Missing Voice Azhan

The direction of God came so beautiful

I want to make me worthy of you

Azriel was still pensive, the words the girl spoke repeatedly flashed in her head. Just one sentence but made the man feel flowering flowers. It was as if the world was filled with blossoming flowers, that was the picture of his heart at this moment.

Astarghfirullah's..He murmured slowly in his heart. Saying Istighfar many times when awakened with his seagrass. The man rubbed his face violently. But the girl's words re-echoed in her head.

He took his phone and looked at the face of Akia who became a wallpaper on his phone. She smiled faintly as she felt her heart thumping even though she was just staring at the photo of the girl.

Yes, if you really want to make you worthy of me, then I will be happy to always wait for the moment when you become halal for me. Although I have to wait for you for a thousand years, I will still do it. As per your promise and wishes from now on I will not bother you or call you.

Azriel recalled the girl's words a moment ago before she finally decided to leave the girl there.

The Flashback

"Go." Akia said softly while looking at Azriel's face that looks close to her.

"Give me a reason why I should get out of here. For almost a whole month, I've been relentless looking for you. I was crazy when I couldn't find you. I admit you're so smart to hide, but God still loves me. And after I finally found you how could I let you go ? Don't you know how worried I am hmm ?" Azriel said at length, there is sadness that is clearly heard in each sentence.

Akia was stunned, trying to digest what the man in front of her meant. His face instantly turned pale as he came to his senses with the intent of Azriel's words.

"You..

"I love you, Shay. Can't you understand also by the meaning of my words ?"

"I-i.ca..."

"Never say that word, because I think it hurts so much to hear. Whatever your circumstances, I will accept you with sincerity. There is no perfect man on this earth, nor am I even the perfect man you imagined. There are so many flaws in me, and I will make us complete each other with these flaws. I beg you to come home, and let's talk about this at home." Take it slow and heart.

Akiia fell silent then shook her head slowly.

"I can't Riel." Lirih.

For the first time the girl mentioned the name of the man in front of her which made Azriel feel happy.

"Why Yes ? What makes you so bad that you don't want to go home ?"

"I'm currently undergoing therapy here. Besides, I want to study religion here because of me.." He said softly but stopped with his head bowed.

Azriel waited patiently for the girl's words, but in her heart the man looked anxious with Akia's behavior that looked cute and adorable to her.

"Because what is it ?"

"I want to make me deserve you."

Nyusss

That one sentence made Azriel's heart as if it had been doused with ice water. Cold and refreshing, even the man instantly froze as the sentence slid from the girl's lips. Although with a nervous tone and brick, but the sentence sounded very beautiful in his ears.

Azriel cleared her throat, trying to regain her feelings. The man stood up and put both his hands in his pants pocket.

"You don't have to do that, yes, if you want to learn, I'll be happy to help you. You don't have to go this far just to make you fit for me. I told you I accepted you sincerely no matter what your circumstances were."

Akiya turned around, trying to hide his already flowing tears.

"You don't understand my heart Riel. I beg you to go, I'm sorry I couldn't accept your call."

"I'll force you to go. If in a subtle way you do not want to obey my words, then with a heavy heart I will use a rough way to bring you back. It's enough you've gone far away and now it's time for you to go back home." Said firmly.

"And if you do that then all my life I will continue to hate you. Why don't you want to understand, please don't make me hate you because I can't live with hate in my heart all my life." He shouted at the man in front of him.

Azriel let out a breath that was too heavy for her to breathe. It was as if there was such a huge burden in his heart.

"Well, if that's what you want. I will never force you again. From now on I will never again disturb or contact you. Don't worry, I won't put my men to watch over you. Find a way that you can be worthy of me the way you want. Although I don't really want that, because after all there is no perfect human being in this world. Because perfection belongs only to God. I go and take good care of you. I'm sorry if I've been interrupting your precious time. Assalamualaikum."

After saying this, Azriel got into her car and drove her away at high speed. Leaving Akiia who was fixated and had not had time to reply to the man's words.

With tears breaking the girl stared at the car that was getting further and further away from her eyes. There was a feeling of unwillingness as the man left her, slowly the girl touched her chest which was aching and painful.

Sorry Riel I have to do this. If indeed we are destined to be a match, one day we will definitely be together. But if you don't I hope you can find a better girl than me.

The flashback

Akia stared at the thing that was on her lap with an erratic feeling. The object given by Ustazhah Syifa two days ago. It turned out that when he and Azriel were arguing, the woman was accidentally there and automatically heard their chat.

Ustazhah Syifa who was accidentally there felt a little bad because they had stolen the debate they both had. The intention of the woman initially wanted to give something to Akia, she had wanted to give it a meeting time yesterday, but the woman forgot her intention because there was a call of duty from the principal in the department.

Akia still clearly remembered the woman's words when she gave the object.

Try it then I'm sure you'll feel calm.

For two days the girl had locked herself in her room after her encounter with Azriel. The girl's feelings are swayed between her desires and her feelings. Worried about his decision. Whether the decision he made was right or wrong.

Long ago the girl looked at that thing, then after making up her mind slowly Akia tried it. Nervously Akia opened the door of her room and took her wheelchair out of the house. There was already Mr. Min who was faithfully waiting for him to undergo therapy.

"God is God.." Said Mr. Min with a happy face.

"Don't look at me like that, Akiia is embarrassed."

Mr. Min laughed then gently rubbed the girl's head.

"Why should I be ashamed, son, if I look beautiful like this. Let's get going, afraid of the heat if it's too late here." Said the middle-aged man then moving towards the back of Akia.

"Where is Umar sir ? Then Arfan ?"

"Abah has gone to the rice field, while Arfan has also gone to school, the father has brought him."

Akia nodded slowly then according as the man pushed his wheelchair slowly and heartily.

Not until ten minutes they were already in the boarding house Daarul Mukminin. The place where Akia underwent therapy with Ustazhah Syifa. Just like Mr. Min, the woman was amazed and happy when she saw the gadia.

"God willing, Subhanallah, you are beautiful." He spoke with sparkling eyes as he looked at the appearance of Akia who was covered with a robe and hijab that covered his entire body.

The woman even hugged Akia tightly, as if she was hugging her own child. Do not be afraid that the woman kissed Akiah's head with tenderness and love.

His heart was very happy with the change of the girl. The happier when Akia said softly.

"Sister, please help me to change, I want to study religion more deeply here. Is my sister willing to help me ?"

"God, Allahu Akbar. Of course you'll be happy to help." Reply with such a happy heart.

Thank God You have opened the heart of Akiia and given her such a beautiful guidance. I will always keep the trust You have given your servant. Bismillah.

TBC..