Missing Voice Azhan

Love because of God

Akia glanced at the figure of the man standing beside her without intending to greet her. His lips were silent but his heart beat rumbled again. The feelings of his heart were mixed into one, between joy, pain and disappointment. He himself was confused as to why with his heart.

"I'm glad I finally got to meet you. You've changed so much." Azriel broke the silence between them.

"Ekhem.sorry Mr. Azriel I don't think you deserve to be here. I do not want to cause any bad slander between us, given your status that will soon be married. So I thought..."

"Is my status more important than your feelings for me ?" Cut Azriel with a look of dislike as the girl next to him uttered a word she did not want.

"Sorry, I just don't want to make your future wife feel like there's anything between us." His speech was soft but could still be heard clearly in Azriel's ear.

Meanwhile Azriel could only sigh and exhale slowly. The corner of his eyes glanced at Akia who seemed to wipe both his arms as the wind that blew grew colder.

"You never change, you always feel strong-witted when the reality is not." Grunts him while taking off his jacket and then put it on the girl.

Akia was surprised by Azriel's actions, but the girl remained silent with both her eyes fixed on the man.

But a second later Akia lowered her head as she realized Azriel's cold and indifferent attitude towards her. For some reason in her heart the girl felt ill with Azriel's cold demeanor.

Both of them back in silence, at war with each other's feelings.

"You know I'm getting married, even I plan to get married tomorrow and that's right here at Daarul Mukminin's ponpes." Azriel's words again made Akia flinch. " But I'm confused..."

Akia turned her head with a frown, feeling confused by the words of the man beside her. Feeling noticed Azriel only smiled, a smile that the girl had always missed.

"Yes, I'm confused about my future wife. Whether she deserves me to marry, is she perfect to be my wife, because I want a proper and perfect woman to be my wife. I don't want to regret it later." His words were instantly getting a fierce shot from Akiia.

"Why did you do that ? Do you feel perfect yourself ? Just so you know there is no perfect human being in the eyes of God, everything is the same. Humans are created with the advantages and disadvantages of each, that is so that fellow partners can complement each other. Why do you expect someone who is perfect when obviously nothing is perfect on this earth ?" His touch was hard without realizing that Azriel's innuendo was fixed for him.

"Then what about yourself ? Do you feel fit and perfect to be my wife ? Didn't I say that I accept all your flaws because I'm not a perfect human being ? I always wait for that answer from you."

Akiia paled her memory drifting towards three years ago when she rejected the man in front of her because she felt she was inappropriate for the man. The girl reflexively retreated with her body shaking violently. Even his tears had appeared to flow in both ripens.

Azriel who saw Akia's body shaking violently looked a little panicked. It felt like he grabbed the little body, took it into his arms.

"I-i..."

"Then do you feel worthy now ? You made my heart ache because of your rejection back then. You don't know how sad I am when I can't keep you company through your tough day. I feel like a useless man. Letting the one I love suffer alone." Her speech was sad which made Akia feel even more guilty.

"Sorry.." He said, only an apology he could say.

"Not enough apologies to make up for your mistake. You should be punished for all your mistakes. And I made sure this time I'd never let you go back."

Akia gawked, this man returned to being an annoying figure, always doing his best. Though just now his heart felt touched because of the man's words, but again his words disperse his admiration.

Just now he made my feelings float, but suddenly he dropped it back. I regret that I admired him. The grunt in the heart.

"Yes." Call slowly. " Whether this is wrong or right, or is this a rush, but I don't want to lose you anymore. It's been enough all this time that you've been away from me."

Akia looked at the confused man who was currently crouching right in front of her. He looked at Azriel's face carefully, then turned to a small red box in his hand.

"Akia Syakayla Khanza, will you be together with me through a beautiful day together. Both of us perfected our religion in a holy promise of marriage. Complete my ribs and be a mother to my children ?" Azriel said with a very charming smile.

Akia covered her wide-open mouth with tears already flowing. Can't believe the surprise that came from the man. Will he be happy or confused with Azriel's proposal.

"Yes.." Call her again while the girl is still daydreaming. " I'm tired of squatting for long." His complaint signals.

Akiia regained her senses and chuckled softly, still with tears inviting the river, the girl slowly nodded her head. He had already steadied his heart, this time there was no longer any doubt. He fully believed in the figure of the man who was currently crouching before him.

Azriel breathed a sigh of relief as if the burden that had been stuck had disappeared. Slowly the man stood up, relaxing his slightly stiff muscles from the long crouching earlier.

"See, sorry I can't put this ring on directly. You don't mind, do you ?" His words by scratching his nape that does not itch.

Akia smiled wryly, then grabbed the ring box from Azriel's hand. Now his eyes were wide open as he stared at the red-eyed diamond ring that looked extremely beautiful.

"This.to me ?" Ask who was taken head by Azriel. " But it must be very expensive. I wasn't..."

"It's not worth wearing it, is it ?" Cut Azriel fast which instantly made akia speechless.

"Until when will you feel that you are inferior and do not deserve what is right for you ?"

"Sorry." He said softly, then immediately put on the ring in his sweet finger.

The sudden silent atmosphere both dissolved in each other's minds. I don't know why the situation has turned awkward.

"Yes."

"Mas."

They looked at each other for a while and laughed together. Funny with each other's behavior.

"You call me mas ?" Azriel asked with a small smile on her lips.

"I just want to be polite, however you are my future priest." Say it with a red face.

I've decided to stop going so far, what I've been looking for in the end is you. Thank you for giving me such beautiful love. I accept you because of God, I love you because of God. It is God who unites us, and I pray that God will separate us until death.

TB