
In me at this time there is also an inner conflict whether I should be honest with my father or lie for other reasons, but for what reason I lie to my father. Didn't I just think of Manda as a writing friend just no more than that. So I decided on the answer I would give to my father, and I said:
"So sir, so actually they're not Ray's enemies at school, only they're jealous because now Ray's the same girls they like."
With a slightly surprised face, the father then asked me another question :
"Then what is your relationship with the girl?, haven't you been close to any daughter except your sister?"said the father with a tone of wonder and insult subtly.
"Father don't misunderstand me first, yes, because my relationship with the girl is only a friend writing a novel and also I can certainly be close to any girl not only Nia alone."I said with a tone of annoyance because the father had indirectly offended my current status which is still JOMBLO status.
"Oh so still limited to friends yes, but if it is only a friend why are you willing to duel for the girl?"he said by showing his curious face.
You are often like this when talking to me, once I discuss about girlfriends at school he must immediately turn the topic of conversation towards dating relationships. Sometimes I get upset by myself and end the conversation. As of right now, I should find a way to stop this conversation immediately. But what is the right speech?.Finally after thinking about it for a while I decided to answer my father's question with this answer:
"It's not a matter of Ray's likes or dislikes with the girl, sir, but it's about Ray's self-esteem as a man!"
"It's weird yes, you suddenly talk about self-esteem even though all this time if there is filial work always make excuses for not coming along." said the father in a relaxed tone.
"Hey sir!, being challenged by the duel was equally rich in filial work." I said in an annoyed tone to my father.
"Yes that you know yourself, light service work is not challenged duel even want?"
Instantly I could not answer my father's question, because it was my fault that brought about the issue of self-esteem. I haven't thought about what I said, you have asked me another question :
"Have Ray been honest, what do you like about the girl?", so that it can make you go that far .
"I love the smile of the girl sir and I don't want to see her grieving" I said loudly to the father.
"Oh so, it seems like the father already has a girl he likes huh ?"said the father in a relaxed tone to respond to my statement.
"What do you mean my father liked the girl?, no sir we are just a friend writing a novel" I said in response to the father's words.
"You don't know Ray yet, that liking a girl's smile is the first sign you like that girl."
"What does this father say?, what can it be an early sign of love ?"I said with a surprised tone.
"Of course it could be Ray, because you've experienced it yourself when you first liked your mother."
Say it with a serious face.
"Ah sir, I'll have dinner first and then go study for tomorrow."my words returned my father's words in an annoyed tone as he walked towards the kitchen and left the father who was still sitting on the sofa of the family room.
Then he said to me who left him :
"Alright Ray, I'll tolerate your mistakes this time but if you get into trouble again at school, then your allowance next month will be confiscated ya."
"It's up to you, I don't care !"I said with a sharp tone to my father.
I took the dinner and ate it at the kitchen table, after I finished washing the dishes and immediately went back to my room to study school tomorrow. The clock in my room has shown at 21:45 WIB forcing me to immediately learn so as not to wake up tomorrow. At 23:00 I'm done studying for school tomorrow. I put my body in a mattress shortly after finishing tidying up the school book to bring tomorrow. But what the hell is this?, why am I so hard to sleep!.