Lucia, Charm of Pregnant Maaba

Equally Painful

In silence I hid, behind this scarred curtain, with uncertain promises, past sufferings that I struggled with, as if it would never stop.

Making peace with an inexhaustible self, mortgaging time can be repeated, hoping to pull a tangled thread that breaks apart.

Lucia stared at the dark night sky, in a quiet dim room, without sandals to cover the soles of the feet, letting the chill of the tiles pierce down to the veins.

The third night in the rental house he occupied, completely alone, from the outside was like an uninhabited space.

Tong Ting!

The clinking of the sound made Lucia aware of the haunting, the sound of the house bell that signified the arrival of a guest at night.

"Lucia?"

The sound made his neck turn 90 degrees, the door that was still closed only seen long enough, tired to just drag a step there.

But twice her name was called, forcing the woman out of her comfort zone.

"Lucia?"

"Yes, Madam? I'm here" Lucia showed up.

The adult woman breathed a sigh of relief, finding Lucia in a state of fine.

"I'm sorry I came night-night"

"No problem, Madam. I haven't slept yet"

The woman nodded, it was not the right time he visited at the break, but he tried to take the time as much as possible.

"Eat already?"

"Today" added Lucia.

"How much bribe?" Ask again.

Lucia bit her lower lip, but just answered honestly like before, but this simple question is like a complicated matter for Lucia.

"Two"

"Just two??"

Lucia moved her head up and down, forced to confess, the woman in front of her was not a fool who could be silent with just a reasonable answer.

"The food is not good? What did you eat?"

"I bought Soto and chicken porridge by the roadside"

"Why only two bribes?"

Lucia shook her head slowly, "Not good, it tastes tasteless"

A smile rose from the lips of the formally dressed woman there, her gaze fixed on Lucia's arm stroking her own distended stomach.

"What does the baby want? Let me buy you some food"

"No, madam. I'm not hungry anymore" Lucia refused quickly.

"But the baby may be hungry, she needs a healthy intake. Maybe you don't want to, but the baby?"

Lucia's bowed lethargic, it's been a few months her appetite is gone. Lucia only consumes things because she remembers the little creature inside her stomach. He was forced.

"You what? Let me buy it, don't hesitate. Precisely I won't calm down if you refuse" offered Lucia a little coercion.

"Fried rice?"

Lucia fended off, nausea overshadowed eating rice these nights, she didn't want heavy meals.

"I eat bread and fruit only"

"I bought it"

"It's still in the fridge, I take it first" Lucia passed into the kitchen, took food to prop her up, Lucia admitting a little hungry, but her empty stomach was nothing compared to the contents of Lucia's mind.

He returned to the place earlier, joining his guest on the sofa.

"Let me cut" The woman took a whole apple, peeled off her skin to split into pieces.

While Lucia tried to swallow a piece of peanut butter bread with great difficulty, it tasted good but Lucia was less fortunate when tasting it.

"Not already?"

"When? Last month?"

"Do you have to check the content every month?" Lucia stunning.

"Of course, let alone approaching the month of birth"

Lucia did not ask any more, her minimal knowledge about pregnancy caused her own confusion for Lucia, plus Lucia very rarely sought important information about pregnant women.

"I'll try to bring Ghani later"

The deg!

Hearing that name Lucia suddenly froze, just mentioned it had made my feathers stand up, not to mention if she met Lucia wanted to run away. If you can not just come, but unfortunately Lucia did not dare to reveal.

"Master must be busy, I'm in between the Madam" that's all Lucia can do.

"Yes, I also said I was working on it"

"If not coming is also not a problem" continued Lucia berliirih.

Suddenly he glanced at Lucia, hearing the opposite tone to the sentence that came out, it was further strengthened when he saw Lucia's expression.

"You can't keep dodging, there are baby candidates who need you"

Silence came, the atmosphere changed gradually. Mutually struggling with each other's thoughts, due to the fact that never ends.

A sense of tightness was approaching not only Lucia, but also the woman next to her. Clear eyes that glazed, as an omen, as strong as his heart he reabsorbed the lining even though it slightly came out at the end of the eye.

"Sorry Mistress....." A trembling tone came out from Lucia's vocal cords, without looking at her knowing she had hurt her heart.

"You don't have to apologize, my love will never diminish"

Is that what is called love? Lucia feels like she doesn't get love better than knowing her.

"How can I be as strong as my lady? If it was me, I would have made sure I never could" Lucia said.

Taking a deep breath, he smiled resolutely, gazing towards the front, looking at the shadow of someone who had appeared from behind his own glasses.

"For the longer we will understand the more, if the highest level of love is to accept and understand its nature, it is no longer about when it wants to change"

The words pierced right like an arrow, a reality that can only be felt from one to a thousand humans, can be felt but not successfully tried.

Oh God, drop nirvana on this woman next to him. In physical and material abundance, there is one problem that cannot heal the mind. Lucia prayed in her heart.

"If only that time...."

"Ssttt..... Do not you remember the incident again, sometimes something that is not good at the beginning will bear sweet fruit at the end. For example, the fetus, he will be a happiness for you and Ghani, even me" interrupted Lucia's speech referring to the back story.

"Now don't talk about it, I want to know your activities on campus earlier. Ospeknya tiring?" Switching topics to light discussion.

"Lumayan, but I mostly stayed in the UKS. She said pregnant women are quiet enough to feel tired"

"So what were you doing there?"

"In the morning I joined the line in the field, in the afternoon in the UKS, and in the afternoon came again to the hall to listen to the speeches of the lecturers" explained Lucia.

"How long is ospeknya's activity?"

"Sunday"

"Have you got a new friend?"

"Not yet" Lucia said honestly.

"Why? They're avoiding you?" Guessing.

"No, I prefer it myself. He was also the first to go home first"

"Nobody hurt you, right?"

"No, maybe..."

"Not yet" the great-grandson Lucia added.

"You're a strong boy, I'm sure you'll be fine there"