Me And My Man

86. POV Bramantyo

Today is the day of my return to my homeland, I returned the picture frame to the nightstand, a picture of me with my ex-wife and my son who have been in heaven.

Bianca's request I can't refuse, actually Linda could have recruited someone else to replace her, but yes I can smell their worries. Three years have I been widowed since my divorce with Chintya, still imagined until now the events that background our divorce.

If that night I hadn't come to pick up my wife and son from his best friend's house, maybe my son was alive and my family was intact. Until now I still curse that night but somehow the main cause of the event is not separated from my life. Alcohol, the damn thing that's killing every single one of my wits is wandering around. Still ticking until now, this moment...

Screaming of the woman who opened Linda's door to me, a disheveled face and disheveled hair. Ahh. This must be a friend of Bianca who was talked about the other day. Her appearance was the same as Chintya's when my son was 3 months old and required her to stay up every night...

Reyna. that name is getting stuck in my mind. The woman who more and more captivated me because of her personality, she was beautiful enough to be able to attract men out there even though she is currently the mother of one child. Not much to say and do not like stale, the humorous side out if with people he feels comfortable.

Although physically she's not my type but I don't know for a second that I can get off her side. Moreover, my heart has been captivated by the increasingly adorable toddler, Dewangga. The cute baby that was born seemed to replace the emptiness of my heart after my son died.

Reyna was still silent and chose to pretend to be stupid as if she didn't understand all the attention I was offering. The closer I got, the further I got, there wasn't much information I got from Bianca other than the background of her failing marriage. The guess from Bianca is that Reyna still expects to meet her ex-husband instead of Dewangga.

Don't call me Bramantyo if you can't melt Reyna's heart, I'm sure from the look in her eyes she wants this too. The pull on the corners of his lips widened every time he saw my closeness to God, his eyes even sparkled when God called me papa iyo...

But either way, until now he still keeps his distance. There are various ways I think of to soften this woman's hard heart. Truly she is a woman of steel and hard work, does not need to she just need to accept my proposal and be my wife.

My heart cheered when the romance side of sunset afternoon Bianca's wits managed to shake the fortress, now she became my whole woman. It feels like there is nothing more I need to wait to marry her immediately but it seems I also still have to be patient to see the absence of a dipper welcome from Reyna. At first I thought maybe because of the failure of her marriage that made her have to think long.

Until that day comes, the real father of God. A man who wasn't her husband but had fucked her. I really don't understand what has happened between them considering Reyna is a smart brained woman and careful in her attitude. My nyaliku was shriveled by the presence of Bimo, my mind was not functioning to be burned by jealous fire.

Reyna is Reyna, and she becomes more and more emotional when she realizes that Bimo is just a little bit of her past. My position remains as a winner at least to the gods even though I realize Reyna's love is only for the man.

I've never seen Reyna's passionate eye work, and I can always catch her when she's talking about Bimo.

Slowly but surely I feel something is wrong with my body, I am still fairly productive age. My body crumpled every time I had a heavy activity, my heart was painful and stiff. Especially when I started drinking that drink again. The demands forced me to return to alcohol, and at least two lashes were sometimes not enough to spend time with clients.

Until my return to Singapore, not just withdraw all assets because I have chosen to settle in the water. Annual general check-up schedule that I missed the last three years. My best friend who is a doctor advises for further tests, she has not revealed anything definitive.

My body seemed to float when the results of the test he conveyed via phone. I looked at Reyna's face fixedly before parting that night, this is how I had to let it go by asking her to make up with Bimo.

My body is getting weaker, only a few days after the test results came out, I was paralyzed and forced to be hospitalized in the country. Just the day before my intention to fly to Singapore to cancel all asset sales and conduct treatment there was accomplished.

I need Reyna's presence by my side right now but I can't bear to see that woman's precious tears fall

Really Reyna is a reliable fighter, her sweet smile can still be attracted to the corner of her lips to cheer me up. I can't imagine how broken his heart was at that moment. Tired of body he forced to accompany me at the last moment.

You know Reyna, when your first word came when we met in that white room

"Bad Bram's bad!"

I really want to answer

"My evil in this world is loving you!"

Because of me you suffer like this, sipping love that is only a moment that even withers before it can expand.

Because of me you're tormented withstanding the roar of tears in your chest that you could just spill.

Because I don't know until when you'll be able to open your heart back to Bimo.

I'm tired of Reyna, my body can no longer synergize with my spirit. My heart was sliced as you shed those stifled tears. I stroked your hair as you fell asleep next to my stiffened body. I kiss your hair soft. I'm really tired, I want to leave immediately. Please just let me go and start your life with a new sheet.

My spirit was back in the body when the words sincerely said from your lips, so happy I could see your beautiful face pale looking at me. My lips just move without sound coming out, I just want to say goodbye..

If my body is capable, I want to grab you when I see you fall down on that cold floor, chasing me...

I'm looking for you who can't be seen in the middle of mourners. Don't you want to take me last place?? My spirit cheered even when I saw you come running staggered with tears, those were the first tears I saw coming out without any burden from you. That's how much you lost to me..

Thank you Reyna for being an angel in my heart even though our story is so short, thank you for not soaking my body with your tears. Goodbye.....