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Episode 33: This Stifling Feeling

If before his gaze at me was full of warmth and cheerfulness, but now he is looking at me with a lazy and cold look like seeing a three-legged playboy.

I certainly do not like it if he looks at me like that, so I also intend to ask what the reason is until he looks at me like that :

"Nia why ka.... "

I haven't finished my words yet, Nia immediately cut them off by saying :

"Nia never had a sister who was suspended. "she said in a cold tone as she walked away from me to the family room.

I was stunned for a while at the place where I was standing at this time because I had just heard Nia's words of disappointment towards me as her sister.

My heart was immediately broken when I realized that Nia had been feeling disappointed in me at this moment. So now how does he get back to believing in me?. I stood there long enough to think about it, until finally there was a sound that resuscitated me :

"Hi Ray, why are you standing there?, he said he wanted to pray ashar, then the time is up" said the father who saw I did not move long enough from where I stand at this time.

I immediately responded to my father's words by saying :

"Yes sir, this is Ray going to pray ashar directly in the room." I said in a nervous tone as I started walking to my room.

"Yes there is a prayer hunt yes do not over time daydream again" said the father gave me remote advice.

"Yes sir, thank you for the advice" I said, closing the door when I entered.

In the room I immediately established the Ashar prayer by trying to focus my heart and mind fully on Allah SWT and momentarily forget all the events that I have experienced today. Whether at school or at home.

The Point of View Mandalina Dwi Pratiwi

I don't know why my chest feels so tight, when I see my two best friends, Ray and Sherly. Cuddled cordially in the back of the school a moment ago.

My tears had also involuntarily dripped down both of my cheeks upon seeing them do just that. What really made me feel this way, right?, shouldn't I be going along with my sen if I know Ray and Sherly are finally coming.

But how my heart seems to accept this same situation huh. The feeling continued to haunt my heart until I finally got into the car that picked me up to go home from school.

I then entered the car without saying anything and immediately pensive to see the panorama of the city from behind the window glass. Until my attention was distracted by the driver of my family, Pak Yono who suddenly greeted me by saying :

"Kok diem-diem aja Non Manda, again there is a problem at school huh ?" said Mr. Yono in a friendly tone while still driving my pickup car.

I immediately turned my gaze to the steering chair then said in a relaxed tone :

Pak Yono then cleared his throat for a moment then said to me :

"So for example there is a difficult task, Non Manda later can ask for help with Rani at home, he has already gone to college." said Mr. Yono offered me help to study with his son who also worked at my house.

"Ah do not bother sir, because Kak Rani also right as a student must have a more important task than having to teach Manda." kataku refused the subtle offer of Pak Yono because he did not want to trouble Kak Rani.

"Non Manda is indeed kind as usual yes, but non Kak Rani can also be educated because of the cost of her father Non Manda as my employer, so I'm sure Rani would be happy to help Non Manda's task as hard as it is."

"Oh yes sir, then later Manda will try to ask in the same teaching Kak Rani to do this task." I said with a happy tone to stop Mr. Yono from bringing up further about the scholarship my father gave to Kak Rani.

Pak Yono only smiled slightly in response to my words. I can tell because I saw the reflection of his smile on the front rearview mirror of my family car. I immediately said back to him:

"Pak Yono will be able to get us to see my mother first in the hospital before returning home ?"

"Oh yes, no, I happened to be told by Bi Asih to bring a clean shirt from Madam Muna to the hospital" said Mr. Yono in a polite tone as he looked at me from the front view of the car.

"Okay then we go to the hospital first sir" I said with a happy tone.

"Every non, like Non Manda already miss the same madam huh?" said Mr. Yono inquiring in response to my words.

"Yes sir, I'm already very upset because my mother is the person who most loved and understood my situation" I said politely answering Pak Yono's question.

"It's also non, because non parents who are at home are just mistresses, so definitely not really want to meet the same mistress ya."

I just smiled in response to Pak Yono's remark. Now I choose not to talk about it anymore because I do not want to remember the figure of the man who had alienated his existence from his mother and me as his own wife and child. All that he did was to build his business empire in this country that I thought was useless. Indeed, because of his efforts, our family life is very prosperous, but I prefer the presence of his figure as a father in our family compared to all the treasures he had sent to nourish my life and mother.

Without me realizing it because of the figure of the man, it turned out that the car I was riding in at this time had entered the hospital area where mother was treated. Immediately I removed my seat belt and got out of the car after my pickup car was completely parked in the hospital basement parking lot.

I actually wanted to go to the hospital immediately and see my mother, but I had to postpone my intention for a while because as a polite and kind child, I had to be, it is inappropriate if I go straight in without waiting for Mr. Yono who is currently taking a bag containing clean clothes for his mother who was placed in the trunk of the car.

After Mr. Yono took the bag, we immediately entered the hospital where my mother was treated. Pak Yono walked first and I followed behind him. This I do because after all as a young person must respect the existence of people older than him right. We stopped at the hospital reception for permission to visit my mother.

The hospital receptionist explained that we were allowed to enter but with the provision of having to leave the hospital room when six in the afternoon. This is so that patients can start resting at night without being disturbed. We understand the provisions and immediately complete the creation of a license to enter the patient.

After our license, immediately I and Mr. Yono took the elevator to my mother's hospital room on the third floor. I miss my mother so much right now, especially this meeting with her again after four days ago. This feeling of longing then made me immediately walk at a fast pace when we arrived on the third floor.

Mr. Yono could only smile a little at my behavior because he also understood my longing feelings for mother.