Marrying the Father of My Foster Son

According to the Initial Plan

Sitting leaning against the back of the sofa with both feet pressed against each other. Hand massaging the forehead that feels dizzy. It had been almost thirty minutes sitting alone in a quiet room without anyone's company.

Ghani decided to return to the hospital and leave the work to his subordinates. Even he was absent from the meeting led by Leon, his close friend because now his mind is chaotic and can not think clearly. Rather than his presence, it makes things worse, it is better not to attend and entrust all business to the friend.

The sound of knocking shoes echoed across the room as the door was tightly closed. A man with an oriental face walked over to the sofa, where Ghani was sitting.

"Why are you suddenly allowed to not attend a meeting, Ghan? We are all waiting for your presence in the meeting room, but you just do not come permission. Knows no, Mr. Sadam tuh until willing to come to the meeting room for lo. However, his hope was wiped out when he found out that you couldn't come up with an unclear reason."

Sitting next to Ghani then patted his best friend on the shoulder. "Does this have anything to do with Queensha? Didn't your meeting produce results to make a moody face like this?" lorris Leon.

Glancing at a glance then smiling bitterly. Spotlight eye pain emanated clearly from a pair of brown irises. Hearts were torn apart, hope and wish were scattered in the wind when he heard that his flesh blood died after being born into this world.

The fetus was present by mistake, but that does not mean Ghani did not love the blood of his flesh. He loved his future son as much as Aurora, his adopted daughter.

"Queensha knows the truth. And as predicted, he was furious once he knew that I raped him because of the influence of stimulants. I've explained it in detail without anything being covered up, but he's still angry because I feel like I've ruined his future." Taking a deep, heavy breath and saying, "Gue can tell that he hates me. I was wrong and I admit it all."

"Then, what else is going on between you? I don't think your mood might be this chaotic just because of trivial things." Leon notices Ghani's appearance looking messy. The navy color tie wrapped around the neck shifts a few inches from where it should be. Her jet black hair was messy as if it had never been combed for a very long period of time. Really apprehensive.

Unable to be dammed again, a crystal circle flowed in the corner of Ghani's eye. The man sobbed when he recalled his meeting with Queensha thirty minutes ago. The meeting was indeed short, but enough to break Ghani's heart into small fragments that if blown will fly carried by the wind.

Leon is surprised to be made because Ghani is not a weak type of man, can cry easily just because he is hated by someone.

Rubbing Ghani's shoulder, trying to calm his best friend through the soft touch. "Slow story, actually what happened between lo and Queensha. Why are you so melow like this, Ghan? The Ghani I know is a strong, cold guy who never cries then why do you get more emotional, hem."

With a feeling of being crushed, Ghani began to tell the story of the incident he passed a few minutes ago. Starting from him who came to the restaurant met Queensha's best friend to the moment where he beat Rama, did not escape the story. The crying became more and more when he told her that the results of his actions once presented a new life in Queensha's womb.

But the baby was not lucky. He died a few minutes after he was born.

"Gue felt like a bastard who could not keep God's trust. If only I had met Yogi earlier it might not have happened to this extent. I can look after and protect that baby, Yon."

"Gue can understand how you feel, Ghan. Although I have not married, but know very well how it feels to lose someone who is very dear especially it is your own flesh and blood."

"How else, is it not all the will of the Creator? Everything on this earth is determined by God. We as human beings can only be patient and sincerely accept that."

Ghani brushed Leon's hand off violently. He knew very well that everything on this earth had not escaped His plan. However, the heart is still unable to accept the fact that a tiny baby girl died without ever seeing the faces of her parents.

Get up from the chair and look at Leon. "Lo was easy to say that because he was never in my position. For five years I lived in agony because feeling guilty had taken away the sanctity of Queensha. Then now that he had met her, that sense of regret instead of disappearing became even more."

"Gue had thought, if I hadn't asked Alvin for help, I would have been living happily with Queensha, Rora and our son. Home from work was warmly welcomed by the smiles coming from my wife and children. However, apparently it was just wishful thinking, it would never come true."

Leon shook his head, letting Ghani vent his anger. He heard all the uneg-uneg men without any intention to interrupt him. In this situation silence is the best option to avoid unwanted things.

After feeling much better than before, Leon again opened his voice. "Lantas, now what do you want to do? Stay with the original goal, ask Queensha to refer as a form of accountability to him?"

Take a deep breath, hold it for a while then exhale slowly. Ghani's eyes stared out the window at the clear blue sky in the sky.

"of course. No matter what happens I'll stay close to him, using all sorts of means to get Queensha back. Moreover, he has given birth to my flesh and blood so where might I just release it," replied Ghani as flat as possible.

"As a friend, I will continue to support you as long as it does not conflict with the religion and norms that apply in this country. I'm standing behind you and ready to help if needed. Don't ever ask for my help."

Still with a cold face Ghani replied, "Thanks because you are always by my side under any circumstances. I don't know what to do if there's no lo. Maybe now I'm back up the drink to eliminate the dizziness in the head."

Leon chuckled softly at hearing that. "Gue is not a hypocrite, but in my opinion, alcoholic beverages are not the only solution to all the problems that come. Better ask the Creator for a clue who knows He gave way to you."

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