Magic Post From Ex
early stopover
Right at the beginning of Ramadan, I visited the very former house, precisely at the house of in-laws, we me and my son were taken forcibly, he said, with the lure of the lure to be bought the main lebaran clothes will be given for the purposes of fasting as well as lebaran later, so we go there during the day.My child remains the spirit of fasting while shopping for his needs.
on the afternoon of Maghrib when we break our fast, I do not suspect a thing, because I believe this holy month no man dares to resist sin, according to the man who has faith.
on my way home from the mall with our ex and our son, it was not yet when Maghrib was two hours away, but I was treated to sweet tea, if viewed carefully the color of tea in general is a bit murky, almost like coffee drunk half and then add more water, the aroma of tea is not smelled, I doubt it , ' I doubt it ,there is a strange feeling enveloped, my former in-laws try to convince "drinking is okay. By calling the name of God I first will read bismillah, I resigned his body.
at night before going to sleep, my heart is restless, this body wants to be touched by his, dirty mind haunts, with heart palpitations, I try to calm myself with a deep breath by closing my eyes, finally I pretended to be asleep, until one o'clock in the night I woke up, I saw him looking at me while smoking his cigarette, groping his own chest, "why wake up .
" i'm surprised what time it is. I said.
" 1:35.he said.
" oh. please cas HP.
" kangen is not the same touch I. he said.
" .. I'm just a head gnaw
ever since then my mind has always been on him, my heart thumping if I say that name, sometimes even I cry I will miss him, about him even the pain he inflicts on me.
often I daydream never know a place, when my sister said "do not stay there, better look for the busyness that becomes worship..
I realized, I finally tried to fight all that, I started with a tadarus in one day one sometimes two juz of the Quran, I felt a more calm heart.
my day passes by drawing near to the almighty God for peace of heart.
when someone came to propose to me but I refused on the grounds of dislike.when there was a chance I met a man, I met a man, I felt a match after going on to something serious and coming face to face with me the man must have retreated, this happened not only two or three times spelled out often. until the end I am tired and desperate.I surrender to Allah SWT, I said if there is no soul mate in the world, make sure Robbi there is my soul mate in the second life.
I always pray every prayer of my night, shedding all this heartbreak.
I plead for healing the body is always turbulent what is this strange thing I still ask, like the noise of every building from sleep, I have to find out with what to normal again.
