped each other until he finally left because of me.

I hate the Albareck family, he's after me but he killed my girlfriend.

I won't let them live with fun. I'll avenge everything.

Raska got shot for covering my body.

the bullet went in and hit his heart, Raska was taken to Japan and it turns out that the doctor who said was smart could not save him.

I was disappointed in everyone at the time. I don't want to see anyone after Raska's funeral anymore. I hate everything that happens to me.

I was supposed to graduate with Raska. Raska promised to take me back to the Netherlands, Raska promised to hold my hand and not let me go. Many promises that have been said by Raska but he could not realize.

I feel almost crazy because I live in Raska. I want it back. I couldn't even see him one last time because I was saved when I came home from Japan.

Raska's wounds and sorrows have not dried up yet, I have a new wound.

Brother Lia, my foster sister is now sprawled dying from my kelalaia as well.

I feel useless now.

I feel like everyone close to me has been hit.

I don't know what causes Lia's sister to think so short.Atau I'm Lia's sister is a very patient woman. It can't be as reckless as it is today.

I feel like there's something that makes Ka Lia do it all. But who? I didn't even know Lia's sister had friends. Why all mysteries are just puzzles.

I'm not that smart, so I can always answer the puzzles I've been prepared for. I'm just a normal human being trying to take all the wounds. Until the moment I can no longer stand on my feet.

I don't know how much more suffering I'll get, my shoulder that's solid now has begun to wobble and collapse. I have no more reason to stay put when a strong storm comes again tomorrow.

I started giving up, giving up everything God said was destiny. The bad destiny that comes along constantly keeps me company now. I no longer want to fight, I will walk according to the plot. If I fall, I will not rise again, if I sink I will not rise again to the surface.

I'm so giving up.