Married Wrong

Chapter 13 POV El-Suci /I Consider This a Nightmare

Why is that his look? Is he going to desecrate me? Remember this in the room?!

Moreover, his unconscious state, his consciousness that was covered with his drunken state. I have to tepis my bad thoughts, where possible.

He'll do something indecent to me. He hugged me squeezing my body, glued his arms together.

He called me back, "El." Call her slowly undressing all the clothes she is wearing.

"Maybe she'll take a shower" I thought, and I held her hand to carry her to the bathroom.

But my guess was wrong, I was wrong. I was too innocent to fend off all those thoughts. It turns out that bad things are going to happen.

Why in this situation you are this innocent El, he is being influenced by al-koh*l and his consciousness either way.

Is it possible that he would rightly stain me?

Is he, he's gonna mengk?

Does he want to ruin my life?

I'm stupid, I'm stupid. You stupid El. Help anyone out there help me, I want to get out of sister illy's room!!

My eyes began to glaze over, he pushed my body violently onto the bed.

"So I'm aware of this El's brother." I said trying to wake up.

Cup

But he instead kissed me a glance...

Cup

He added* I'm back, "What the hell, sis,"

I revolted as hard as I could, I didn't want this to happen. I don't want to keh*rmat*nku forcibly snatched like this.

He re-launched the action, he forced my clothes to be removed from my body.

"Ah, Brother Will please realize this is not done brother, this is not true brother." I flailed his head, grabbed him.

Instead of stopping, he blocked both my hands above my head. I can't do anything else, my energy is drained even this is all for nothing.

Though I can a little martial arts then why at this time I can not fight it? Is it because he's my foster brother so I can't make him battered?

"Ah... Don't huhuhu," I cried so much.

With a raucous voice I groaned but was not heard. I think too much about him. But not thinking about myself. L'm... I can only cry over all this.

I don't know how many hours he's done that bad thing to me, until he stops and hugs me very tightly and kisses me on my forehead.

"El I love you so much." Brother Willy whispered in my ear, until he dropped his body by my side and covered me.

I cry incessantly I cry how my life will be.

What about the people I love so much?

Will he accept me? My crying broke too.

I stared at the beautiful bead of tired eyes, I held her face with my fingers.

"You've been thinking about my brother why are you asking*me? Why did you ruin my life, brother." By wiping away my broken tears.

Unknowingly I fell asleep in a dream.

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Yes, reality and a very bad dream for me.

Nightmares for my future. Even now I hate it with my whole life. I don't even want to just look at her nose, not even her face.

I don't want to stay in this house anymore, Mas Tino I'm now devastated. I love you so much, but I've been stained.

I feel very inappropriate at this time.

I don't think I deserve to be your mother.

I don't deserve to be a mother to your children!.

I shook off the blanket, I got out of bed and picked up one by one my clothes, and I put them back on. With tears in my eyes I tried to leave the room for my room.

With a shaky step I began to see the situation on the left and right side, I did not want the servants of this house to know that last night I was rooming with that person.

When the atmosphere was safe I went out to my room, I ran towards my bathroom, I waited a few minutes to fill the warm water in the bath-tub.

To take away for a moment the feeling of tired, sad, crushed in my head. I rubbed my whole body with one bottle of liquid soap, I wanted her body not to fuse with mine.

after a few hours of cleaning myself, I went out of the room with my eyes.

"Why is this all happening in my life. When I'm gonna try to be a good wife to her. Why doesn't fate favor happiness over me, I hate myself I hate." Banging my chest and crying in my room.

I really feel like this is a nightmare. I'm gonna make this all a nightmare in my life.

I have to act like this is not happening what will make me defress, I do not want to marry him, I do not want to destroy the happiness of other women. Even though I am tormented here.

What if I'm pregnant? I tepis the thought of where it could possibly contain just one time in doing.

As much as possible I should try to act like normal. I can only look for the sins I have committed. Although it still feels pain and pain all over the body.

I don't care about any of that. When I was daydreaming with empty thoughts that were whack on my brain, a pair of burly hands grabbed me, he hugged me tightly.

"El." Calling my name out loud I made sure she was crying because I heard her sobbing.

Really I was so weak, my tears fell back as he spoke sobbing, does he regret everything?? Is it because he feels guilty? Or what? Because what?

I just hit that burly chest hard.

"Bad brother of you, how I don't love you, I don't want to marry you." With a rebuking whistle I stressed I did not want to be with him.

"I'm sorry El."

"Please understand this situation, we have to get married I've ruined your life." He wanted to take responsibility but I foolishly rejected him firmly.

I do not want to destroy the happiness of others, let me suffer here let me bear all this, this is the path of the Destiny of my Life, this is the message of my life.

Do not bring others to ruin in this matter. Let me be the one who is broken to pieces.

"There's no need Brother please don't force me I don't want to live with you!"

"Let only between the two of us know what happened. But let no one else know, be ordinary I will not change my attitude to you. Even though you ruined my life."

"Let the past pass, I do love you but my love as a Brother to you is no more than that" I said at length.

"Go away go leave me alone, I want to be alone for now." He let go of that and came out of my room.

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